Haircut from hell

Picking up from my last post, I went back to have my haircut fixed.  The lady that took care of me saw instantly there was more wrong than what I pointed out.  She cleaned me up pretty well.  However, she wasn’t able to take care of the product discount I should have received.  So I had to go back today.  When I got home I was miffed to learn that the uneven V spot in my head was still there.  It was visibly less but still considering I shelled out $22 for this clipper cut (which is over priced, in my opinion) I wanted to make it right. 

Today I did my normal morning activity.  By the time I got home I had a couple minutes to rest and then it was time to go back to the haircut store.  The manager was expecting me.  She went over my hair and actually we made it even shorter.  I pointed out the spot and she said that it was due to the shape of my head.  She got it fixed but it took a little extra work.  I got a shampoo out of it and it was rough just the way I like it.  It felt so good.  She tried to talk me into the hot towel on the face (it’s figured into the price) but I turned it down.  She said it would help me relax.  Nah, just do your magic that should be relaxing enough.  My scalp was alive when she was done. 

Then on to the product discount issue.  What happened was she inadvertently charged me for the product again but neither one of us caught it until after the fact.  So she thought it was a refund.  Then she rang up a new ticket to charge me less the discount.  So I wound up paying twice for the same item.  I caught this when I got home and verified it with my bank.  Thank goodness I was using a credit card because normally I pay by debit.  That would have created a slight nightmare.  So I had to go back again to get my money back.  4 trips total including the original trip for the haircut its self.  Jesus I was not happy but it was made right so what else can I ask for?  I know I could probably weasel a free haircut by calling corporate but then people would get in trouble and I’m not about that.  This place is like family to me and I don’t want to be known as a shit disturber.  I just know now don’t buy product there and don’t let a new person cut your hair.  Two very simple lessons. 

My last paycheck of the year is okay.  I got dinged on the PTO but I got a bonus so in the end it only cost me $100 and for all intense and purposes it was a normal check.  I have some money left over after paying bills.  I am glad that I panicked and kept some extra money in another account.  I needed that in order to be able to grocery shop today and pay cash.  I bought my gas on credit since I get 3% back, might as well maybe that will kick me into being able to redeem the cash for credit.  Phew, crisis averted!

I’m getting a little excited for tomorrow.  Charlie Puth will be playing on New Years Rockin’ Eve and I plan on recording that.  I love to watch it after the fact, fast forward through all of the BS and commercials just to get to see the parts I want.  Makes it quicker than watching it live.  Not sure if I will make it until midnight but I plan on working no later than 9p.  If traffic is on my side again in the morning I should arrive early and will start early just to get a jump on things.  One thing is certain, it will be a hectic and busy day.  I am also on-call for the week so I’m hoping that I get another $100 stipend because Monday is my last day as hourly.  Payroll might catch it but I sure hope not.  I won’t know until the 15th. 

Looking forward to breakfast, got a new oatmeal called Gingerbread Spice.  It’s a limited edition flavor.  I hope it’s good and that I didn’t just waste money on a box of something I won’t enjoy.  Time will tell. 

Went Fishing again with Marv & Gator.  No matter how much I tried I just couldn’t get Marv to tire out he was like the Energizer Bunny.  We all had fun.  I tried to get Momma to play along but she doesn’t like it.  Ruth didn’t like it either.  Bear was all over it just like his brother.  They would tag team the damn thing back in the day.  Sure miss Ruth & Bear, this place is so empty without them.  I’m blessed to still have 3 left and hope they stick around for a very long time. 

I wanted to get a few other things done on the PC but I see time is running out and my back is killing me.  So I am going to break out my Shiatsu Massager which will make my back sore but hopefully it will give me a little relief from the 2 knots I have.  The hair lady today told me to go to a Chiropractor, she said it’s not fun being adjusted but after the fact you feel awesome.  Yeah I have watched the videos online and it sounds great but I do wonder what it feels like.  There are 2 types of Chiropractors.  Some that do treatments and adjustments.  Some that do just adjustments and don’t put you on a treatment plan.  I’d like the ladder but finding one of them is hit and miss.  My insurance pays 100% for the care so maybe I will look into it.  But really it’s all about posture and getting away from the computer. 

It’s cold outside and with even shorter hair it feels worse now.  Our temperatures have been up and down like a yo-yo.  No wonder tons of people are sick.  I just don’t want it.  I mean I’ll have time again as of Tuesday but I don’t want to use my time that way.  Hope all is well in your world.  I will talk with you next year.  Be safe and celebrate responsibly.  Take care my friends. 

