Glee on my tv

Happy Monday (if there is such a thing).  Ms. Gator wasn’t feeling well and woke me up in the middle of the night for food.  I fed her and grabbed a soda and turned on some more Glee.  After about an hour I was wide awake and decided that I would come down and run my report for work (yep I still have to run them even though I am on vacation this week).  I took care of that and then back upstairs to be with my girl and finally back to bed.  She pushed the limit and woke me up again at 7a because she thought it was time for work.  I let her think I was going to get her food and closed her out of the room and then back to bed I went.  She was pissed when I finally opened the door a couple hours later, but I think (& hope) she understood.  Daddy needs his sleep w/o it he is useless. 

I was supposed to go to the grocery store this morning but instead just took the day off and huddle up here at home.  Spent time with Ms. Gator who appears to be feeling better now.  I’ll for sure go tomorrow because there isn’t much here to eat and I am just about out of soda.  Even though I have been looking I didn’t make any Cyber Monday purchases.  I did have to purchase a watch battery but don’t count that as a Cyber Monday purchase since it wasn’t on sale. 

I completed my Ancestry account last night and was amazed at all of the information you can find on their site.  Of course they want you to join so they tease you and when you find something your interested in and go to view the document you get blocked with a pay wall page.  I’m thinking of giving them some money for a subscription.  I got a saw a small thumbnail of my grandfather’s draft card, which was appealing to me.  There are 2 methods to my madness here.  1 is to find out more about my DNA and health issues.  2 is to find 1/2 brothers & sisters which I know I have, I can’t say for certain this will be successful when the results are published but in the years to come who knows what might be possible.  I am cautiously optimistic.  I just hope this doesn’t turn into a waste of money and that there is some real insight here.  It will be 6 to 8 weeks before the results are back. 

I am running another report for work for today, then I will be shaving & cutting my hair.  Another shower and hopefully I will fall into a blissful sleep.  I did have a nap and know that I won’t be in bed by my usual time but that will provide me with more opportunity to continue watching Glee.  That show just takes me away from present day and issues that I have, the music is mostly great and there are plenty of hunks that were in the cast so it’s not a boring show to me. 

Here’s hoping that tomorrow is a more productive day for me and that I get some good food.  It’s really cold outside, we had snow flurries this morning so the news said but I didn’t see any.  There isn’t snow in the forecast for now but that changes so often I wouldn’t be surprised to see the white stuff flying before too long. 

Be well, stay safe and we will talk again soon.  Take care!

Christmas is here, sort of

I received my pay that was withheld from when we had a mandatory pay reduction over the summer and then on top of that we get our regular paychecks. What to do with all of that money? I did manage to save some of it. I paid off Marv’s funeral and Insty’s vet visit. I’m waiting for my auto insurance to generate a bill and I will pay that off. Then I went shopping on Amazon. Insty got some steps so that it will be easier to get into bed or onto the couch, depending upon where I place them. I figured this would be a good investment since she has her arthritis and provided, she uses them, it will help her.

I got a pizza set (stone, shovel & cutter) that was on sale, some muffins, white chocolate Snickers, a pet Dust Buster, a life size Charlie Puth cut out that comes with a free mini cut out of him, some paper towels (there is a shipping charge now on Amazon and they are on a serious back order). It’s not much but it’s amusing to me. Funny how you start tossing things into the cart and when you go to check out you get a dose of reality. At least I didn’t buy another pen, but we all know that I will be giving in to do that eventually.

My new Roku Ultra showed up today and setup was super simple. The hardest part was entering my Netflix password because it’s so long. The other sites sent an email to me, click on a link it opens a webpage and you login and then enter in a unique identifier that is on your screen. Having a wired connection appears to be working much better. I’m watching a podcast that I usually enjoy on a Sunday afternoon, it’s technology oriented. I also received a few other items the other large one being my Ancestry purchase. I am eager to get that in the mail to get the results.

Outside of the time I spent in front of the computer this morning the rest of the day has been spent by watching more Glee and sleeping. I finally got a shower this afternoon and hit up the pet food store. I also made it by the post office and had to drop off a package at a UPS drop box. Amazon goofed up in sending me my sweatpants. I ordered XX Large. The package said it was XX Large but the product inside was XXX Large. Needless to say, they didn’t fit (thank God) and rather than try to grow into them I opted to send them back. I ordered replacements and changed brands; they actually got more money out of me.

I am being super lazy and really lack in the motivation area but I must say a shower did help things. Insty of course protested, I don’t know why it upsets her so much. While I was out, I noticed that the fast-food places didn’t have many cars in line. I wanted to stop but talked myself out of it. Sure, I have turkey and ham here but I am so sick of it. I need to go to the grocery store tomorrow. Very hungry for Steak N Shake. I got their app for my phone and started to place an order. However, you have to pay for it in advance via the app and then you can go pick it up. Money is not the issue, it’s the thought of keying in a debit/credit card into a 3^rd party app. It just doesn’t sit well with me, while it’s probably secure I’d rather not take my chances, especially since I don’t typically charge food and use my debit card.

I’m going to scrounge around and figure out what I can eat for supper and of course the queen bee here will probably get more food. It’s very strange to shop for just one cat since for 16 years I have been buying for multiple cats. I walk out spending around $20 per week which is not bad, considering back in the day when I had 7 mouths to feed a weeks’ worth of food was $50. I don’t honestly know how I managed to afford it but no one here has ever gone hungry be it cat or human.

My hair is so long and out of control. I need to break out the clippers and start shaving but I just don’t want to do it. I will give in eventually because long hair will get to me. Well off to find some supper. Let us hope that I can stay motivated so that I make some progress in cleaning up this place and I don’t sleep and sit on my ass all week-long accomplishing nothing. It does feel good to veg out.

Take care and have a great week ahead. I will talk with you all again soon.

Holiday events

I did make it to my friends house in the afternoon and we had plenty of food for the 3 of us, their neighbors and they sent me home with food.  The package of food that I ordered for us changed with respect to desert we didn’t get anything Pumpkin which was a disappointment.  We did get some Chocolate Cake Balls which were delicious.  So good that I am thinking of driving to get some myself. 

I stayed well past the time I wanted to and wound up driving home in the dark.  I didn’t see a police officer at all when I came down via the interstate.  When I went home via the city I found a flurry of cops.  They needed them on the interstate because some hillbilly almost side swiped me trying to rev up his Dodge Charger. 

The problem for me was coming home to poor Insty left all alone for a few hours.  She though for sure I wasn’t coming back ever.  I was scolded and she got to eat some food.  We spent time together and that sorted things out.  She wasn’t too pleased with the fact that I was up late and the lights were on, she made me go to bed eventually. 

I watched the new documentary on Netflix about Shawn Mendes.  He’s also put up a full concert which I haven’t seen yet but plan to watch.  He makes some good music but I am mostly interested in his body, as lots of other gay men are.  It was interesting to see behind the scenes and with him on the road.  There is more pressure there than I could possibly fathom and knowing that so many people are counting on you wow that would weigh on me.  I saw him break down as he had to cancel a concert because his voice and health was spent.  Charlie Puth had to do the same thing a few times when he was on tour.  These younger musicians push themselves so hard and they indeed burn the candle at both ends, which ultimately compromises their health and ability to preform.  It’s no different than if you or I did the same thing.  Too much pressure/stress isn’t good for anyone. 

Here we are on Black Friday.  I passed up a hell of a good deal last night on an External Hard Drive that was around $150 for 12tb.  There hasn’t been anything close to that good of a deal today that I have seen.  Perhaps on Cyber Monday. 

I purchased an Ancestry Health Kit going to take the DNA plunge and see what I can learn about myself and my relatives.  I also bought a new ROKU that has an ethernet port so that will replace the newer ROKU that is in the living room, which will be moving to my bedroom.  I’ve been looking at TV’s and while I don’t need one I’d like something new for my bedroom.  I also got some socks and weather stripping.  The only real bargains I got were on the DNA test and the ROKU.  I should have everything next week. 

I had to take time to run some reports for work and figured I would update everyone.  I am watching GLEE on Netflix because I can’t find anything else that is of interest to me.  Regardless of the series they all suck me in and waste time.  I started this morning and before I knew it was 5p.  I will also confess I’ve been quite lazy and no real energy to get started but I will need to put some pep in my step if I am to accomplish anything.  A week seems like a long period of time and it is if you have nothing going but if your trying to accomplish something it will be gone in a flash.  I honestly don’t want to go back to work but I know it will be good for me as is taking a break.  I will likely take time within the 1st quarter as year end always wears me out.  Ah well enough about work, I am on vacation for now. 