Years almost done

What a week it’s been, in only 3 short days I have reached the brink of exhaustions, frustrations and generally wanting to take a vacation.  Friday is supposed to be the best day of the week but for me it was by far the worst.  I have someone that is leaving on 1/2 arguing with me about wiping his mobile device and the timing of the wipe.  We started an email exchange after hours and he pissed me off so much that I turned my phone off.  I’m still hourly and as such I don’t have to be glued to my phone so that was my way of saying fuck you.  To further shove it up his ass I am not responding any further until Monday morning.  He wants me to hold his hand and baby him when he is a grown adult.  I’m not going to do it.  His phone will wipe just before I leave for lunch on Monday, how convenient.  Mother fucker I don’t ever want anyone to feel like I am pushing them out the door but I wish this mother fucker would be gone already. 

We are also having issues with our Windows 10 performance in our environment.  It’s mostly because there was an executive pissing contest about how fast they could get this deployed and now that the guy that wanted to win, won – he is paying the price.  There are plenty of people scouring over the image and Security is involved as well.  My boss is trying to take the brunt of this for me so that I don’t get roped into too much but he’s on vacation after Monday for the rest of the week and then this will become my problem.  I feel like they are just pouring on the pressure for me.  My boss also told me that when he gets back from vacation he will have more for me to do.  Just what I wanted.  So in between the interruptions from phone calls, people stopping by and the other tasks I have to do, plus attending all of the useless meetings that we have I will now have more to do.  If you think for a second this shit is following me home and I will just immerse myself into it and not have any life when I am at home, your mistaken.  I mean it won’t be the general way I operate.  There will be times when that needs to happen but unless it’s an extreme need my pay is based on 40 hours per week, regardless of how much actual time I put in.  Keeping that in mind I only plan to work 40 or less hours per week on average.  Just because your paying me more doesn’t mean you own me. 

Today has been productive.  I got in a nap, imagine that.  I also grabbed breakfast, the mail and got my hair cut.  When I got home I noticed there is a slight V in my head.  I have been debating if I want to go back and have it fixed or if I want to leave it.  For the amount of money I paid I am going back.  I also gave in and bought some Tea Tree Lavender Mint Shampoo & Conditioner.  The lady that shampooed my hair wasn’t rough enough for me, she was just teasing me.  It was semi relaxing.  When she was done I told her that the shampoo was completely unacceptable and that she would need to repeat it.  She was ready to just that when I stopped her and told her I was kidding.  It was the best part of the haircut and I always want more.  For only a brief moment I slipped away into a lull state where I didn’t think about anything or anybody.  That sure was nice. 

I was planning on taking in a movie but I honestly am not in the mood.  I am going to figure out where to scrummage up some dinner, grab some food for the cats and then come home and play on the computer.  Tomorrow I should be able to find out about my last paycheck of the year and I really hope it’s not too bad when they deduct the time I owe.  As long as I can meet my bills I am happy, but if I could have extra left over that would be awesome.  Kind of wishing that I opted to skip my Christmas car payment that would have left me in a much better position. 

I certainly hope that I get a little bit but not too much overtime on Monday, it will be my very last day that I am able to earn it so I want to squeeze out as much as I can.  So far I have 6 hours plus 1 hour of working on a holiday – that should make my next check on the 15th look really sweet.  After that is when things will level out and I will start getting money at my new rate for my promoted position.  Yee haw!

Well time to run.  I hope your warm, Christmas went well and that your New Year is even brighter than this year.  Take care. 

Middle of the week

So here we are at the middle of the week for the last week of the year.  I was all keyed up last night and despite taking some extra sleeping medicine it took me a bit to fall asleep.  I won’t have that problem tonight.  The alarm clock went off way too early this morning.  My 3 furry fan club was excited to see me because it was time for food once again.  There was very little traffic and I expect that is the way it will be most of the week.  Next week maybe lighter than normal but not as light as this week.  I just wish I was off, something about this time of year just makes me lazy and want to be at home. 

My calendar was busy this morning but that all cleared up about 11a and it’s been a battle to fight boredom ever since. I have a task that would occupy some time but I am putting it off.  My co-worker just found out that he is making an emergency trip to another office tomorrow.  He has to grab a flight out tonight and won’t be back until late Friday night.  So I won’t see him again until Monday. 

Friday and Monday should be busy days for me.  More so Monday because it’s the last day of the year and that is a typical time when most people leave.  There are a small number of folks heading out but none from my office.  Monday will also be my very last day to soak up all of the overtime I can muster and I plan on working as much as I can.  Tuesday will be my first official day in my new role and on a salary. 

I don’t know that there is much on TV tonight but I plan on heading home and after dinner lounging with the kids on the couch.  I am sure I will find something to occupy the couple hours I have until it’s time to head for bed.  Everyone seems to enjoy family time much more than if I split my time in front of the computer and TV.  Plus I feel like I have a more complete evening. 

2 more days left until the weekend.  I am excited for the weekend so I can get my last haircut and hopefully take in a movie.  Outside of that nothing else really planned.  Might go fishing with Gator & Marv again. 

Hope all is well and warm in your neighborhood.  Take care. 

Fishing on Christmas

Where did all of my time off go to? As per usual I find myself wishing for just one more day.  The cats made me feel guilty today so I didn’t get to spend as much time in front of the computer today as I would have liked to.  I did get to spend quality time with them and saw some interesting TV.  Even took a short nap.  Of course the lunch bell rang so I had to provide for them.

My morning didn’t start off so well I sat in something, it was either a fur ball or something worse.  Either way I had a cover to wash.  This was after I put out breakfast for the little monsters.  I wasn’t happy about it but I sure woke up in a hurry. 

Yesterday’s mission was to find the Cannon camera and the Panasonic Camcorder.  I am pleased to report that I found both and the batteries for each took a charge.  I was able to review memories that had been placed there.  It was neat being able to go back in time.  My main reason for finding the camera is to photograph my mom’s furs so that I can sell them, not only could I use the money it will help get something out of my house.  I do have mixed feelings about selling and don’t plan to sell everything all at once.  I want to move slow and see how things go, then take it from there.  It may very well be summer time before I get around to this but it’s on my list of things to do. 

I got a call from my brother.  We chatted about nothing really.  He told me everything the bitch got him for Christmas and how they were spending the holidays together.  I am so disappointed in him that even after she has moved out he continues to associate with her.  I didn’t say anything about it.  He figured I would have plans today and when I told him I was staying home it was shocked.  Yeah me too.  But honestly thinking about years past and going out, I am much happier that I stayed home.  Sure I missed out on socializing with friends and probably making some memories with them.  However, I have been able to relax and spend time with my furry family.  I was really kind of hoping that he would want to do something or even hang out but I didn’t broach the subject or push.  Part of my reasoning for staying home was to be available for him.  So much for that. 

Just finished watching Love Simon on HBO.  I remember when I saw it in the theatre and it was just as good here at home.  I had some teary eyed moments.  Coming out is not something that you get to do once, you have to repeat the process several times over in your lifetime.  Most each time you have those butterflies of is this going to go well or is this going to go bad.  You just hope for the best and be yourself. 

I broke out the old fishing pole with the cat toy tied on the end of it.  Marvin, Gator and I had some fun.  I’ve been promising him that we would go fishing and I think he understands.  They were both so happy and that just made the day worth it.  Momma doesn’t fish like that and I think she isn’t feeling good.  She is laying around taking it easy.  I stopped medicine since the holidays and I get lazy but I really need to start them up again.  I honestly don’t like giving them medicine because it seems to have negative effects on their stomachs.  I think Ms. Momma is losing weight she is so thin.  I wish I could sprinkle something on all of them to turn back time and give them back their youth and wellness.  Hell I wish I could sprinkle some of that on me as well. 

The other highlight of my day was that Scotty Dynamo like a tweet of mine.  He’s so handsome but so far away in Canada and honestly I don’t think he’d look twice at me but I slobber every time I see him. 

I got to put in an hours worth of work last night and then another 15 to 30 minutes today.  That’s double time and a half so my first check of the new year will be the last hourly check I will get and it should be looking damn fine, just like Scotty Dynamo.  The call was about fraud which sadly most of the calls I get are about.  I am still not 100% clear on where things went wrong, from what I understand right now it sounds like a google search gone bad. 

The work call came after I had been shopping on-line.  I got my credit card suspended because I made so many small purchases, I knew it was going to happen and was prepared for it.  This card stays at $0 and is locked most days of the year.  I got a couple ball caps and some software upgrades that I wanted.  I didn’t need most of what I bought.  I also got my $25 Amazon Gift card spent on a naked man calendar.  I got some eye glass cloths and some Peeps for glasses, it’s a tool that is supposed to help you clean your glasses and do it effortlessly.  We shall see if that holds true.  Just in case I got the cloths to be prepared.  I also got my annual train calendar.  I plan on taking it to work but Cisco is supposed to be sending me a calendar, it normally shots up by now so I had to make alternate plans.  One thing is for sure I won’t have too many calendars.  Now UPS, Amazon and the Post Office will all be busy after Christmas getting me my stuff.  Something to look forward to I suppose. 