I hope that you had a great Thanksgiving and got some great food.  I am headed back up to be with the furry queen bee and dive back into to GLEE.  Take care, stay safe and be well.  Talk with you all again soon. 

Give thanks today & every day

Believe it or not it’s Thanksgiving 2020!  It’s been a most uncommon year and we have all been through so much.  Regardless of your present circumstances, we all have something to be thankful for.  I hope that each of you has a very enjoyable Thanksgiving holiday and that you get some good food. 

Happy Thanksgiving!

Boring–Party of 1

It’s been a long boring day and I am happy to say that I slept a good part of it away.  Knocked out my morning report and then went back to bed.  Gator joined me but she knew I should be working but she loves cuddle time.  Finally it was lunch time and she DEMANDED food and that is what got me up. 

I had about an hour worth of meetings to attend this afternoon, then we watched TV until I decided to go back.  I figured might as well accomplish something. 

I am still sore from my fall and my feet are quite bruised up.  Wearing shoes actually hurts but not nearly as bad as the day after the fall.  I don’t believe anything is broken and I expect that the soreness will subside.

Another boring evening awaits and then it will be back to work tomorrow.  I’ve got plenty of meetings tomorrow so there won’t be any napping or sleeping in. 

Happy Monday, hope it was a great day for you!

Sunday Accomplishments

I made it to the grocery store at a decent hour. My four-legged alarm clock had me up at 5a to feed her. Then she knew when I should be up and headed to the store so she started in at 8a and I finally gave in and got out of bed at 8:30a. By 9a I was at the grocery store.

My impulse purchase of the day was pretzels covered in white chocolate, they had it placed right as you walk in the door. Crafty marketing people. There were no long lines and it didn’t seem like any one was keeping track of how many people were in the store at one time. I did pick up 2 holiday meals for 1. There is some turkey, mashed potatoes, stuffing, sweet potatoes and cranberry’s [yuk!]. I love left overs and wanted to make sure that I have plenty.

I got called by a co-worker a few times asking for help and worked with him roughly for about 45 minutes to an hour on a few different problems. These were divided up into 3 different calls. In between this I managed to vacuum and get the backdoor and front windows covered with the plastic kits I purchased. I’ve been putting the covering task off for a while and it’s worked to my advantage with some warmer weather. I bought 3M in case your wondering. I just throw it up and don’t bother to try to smooth out wrinkles with the hair dryer. When it’s daylight out you can’t tell the difference. It’s night time when the wrinkles show. That’s why I stick with 3M. Last year was my first year of doing this and I purchased 2 different brands. 3M has the best product by far and it looks the best, even with my haphazard manner of installation.

There was a short nap this morning after returning from the store. Outside of that I have been watching TV or browsing social media. I placed an order for a couple pairs of sweat pants and a fruit cake (of all things). It’s supposed to be a ‘best seller’ and really good. I’ll be the judge of that. I did look to make sure there was no booze in it. I had an aunt that used to make them each year and they wreaked of booze, which everyone but me liked. Gator and I took in some TV and then it was supper time, so I passed out her supper. I had Stouffer’s Mac & Cheese. I bought a pizza but figured I would save it for another day.

I am waiting patiently for Amazon to deliver my keyboard caps from Razer. I ordered them in White and think they will look really good once I swap them out. I really wanted to get this job done today but from the pace of things it looks like this will be a job for tomorrow or another day. I’m not a gamer but Razer makes some good stuff and I like the RGB lighting effects. Speaking of games, I saw the new Oculus that is available. You don’t need a PC for it and it’s around $200 to $300. Looks like a lot of fun and it’s got that immersive experience. While I’d like to take it for a spin, I am hesitant because while it would be all the rage now, in a month or more I might not be so enamored by it and I would lose interest. I bought a Nintendo WI because I had to have it and got a couple games for it. Today that unit lives in a closet. I played with it for a couple months and then lost interest. It wasn’t a cheap purchase and I got a limited edition of the console that was sold on Amazon. So much for that.

I need to run my report for work. Then I can squeeze in more TV time and grab a shower. Then it will be time for bed and back to Monday. My calendar actually is pretty open so there is at least one task that I am planning on knocking out. Cramming 5 days into 3 is quite the challenge and most people will be out this week and also next week. With taking my sick day last week, after my upcoming vacation I will still have 5.5 hours to burn before the end of the year, chances are that I will lose the time. It’s not the worst thing in the world, if I didn’t have this silly report to run in the morning then I would actually only be losing a ½ hour. My boss was pushing to get the report discontinued for now since there are no plans of re-entry, that was the reason why I had to start running it in the first place.