I’ve got my 1/2 of casserole left which is dinner tonight.  There are a couple movies I am interested in and I have to make preparations for the morning.  Plus getting to bed at a decent hour.  I will miss my afternoon naps but sadly enough I think work is better for me than loafing around here. 

Regardless of what you did today, I hope that you enjoyed the holiday and those around you.  Some of those people or animals might be irritating as hell but once they are gone, you sure do miss them.  I can’t help but think about poor Ruth and Bear as well as the other animals I lost and my late spouse.  Merry Christmas to one and all.  Goodnight!

Better late than never

Just got my invite for Christmas.  It’s late in the day on Christmas Day and the notice came 2 days prior to the event.  Sorry folks I’m not going.  You can’t wait until the last minute and invite people, they think like I did that the event isn’t going to happen so they make other plans.  Not that I can’t cancel my other plans but it really makes me feel like I am an after thought.  I don’t do that with Thanksgiving and if I did the turn out would likely be the same. 

I was really hoping for Christmas Eve that would have been doable but on the actual holiday when I have to go to work the next day.  A late in the afternoon event, which wouldn’t start on time and then with chatting it would be 8 or 9 in the evening when I got out of there, then to scramble to get home and make preparations for going back to work the next day.  Nope not happening.

I haven’t gotten a whole lot done today and considering that I don’t plan on leaving the house for the next two days there is plenty of time to get the rest of it done tomorrow.  Ideally on Christmas Day I would like to be able to relax and take it easy, while being available in case my brother should call.  He probably won’t because he will probably be a sucker and spend his time with that bitch.  Ah well as long as me and what is left of my furry family are together that is all that matters to me.  It will be a day of depression but hopefully I won’t sink too low. 

I’ve got a $25 Amazon gift card to spend and some other items that I want so I will be shopping albeit on-line, hopefully I can stick to the list and not get swayed to add in extras so I don’t wind up with a larger bill than what I am prepared for. 

Take care and we will talk again soon!

The perfect post

I had composed what I believe was the perfect post.  I did this on my personal laptop at work.  I went to publish and Google threw up a flag because they didn’t recognize the device.  I asked for a security code to be sent and one didn’t instantly appear.  I wound up shutting the machine down, the post wasn’t saved.  Now authentication codes are pouring into my email like crazy.  Thanks Google but your a day late and a $1 short.  So now I will try to recreate a new version of that post. 

I really got to thinking about my promotion and all that I have been through and the working conditions that I have to put up with (i.e. shit for brains) and I really feel it’s an unfair offer.  I asked for more money and was refuted with the argument of how much my salary has grown in a short period of time, it’s excessive.  It’s not impossible to get more money but it would take approval from the Chief.  While I could have gone on and said move forward go ask, I told my boss that I was begrudgingly accepting the offer.  I voiced my displeasure and hope that my working conditions will improve as we move through 2019.  If nothing else they have given me a leg up and something to decorate my resume with.  I don’t believe that I can find a higher paying job where I can easily shine and out perform others.  So while I will be polishing up my resume, I won’t necessarily be actively looking.  I really like where I am but not necessarily the politics that are played and when I try to play, I always wind up getting hurt.  So it’s best to keep my mouth shut, take what they are giving me and call it a day.  I’m happy about the promotion but not as happy as I would have been provided the raise I was getting was more money.  Some think that I am in this for friends or a social life.  They are sorely mistaken, I am in it for one reason only and that is the money.  If I didn’t need the money then I know I could find other things to occupy my time. 

I did find out that my efforts to save the company $2,000 was rewarded with $300 which will be on my next check but is subject to taxes.  Wow I expected more like $500 but hey I’ll take what your giving. 

So no word at all from my friends that usually invite me over for Christmas.  Were at Christmas Eve, Eve and not a word.  My other friend and I got together yesterday at Maggiano’s.  So I have some complimentary pasta and 1/2 of a slice of cherry chocolate cake to polish off.  I find it odd that there is no invitation.  My other friend was told at Thanksgiving they would be doing the usual Christmas thing and we were both invited but that didn’t provide any details as to what day and what time.  I hope nothing bad has happened but something is awry for them not to be in contact by now with a plan.  I could reach out and ask what about Christmas but I kind of think that is a bit pushy and rude.  So I am just letting it lye. They aren’t exactly flowing with money.  All of that entertaining while fun does cost them a pretty penny and I certainly understand if you don’t have the money.  It just would have been nice to communicate.  I am big on communications and keeping people informed. 