I hope that you enjoyed the weekend.  Have a great week ahead, be safe and we will talk again soon.

The 3rd Fall

 

For the third time this year I managed to fall. We [or should I say I now] have a large ladder mounted in the garage. On top of that ladder is a large flag pole that once was mounted in our yard. I placed the cat waste in the garage and noticed as I was walking out the door that the flag pole was over my head. It’s never been there or if it has, I never noticed it. I was in sweatpants and socks. I started wrestling with this pole to get it to move and took my focus off of the ground and that’s when I managed to lose my balance and fall out of my house on to the concrete floor of the garage. My feet got the worst of it. Kind of felt like they were caught underneath the door. I was mad, confused and hurt at the same time. My first thought was getting back upright which was a slightly moderate task. Once I did that, I looked my body over and my feet were killing me. I don’t believe anything is broken but my feet are quite bruised up and my back hurts. This all occurred on Tuesday evening, so I took Wednesday off. When I woke up, I just wasn’t feeling work and it’s not like I don’t have time to burn.

As you might have guessed already, I didn’t put the flag pole there and in fact I didn’t even want a flag. This was the handy work of my late spouse. I am mad that he left me with so much crap to sort through, it’s overwhelming and I’ve put it off for years now. I know he’s not coming back but I felt stuck to move forward and start sorting through things. Moving or not, it’s something that I really need to address and that’s kind of what I would like to work on during my upcoming vacation. I had planned to do that a month ago but with Marv’s passing that just messed up my plans.

What rang home to me was the reminder of how alone I actually am. Gator was loading up on water and in the kitchen. She was curious as to what I was up to but she couldn’t save me if I needed that. I wasn’t near a phone. I just imagine if I would have hit my head and passed out. No one checks on me (not that I need it) but I know that each business day my employer would be the likely one to reach out if I failed to connect from home and start my work day. This pandemic couldn’t have hit at a worse time [not that there would ever be a good time]. It shut down my efforts to date and try to meet someone. I know that eventually life will return to a state of normal and it will be safe to resume my efforts to find a companion. I know I shouldn’t have these thoughts but I will be older, likely fatter and that will make it more difficult. I’ve moved pass this but really could do without the falls or the reminders that I am all alone.

Life in my neck of the woods has changed since I last posted. COVID cases are surging out of control here and across the US. There are stronger restrictions in place and people are asked [not required by law or an order] to stay home unless it’s essential. Thanksgiving gathering should be limited to those people you live with and you shouldn’t have any outsider in your home regardless if they are related or not. Gatherings should be no more than 10 people. People clearly aren’t taking this seriously and doing the right things like social distancing, wearing a mask and washing their hands. Just watch the news and the death tole and rate of infection continue to climb each and every day. I look forward to the day when this is under control.

I went out for the mail and cat food this afternoon. I had to stand in a very long line to cash out and I had this grumpy guy behind me who was barking at every little thing. I turned to him and asked him if he wanted to move in front of me and he declined saying that his wife was still shopping so it didn’t matter. Then his wife kept fluttering by what do you think the dog will think of this toy? What do you think that cat will think of this, should we get it? That was a mess and I was never so happy to get away from someone.

Lines I think will be apart of the new normal. I can only imagine that people are panicking and that store shelves will be bare or close to it. I plan to do my normal grocery shopping tomorrow; I hope that I am not in for a shock.

On the work front we got some good news as it relates to money. Things are going really well and they plan to release the funds that were deducted over the summer when there was a mandatory pay reduction in effect. We should have our money back hopefully by the end of December. I will tuck it away as you never know when a rainy day will come.

I finished up the Netflix Series ‘Sick Note’ it was okay but one of those series that suck you in and you have to know how it all ends. I wasn’t terribly interested in it but am glad to have finished it. I am watching an old TV Show that was on ABC called ‘Private Practice’. It’s about doctors in what else but private practice. It was okay at first but right now there is a lot of death and it’s a bit hard to continue to watch. It hits way too close to home and brings back unpleasant memories. A colleague suggested that I watch the show It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia. I’ve watched a couple of episodes and think it’s interesting but I don’t know that it’s for me. I haven’t chuckled but I do see the humor, then again, I am a tough customer when it comes to laughter but once you get me started it’s tough to bring it to an end.