Unless I get a phone call that says they are doing something tomorrow I am locked away in my house with my furry children for the next 2 days.  There is plenty to do here but I have to muster the energy and some courage to do it.  Right now I am behind schedule due to nap time and getting together yesterday. 

Some good news is that with the help of Nestle I found the Stouffers casserole I like so much.  It was at Target.  I picked up two of them yesterday.  I plan on having 1/2 of one of them for dinner tonight just because I have been craving it for so long. 

Maggiano’s is always good food and the complimentary pasta is the best but I really liked the eye candy from yesterday the best.  There is a food runner that kind of flirted with me and my favorite waiter was working.  I didn’t make any moves but sure wanted to.  I will have to muster the courage up to do that.  I have no idea if either of them is gay but I can tell you that neither one of them has a ring on their finger.  I know that doesn’t mean anything but nothing ventured, nothing gained. 

With the new year approaching that means that benefits will be changing.  I got my new vision card and benefit details in the mail.  I elected to go with what I am provided with from my late spouse vs buying coverage through work.  Turns out my employer offers better benefits for a small price of $120 per year.  I am stuck with the decision I made for the next year.  Then again I don’t plan on getting new glasses so I should come out okay, provided there isn’t much change to my eyes.  I will need to find a new eye doctor because of the billing screw up, I just don’t trust them any longer as they have compromised the integrity that I thought was there.  Kind of sad.   I also got a new insurance card in the mail, the benefits are a little better starting in 2019 so that is something to look forward to. 

Something funny I did at work.  I saw a co-worker who had Hershey’s Kisses and I asked for a couple of them.  I went to see the straight guy who knows I have a thing for him.  I told him that I really didn’t want to do this in front of to many people but that I had a holiday kiss for him.  I was rather close to his face when I said this and he had a slight look of what is going to happen on his face.  I pulled out a kiss and gave it to him and then stepped back and we were both laughing.  There was another person close by so I gave them one too.  We chatted for a bit and then all of a sudden he turned on his fan.  I said what’s a matter does my kiss have you all hot and bothered.  He said boy and how.  We laughed again.  Then I got serious for a moment and said that I knew we were all laughing but that didn’t necessarily mean that they accepted what I was doing, so I said it was all done in humor and I apologized if anyone was offended.  I knew no one was but wanted to put it out there just in case.  it’s funny but it could easily be turned into a claim for sexual harassment.  As if that wasn’t enough I went to another co-worker who I had come out to earlier this year.  He is going to get married next year and is straight.  I sense some questioning in his sexuality, but knew I could get a laugh from him.  So I went to him and closed his cube door behind me (which I rarely do) and told him that I didn’t want to get in trouble with his fiancé but that I had a holiday kiss for him.  I was also really close to his face when I said it.  He actually anticipated that I was going to kiss him and when I didn’t and gave him a piece of candy he said words to the effect of were not married yet, what I do is my business.  Holy shit I didn’t really want to kiss him and never ever expected that for a response.  He followed up with not that I want you to kiss me but just saying it wouldn’t hurt anything if you did.  Fuck yes it would hurt something.  I was just joking and made that perfectly clear.  So all is well.  if I was his fiancé and heard that story I would be deeply upset.  I am lonely, horny and wanting companionship so I joke around.

There is a cute twink with blond hair and blue eyes that works in one of our other offices.  Every time I have worked with him I never ever hear a thank you and it pisses me off.  He lost his access card so I treated him like everyone else and sent the usual emails and got him a replacement card.  I melt inside when I have to work with him.  I have liked him from the day I saw his photo and while he is younger, I just can’t turn off my feelings for him.  I just can’t act on them.  He is openly gay.  I thought for sure this time I would get a thank you but fuck no, he said nothing.  I could have been a nice guy and accidentally forgot to submit a charge to accounting for his replacement card but now I’d love to submit a double charge.  Fucking ass hat. 

Right now my wish is to go a full 24 hours without smelling any unpleasant bodily odors.  Momma & Marvin both have some upset stomachs and it’s been like a contest that started Friday night.  I went out to Steak N Shake for breakfast this morning and there was a guy who walked in that had just had a personal accident or it smelled that way.  Jesus give my poor nose a break. 

Not much else going on here.  I need to do some serious cleaning but do lack the motivation.  It sounds like a good idea until I go to actually do it and then it’s like nah, I would rather just be lazy.  Well that worked last weekend but it won’t work this weekend.  It might not all get done today but it will get done before I have to go back on Tuesday. 

The mail brought me a surprise.  I apparently managed to over pay my auto insurance and they refunded a small some of money to me.  I figured it was bad news or a bill for $0 showing my account was paid in full but not the case it was a live check.  It’s been deposited already.  That I think is as close as I am going to get to a Christmas present. 

I’m on-call this weekend and had something yesterday and again today, so that will be nice when I get paid for it  My ability to earn overtime officially ends on the 1st of the year, so I am milking it for everything that it’s worth until the end.  I want to churn out every last drop of cash that I can possibly get before the terms of my employment change.  We had power issues on Friday so I got to start early so that helped.  There was another blip just before I headed out on Friday so I hope whatever it was has been fixed otherwise next week will suck bad. 

Well time to shove myself away from the keyboard so that I can get some work accomplished here at home.  I hope that everyone has a great Christmas.  Talk with you all again soon.  Be well! 

Movin’ on Up

I received good news today.  It’s official on January 1, 2019 I will be starting in a new role aka my promotion.  As for my compensation it sounds like I am getting a HUGE raise but when I factor in what I made last year and what I will come out making this year, it averages out to be around $1,500.  That’s better than nothing but still for all of the bullshit I have put up with babysitting snot nose jones, you’d think that they would be eager to give me more money.  The final number I was quoted is oddly $1,000.00 above what I saw as market value for the position.  I was told that I could reject the offer and then I would need to participate in a meeting with my boss and HR to work out what ever differences I had.  If we couldn’t work them out then I’d probably be out of a job.  Much easier to just accept the gift that is being given to me than to try to weasel more money out of them.  I am autographing the paperwork tonight and it will go in the mail tomorrow, to arrive on Friday. 

I will lose out on reimbursement for being on-call but I will still get reimbursement for my mobile device.  There is also talk of increasing the stipend so that more people will be able to afford newer equipment.  Phones are damn expensive now.  Problem is they aren’t just phones, they are miniature computers.  It will be nice to have a set and steady paycheck but at the same time I will miss the overtime.  Perhaps I will actually be able to save some money for not only a rainy day but retirement.  This will be by far the most money I have ever made in my entire life.  That is scary to think about and the fact that so much depends upon me having an income.  I pray with all of my heart, soul and every fiber of my being that I never, ever face another day of unemployment. 

Things appear to be on an uptick and positive spin, I sure hope they stay that way for a very long time.  Well back to work!  Talk again soon.

Sunday

I had an insomnia attack last night.  Grabbed a soda and some chocolate covered pretzels and watched SNL.  By the time the show was over my sugar coma kicked in and I went back to bed.  Gator was all up in my grill to get out of bed at 8a.  I obliged because I had plenty to do today. 

Went to Steak N Shake and saw the usual crowd.  I chat with a few people but it’s all random social conversation.  One of the guys there is older and he is a nice guy.  He gives out silver dollars to kids.  Brings in coupons and gives them to total strangers it’s just the nicest thing ever.  I got a .999% copper coin from him today.  I think he said it’s worth $2 and while it looks to be real US Currency I would have to have it validated by a bank before I tried to turn it in for change.  It’s a nice thing and for now I plan to keep it.  He gave me a silver dollar before and I gave it to my waitress as a tip.  I must have spent 30 minutes in conversation with this guy and a brother/sister couple.  The big topic of conversation was the location of a specific hair salon.  I nudged my way into the conversation and turns out I had the directions they were looking for.  Imagine that! 

Hit up 2 grocery stores.  Bought lottery tickets at 1 and the other got my grocery's.  I am looking for the Stouffer’s Broccoli & Chicken Casserole that I used to buy.  It was awesome and something different to have besides pizza.  I am tired of pizza and wanted to switch things up but neither store had it.  So I wrote to Stouffers and asked them.  I probably won’t get a response until tomorrow.  There is a third grocery chain that is 100% upscale and they have a few stores.  One of which is by my office, I could stop in there but I don’t want to go unless I know for a fact they have it.  The things I will do for food. 

Marv has been so clingy this weekend.  We have spent time on the couch together.  He grabs my hand so I can’t use my phone or get away and he holds on tight.  Then he hunkers down and eventually relaxes his grip as he drifts off into sleep.  Early Saturday morning I got the scare of a lifetime when I woke up.  I saw him on the floor and just by the position he was in and the fact there was no movement in his chest I thought for sure he was dead.  Then he surprised me when I softly spoke his name, he came to life as if to say what do you want, I was sleeping.  Holy Hell!  I enjoy time with my Marvin.  Last night he motioned that he wanted up in bed with me but I wouldn’t bring him up.  I don’t want to risk causing an injury to his back legs.  We have played several games of ball.  I take the sponge ball and kick it towards him and he grabs it and plays with it and eventually will kick it back.  Once I get him in a rhythm it’s hard to break.  I finally scored a goal, which is what I call it when the ball goes past his paws in to the center of his chest.  He really hates that and it doesn’t happen often but when it does he lets me know how unhappy he is.  Silly boy. 