Looking forward to a short 3-day work week and then vacation begins. That’s right I don’t have to go back until the first full week in December.

Finally, on a deeply personal note, I have enjoyed some porn recently. I wasn’t horny per se but once I started watching the scenes did the trick for me. I am concerned that my libido has suffered but it’s probably situational and once life returns to normal (which will probably be a long time) those feelings will come back or so I hope. I do plan on mentioning this to my doctor as it’s bothersome. There are 2 pleasures I have, one of them is eating and the other is sex even if it’s solo, I want and need the release.

Well like a prom dress I am off to tend to the needs of Gator and take in some more TV. I am doing my best procrastination work in putting things off that I could do today for tomorrow. Let’s just hope tomorrow I am in the mood to deal with them.

Take care and be well. We will talk again soon.

Unique Experience

I had an experience on Friday [yeah I know it was the 13th as well] that I feel is unique. For weeks now I’ve known that a credit card of mine has been compromised. I didn’t think anything of it because the card is locked. I unlock it when I am going to make a purchase and then I use a virtual number. I never give the physical card number out. The card never leaves my home.

Friday was the kicker when someone tried to purchase $400 in groceries. That is when I reported the card as compromised. I was issued a replacement card and if I so elected, I could obtain the new card number rather than waiting for the mail to deliver it. I elected to wait as I am in no hurry to use the card. Within 2 minutes I got an alert that someone was trying to use the new card.

Now I had to call to talk to a human as I had been able to take the previous aforementioned action electronically. I learned that someone actually tried to use the new card 13 times. How is this possible? The only thing that I can think of is there is a limited number of credit card numbers and the issuing bank elected to reuse a card #. They told me that there would be an investigation but really how far will they push this? It would be nice if they could catch the person(s) responsible but I think that doesn’t happen too often.

There is my unique experience. None of the transactions went through and even if they had I wouldn’t be liable for them. I am much more concerned about my debit card being hacked because you play hell getting your money back, at least that was the case for my late spouse when someone went on a shopping spree with his debit card buying cell phones and iPads. What a mess.

Friday night I opted to try 2 of the new sleeping pills that I got earlier in the month. Fuck me up it did, I was down for the count. In fact, I didn’t much feel like doing anything so I spend the day at home and slept a good portion of it away. Gator seemed pretty happy about that up until the evening came then there was just no pleasing her, meow this and meow that.

Thanksgiving has changed, the restaurant is unable to honor our reservation due to an order that has closed all indoor dining. They sold me a turkey day package, which my friends are going to pay for and pickup. I’m just waiting on a response for when to come over and chow down.

I got all of the usual shopping done today for me and my little girl. I’m baking a frozen pizza tonight Sausage & Pepperoni. It’s cold out and warming up the oven sounds like a nice thing to do.

I am working on laundry and washed my pillows today. I learned the hard way you don’t want to wash just one pillow at a time. That causes the washer to be unbalanced and your washer will walk, not to mention the vibration and noise. I shoved all 3 pillows in and that quieted things down. Now I am trying to get them to dry and then it will be the sheets turn. I will probably throw in one of the dirty pet beds the girls used to use in after that. I’ve been watching and there aren’t any great deals like there were in years past on pet beds. Plus, this is one I am putting in my office and I don’t have any guarantee that Gator will actually use it. If she is anything like the first cat I had, every time you spent money on a toy, he wouldn’t use it. Bring him home a straw from a restaurant and he would play with it for hours. The late Ms. Momma was the same way, she had this thing for cotton swabs. She loved to flip them and catch them. This place was littered with them for the first few years but like anything else that lost its luster.

I can’t believe tomorrow will be Monday and it’s back to work. I’ve been having so much fun relaxing. I need to get through this week, then 3 days next week and I will be having me some vacation. That will be short lived like all good times are and then it will be back to work for the rest of the year.

Lots of people are upset that restaurants are closed for indoor dining and that were on the verge of mandatory stay at home orders again. No matter who makes that call they are the unpopular person by default and that is where people focus their anger. I’m doing my part by staying home and only going out when necessary and then wearing a mask. I’ve made it this long and while the weight is piling on and I am getting restless and bored I am at least safe. We all need to hang in there a while longer and then this too shall pass. I am eager for our newly elected President to take office as that is when something will actually be done about COVID on a Federal Level and that will help set the stage to bring this to a close. Until then our current President isn’t going to do much and if he would have won the election his actions or should I say in actions would probably be the same.

I hope that you had a great weekend, that your safe & warm. Be well and we will talk again soon.

Nada

I haven’t been feeling like my usual self. All of a sudden, my drive or desire for sex is absent. This has happened before but after a couple days nature works things out. This time that doesn’t seem to be the case. I don’t know if this is medication related or if it’s a hormone thing. It could of course be weight related. I’ve done some research on ED (Erectile Disfunction) and there are many causes. Right now, I can’t say that I am in the ED boat as I’m not trying to get it up and failing, there is just no desire.  

I look at porn and know that I like a guy or a scene appeals to my taste but there is no real sexual desire. Playing doctor with my body is something that I think we all do in this day and age. Playing doctor doesn’t mean what it used to either. In any event, I am thinking that I might suffer from low testosterone. It’s on the list to discuss with my doctor. In fact, it was on my list for the last visit but I was absent minded. You know they say when you get older your mind is the first thing to go, I forget what goes second. That is a line I learned from my grandmother and she always did have a great sense of humor.

Frankly I am really bored, when my tasks are all caught up at work I spend time in front of the TV or in bed with Gator. The boss was out today and I spent the bulk of the day upstairs. I got in a nice nap, had an extra long lunch hour. Finally, I went back to work because I got tired of flipping channels and playing with my phone. Porn would factor in there it’s a great way to pass time but since there is no interest that didn’t happen.

I got on the scale yesterday and saw how much my weight has ballooned up. That pie I am eating is going straight to my gut. I knew I had a problem when I went to put on my sweatpants and they were a little tight. I am bothered by my weight but there are a handful of things I am good at and eating sure is one of them.

The pandemic is getting worse, infection rates and deaths are on the rise. There are already pleas asking people to celebrate Thanksgiving virtually instead of getting together physically. People need people and considering that I am trapped here all alone I benefit greatly from being around others. A Zoom meeting or phone call doesn’t have the same affect on me as an in-person visit.

Sleeping during the day means that I will be up at night and even if I am sound asleep, there is a very good chance Gator will be hungry and wake me. That’s happened once already this week. She loves her food as well and I don’t mind feeding her it’s what the vet said to do.

I don’t know what it’s like to go insane but something tells me that I might not be far from it before this mess is all over with. I was hopeful that there would be a vaccine available in December but based on the latest update it sounds like it won’t be until early to mid-next year. What a monumental task to develop and distribute a life saving vaccine, those people have to be under some serious pressure. If they don’t get it right then were all going to die. I’ve got faith that they will come through but the thought of having to stay home for the bulk if not the next year isn’t terribly comforting to me. There are aspects I like but over all I need to be around people. I need physical activity, even if it’s only to walk around the office and/or to and from my car.

I don’t like to be filled with such negativity or depressing news and this is my outlet. I really hope that my sexual desire returns, regardless if it’s with medical help or not. I just want to be horny again and to be able to do something about it.

Despite what I think I know that short of being hit by a bus or catching the virus that I have a lot of life ahead of me. Thinking of spending it alone is horrifying and add to that no sex, not even self-pleasure and I am ready to have Scotty beam me up.

I hope that your having a better week than I am. I don’t want to babble on too much so I’ll talk with you peeps again soon. Stay safe, warm and be well.

Stressful Week

What a week it’s been. The US Presidential Election was quite the emotional rollercoaster. I figured that I would get several pop-up notifications on my phone once a winner was declared. Nope not one. I found out the results by looking at Twitter. Then I had to double check on the internet and finally turned on the TV. Wow I am thankful that it’s over. I am pleased with the results.

We are still very much in the middle of a Pandemic. The numbers for COVID infections & death is rapidly increasing and this is the race we should be more hyper focused on because it’s consequences I feel are more dire and bound to affect or infect more people. We have to get this under control. We have to have a vaccine and better treatment. We have to all continue to follow what the scientist have told us. I realize wearing a mask/face covering is uncomfortable and aggravating but it helps. My personal opinion is that we need to go back on full lockdown, I know that will affect everyone and cause financial distress but I think it’s our best chance of getting things under better control. I hope that sooner rather than later we will urgently and aggressively focus on mitigation efforts for COVID.