So while I am on the subject of cats.  Last night before bed Gator wasn’t in my room, she was sleeping in the living room.  I figured she didn’t feel good.  When I woke up in the middle of the night a voice spoke to me to tell me that she was gone, she had a heart attack.  I went to the living room and shined a light on her, she meowed at me as if to say what’s wrong with you.  The last time that voice spoke to me, it was over LB and he in fact was gone. 

I really stopped and thought about it and I have had 5 losses in the last 5 years .  It started with my spouse and has spiraled downward.  I guess thinking about that and not wanting to experience any further loss has my subconscious working overtime thinking about death. 

Switching gears to guys.  If you get POP or have Netflix check out Schitt$ Creek.  It’s a very humorous show.  I have a mad crush on the guy that plays Ted.  He is so sexy.  The other guy that I have fallen madly for is the character that plays Avery (Murphy’s son) on Murphy Brown.  Holy hell, he just says daddy all day long.  Hubba, Hubba!  Speaking of guys my porn copy job is 91% complete from when I started it on Friday night.  I have 4 more hours to go and then it will be done.  My poor machine has been working tirelessly all weekend long.  I want to reward it with a reboot but can’t do that until this job is finished.  Yes I have an obsession with porn but it’s my sex life and probably will be until/if I meet a guy. 

As per usual the day has gotten away from me.  I was all on schedule and then a friend of mine called.  We just spoke yesterday but he wanted to yammer on some more.  I was so angry when I saw his name on caller id.  I wanted to say what do you want but that’s not a nice way to answer the phone.  He’s already pissed off at the world, I don’t need to add to his list.  Seriously, this guy is wound so tight, he goes off constantly.  I hate riding with him because he screams at other drivers as if they can hear him.  Nope, they can’t but my ear drums can.  I do grouse at drivers and even sometimes yell but not to the level he does.  Wow, I’m the one with the red hair but he is the true firecracker. 

Time to engage in some Big Bang Theory show watching.  I record all of the repeats so that I have content to watch when there is nothing else on.  As of late that occurs more frequently with lots of series taking time off until the start of the new year.  I wish I could take off until the new year but with a positive overtone.  I don’t need a calamity to happen to cause that to become reality. 

I’m surprised Ms. Momma hasn’t come chasing after me.  It’s about normal time for me to be upstairs and usually she comes down to remind me, ever so gently that it’s time to go.  Well I have a few things to check on before I go so I am going to do that and then climb those stairs and sit with the furry critters until it’s time to call it a day.  Not eager to embark on a new work week.  I have gotten some crappy emails over the weekend and there is plenty of work waiting for me and to think they are going to be adding on more, the horror.  How will I ever survive?  Hey I made it this far, I can go the rest of the way.  Might not be able to keep up but I will certainly do my very best. 

Stay warm, be well and get your holiday shopping done.  Christmas is around the corner.  Then shortly after we can play the same game that we played around Independence Day.  The name of that game is … Is it fireworks or gun shots?  Sounds like fun, I know.  Hope for fireworks, lots of fireworks and no gun shots. 

Be well and we shall talk again soon. 

Breaking News

Late this afternoon I received an email.  I am pleased to report that I won my appeal on my Emergency Room Bill and the Physician’s charges.  I am so happy that this mess has been resolved and I no longer have to worry about it. 

Finally some good news.  I’m seeing a pattern with the promotion at work, the insurance appeal there has to be at least 1 more good thing that will happen.  Maybe it’s finally time to buy that lottery ticket? 

Eight Terabytes

Wow another week is done.  Two more left in the entire year of 2018 and then it will be history.  It seems like only yesterday that we were in Summer and the year was sluggishly moving along.  Time and Money something we all could use more of. 