In my area the numbers are up and hospital bed space is starting to be of great concern. Restaurants & Bar’s in my area are locked down again but if you travel a short way to a different state, they are wide open. However, that too may change soon because the spike in cases. That means that Thanksgiving could very well be in jeopardy. I mean eating out at a restaurant, the holiday will still happen and I know that my friends will throw something together if we don’t just convert our order to carry out.

I made it to the dentist this week and finally got my teeth cleaned. I received the usual good results. The exam was less thorough than my previous dentist. She screened more aggressively for oral cancer. I’ve got a follow up appointment for 6 months and hopefully the world at large will be a better place!

I patched a gap in the door jam of the garage. The wood desperately needs to be sanded and painted. I think I will manage to get through this winter or so it’s my hope. Then early next spring it will be sanding and paint. I looked at neighbors houses and most of their trim is painted white. The mold killing paint I have an excess of happens to be white as well. To save money and time, that is what I will be using.

Speaking of the garage I managed to find a large round crack in the floor. It looks like someone dropped something there on purpose to cause the damage. It’s on the exterior of the garage door. I used some concrete caulk to fill it in. Just the bending and stretching from that has me super sore. I did the work on Wednesday afternoon. Thursday mid-day is when I felt like I had been kicked by a horse or something. It’s around my groin area and in my upper legs. Another sign that I am truly allergic to exercise.

Thursday was my brother’s birthday. Our relationship has been estranged for well over a year when he went back to his bimbo girlfriend and she convinced him to marry her since he couldn’t manage to live without her. I never thought I could live without my late spouse, but death made the decision for me and I had no choice but to push forward. In fact, you can live without someone but it’s not necessarily easy. I figured I would be the bigger person as I usually am and extended the olive branch by sending him a text message. I simply said happy birthday, hope you are doing well. That was about mid-day yesterday. I have no response and don’t believe I am going to get one. It’s a tad bit disappointing but she has him so brainwashed it’s not a complete surprise. I just had one of those gut feelings that I couldn’t ignore that I needed to reach out to him. This is one of those situations that is best left alone and that is what I am doing. I originally thought about calling him but figured that a text message would be better. I have to handle this situation with kid gloves because every time I deal with family I get fucked over, walking away is the best possible thing for me to do. I wish that we had a normal brother relationship and we were there for each other, but I knew from a young age that wasn’t going to happen. My brother is to ‘me’ oriented and only thinks of himself and how situations can work in his favor. We are in fact polar opposites. I can’t say that I won’t try at a future date to make contact with him but I don’t feel I will ever be successful or that if I am successful that our relationship will ever recover. While I may not agree with the choice, he made in who he married, as long he is happy that is the best I can hope for. I do think that he will wake up someday and realize he’s been hoodwinked, but then again maybe not.

Ms. Gator has become more comfortable with her surroundings and has managed to make her way into my office multiple times this week. She will sit with me for short periods of time. She gets vocal if she wants food and stays that way until I give in. We are sleeping together more and enjoying each other’s company. We have played a bit as well. I was surprised that she let me take a shower in peace earlier this week, that doesn’t happen very often. I think she realizes that she is alone and going to be spoiled even more rotten than she already was. She won’t come to the couch via the path that is most direct. Instead she now always uses a path that her brother used. She also wants to lay on his couch so she can be next to me. She’s held me hostage a few times and I make sure that at each chance I get I tell her that I love her. Not to be depressing but I do realize whatever time we have is limited, hopefully it will be a couple years.

I started late yesterday afternoon watching an Amazon Original series called Red Oaks. It was very entertaining. I had some sleeplessness last night and opted to take in a few more episodes. This morning I finished the series. There are 3 seasons and the story ends pretty complete. It’s got humor, drama and is just enjoyable. There is also some nudity, a little something for everyone.

On call has been quiet but not totally silent. No real plans for the weekend other than the usual running. I hope that your doing well and staying safe. I’ll talk with you peeps again soon!

Weekend Ramble

I hope that you had a great weekend. This is my recap of how my weekend went. Friday night I consumed the frozen Crab Rangoon that I bought. I had to make them in the oven and honestly, they were not that good. I watched some TV with Gator. I rented Robin’s Wish which was all about Robin Williams and his death. No sooner than I started to watch this, Gator got seriously sick. One minute she was in the litter box and the next minute she was barfing. She moved to my room so I followed her and resumed the movie in there. After a few more minutes she had another episode. These are the 2 symptoms that the vet warned me about and they are critical, so I was really scared. However, after she threw up the second time she asked for food. I thought that it was rather odd and doubted if she would keep it down. The storm had passed and she did a great job. I wanted to run to the vet but the practical side of me kicked in and said watch her, see what happens and then react. I know that I know her better than anyone else but I am also scared that she is going to check out on me and I need her as much as she needs me. Neither one of us are spring chickens but I still have many years to go before I reach her age. As old as she is, you’d never know to look at her. She gets around pretty well and is eating like she is feeding a family.

I am glad that I didn’t overreact and I watched the rest of the movie. I had plans to try to induce a deep sleep with medications, but I aborted them because if Gator needed me, I would need to be able to be lucid and sober (so to speak). If I was in some coma of sleep, I would be no good to her. Turns out she didn’t need me at all, when I said the storm was over, I meant it.

Saturday, I lounged as I usually do but this was more relaxing and restlessness. I finally got going about 1p because Gator told me it was time. It was 2p by the time I left the house. I hit up the post office, found that I had a letter addressed to me from a local person, who sent a similar letter to my late spouse a few weeks back. It’s all about finding God and trying to take money from me. I sent it back unopened. I ordered some imitation Creed Green Irish Tweed cologne. I’d buy name brand but it’s $400 for a bottle and for something I have never smelled before not to mention the outlandish price I thought imitation was the better way to go. I’m only out $20 and it smells like Lemon Pledge it’s not something that I enjoy at all. After the post office, it was on to get more food for Gator. Then over to Sam’s to find Water Softener Salt. I walked the length of the entire club and then started over. I finally found someone to ask for help and of course I got the dumbest person there. He said I don’t know what Water Softener Salt is but it’s probably by the bottled water. I said nope I’ve already been there. He just threw up his hands and said well I don’t know what to tell you and I can’t help you. He was honest which is admirable but you don’t just leave a customer to fend for themselves. However, good customer service is very rare these days. I finally found it and wrestled 2 44-pound bags in my cart. I always struggle with lifting these because they are so heavy. Through the checkout line and to my car please.

The big finale was I treated myself to McDonald’s. I haven’t had it in a very long time and was craving a taste. Once again, I encountered bad customer service. The person running the register never heard of a Double Quarter Pounder with Cheese. She found the button for it but decided to add extra cheese to the burger, which cost me 55 cents extra. It was good and I don’t know that you can ever have too much cheese. It was just the thought of paying a bit extra that rubbed me wrong, but I didn’t complain. I wanted my food and then I wanted to get home so I could eat.

Since I slept all day long, I wasn’t tired in the least. My neck was bothering me so I took a muscle relaxer in the hope that would knock me out. Sunday started. I maybe got a couple hours sleep but was up mostly all night off and on. Gator of course wasn’t happy about this. I thought with the time change I would squeeze in an extra hour of sleep and it would all wash out. Wrong. She and her crying help keep me up. She wanted breakfast at 5a and I remember at some point I gave in to her then tried to come back to bed. My back was bothering me from the little wrestling I did yesterday with the water softener salt bags. They are loaded into the machine and I’ll be good for another year.

I’ve been to the grocery store and didn’t spend a lot. I’ve got enough food to make it for the week. The Dentist will be my next big trip out. It’s 2 in the afternoon and I am bored. I don’t really want to do much of anything. I have my report to do for work and then I do believe it will be back upstairs for me. Just relax and play on my phone. I have to set a couple clocks and decide on what I want for supper. I also have to put out my medicine which is always a chore and then consume way too much TV. Eventually it will be time for bed and hopefully I can enjoy a restful night’s slumber. Monday will be calling soon enough and that is not a call I really want to answer.

A couple more days of political ads and then election day will happen, it’s like Halloween Part 2. I hope that things go well. Needless to say, it’s probably going to be a very interesting week. Hang on and stay safe. I don’t know about you but I am ready to get the show on the road. Then bring on Fall TV so we can focus on something else outside of politics and the pandemic. We all could use a distraction if only for 30 minutes.

Were all in this together but I can easily understand how some people feel all alone. Take care, stay warm and be well. We shall talk again soon.