I bought an 8TB external hard drive on Wednesday.  I got a decent deal on Amazon.  I could have gotten a better deal if I would have moved on this last month.  In any event the drive arrived last night after I got home from work.  I was really surprised that Amazon just placed it on my porch considering the value  The drive supports USB 3.0 which has a higher transfer rate.  I have 2 of those ports available on my computer.  So that is naturally where I plugged the device into but my computer didn’t properly detect the drive, so I am using a regular USB port.  It still gets the job done but at a slower rate.  I’ve moved over all of the data I needed to.  My porn collection is still copying and when I started the transfer last night it said that it would be more than a day and were 30% done now and the status is the same.  It’s 4tb worth of data so I would expect that it wouldn’t move lighting fast.  It will probably be a couple of days.  However, I stopped my back up program and my PC is much faster.  When I turn it back on I’m sure performance will slow down some.  I guess it heard me because the machine momentarily froze up for a moment. 

On the work front.  We had our holiday part yesterday and the food was just okay  It was typical of any other party but this years experience was by far the worst for me.  I only sat with 1 person to eat and talk, I don’t know 1/2 of the people that I work with and the other 1/2 that I do know was MIA.  I gulped down my food and headed back to my desk.  I put in a little bit but not much more work and left early.  Kind of depressed as it was another sobering reminder that I am all alone. 

My boss mentioned to me earlier in the week that he got a note regarding my time off and that since I was in the hole they are going to adjust my last paycheck by deducting the time I owe them.  He got the notice 2 weeks ago but just decided to mention it to me this week.  How thoughtful.  Fuck!  So I am holding some money back from this check to hopefully help tide me through the 1st pay period of the year.  It’s not all bad news.  I was submitted for a bonus, don’t know how much but hopefully it’s more than an Amazon gift card.  Next and the biggest news of all is that my promotion will be official as of the 1st of the year.  I still don’t know my new title or my new salary but I have been told there are some additional responsibilities that are headed my way.  That is a polite way of saying were going to get our moneys worth out of you.  Overtime will no longer be an option as I will be exempt but hopefully my new salary will accommodate for whatever bullshit is headed my way.  I am happy but also nervous for the future. 

On the home front, I called my brother to check in with him last night.  He is still very much adjusting to being alone.  He is also still maintaining contact with her and allowing her to remain in his life.  I asked him what the point of her moving out was.  He didn’t exactly provide the response I was expecting.  He told me that it’s difficult to just cut her off.  I told him think of all of the hell she has put him through and how she almost wound up costing him his job, that alone would do it for me.  He said that if you love someone you can’t just flip a switch and shut them out.  I beg to differ as I have no problem doing it.  I’ve done it before.  It’s not fun or easy but I can do it within a second.  He has new locks but hasn’t changed them yet.  He went over to her place for Chili and they wound up getting into an argument.  She tried to hold him hostage and so that she could explain herself and that just further inflamed things.  It’s very apparent to me that she will be the death of him.  I don’t know that this will ever be truly over.  I told him he needs to put his foot down and just walk away but he doesn’t have the balls to do it.  He’s whipped and in a victim mentality.  While I am not saying it couldn’t happen to me, considering that I am on the outside it’s much easier for me to see an recognize.  I do believe that one or both of them will wind up in jail over a domestic incident, maybe that will be the sobering up he needs.  Bottom line is that he is afraid of being alone.  Hey I have the same fear but it’s more of a reality for me.  I don’t have high hopes of finding anyone but that doesn’t keep me from looking.  Stay tuned for more on this drama filled saga. 

Still no invite from my friends for Christmas.  I figure I will get a last minute text inviting me at which point I will most likely respectfully decline.  You have to communicate with me and tell me your plans so that I can make plans.  Just because I am all alone, don’t assume that I won’t get an offer from someone else or make plans on my own.  It’s called respect and common courtesy.  I can’t believe this is the way I am being treated now.  Something clearly has changed and no one has told me what that something is.  Did I do or say something to deserve this or is there something else going on in their lives that I have yet to be informed of?  Who knows.

I’m going to climb the steps, grab a soda and find something to watch on TV as I take it easy.  I will be going on-call next week and it won’t end until the day after Christmas.  Then I start up again on New Years Eve.  Lots of work is coming my way with the end of year departures and promotions, then things should level out hopefully for a couple months. 

Stay warm, dry and enjoy your weekend!  Talk again soon. 

Gone but still there

My brother phoned this afternoon to tell me that his girlfriend had moved out.  As a reminder she moved out to give him space and because their relationship is toxic.  He hasn’t changed the locks on the door, she has come back and woken him up one time.  He hasn’t blocked her phone number because he is afraid that will drive her over the edge.  I told him that he need a giant mute button when it comes to her.  He is going to change the locks tomorrow but I don’t know if he will ever block her from calling or texting.  This is supposed to be a break as in temporary.  She committed to a year lease on her apartment so hopefully it will be a year where they both can get their heads together and move on with their lives.  I pray he doesn’t get back together with her and for sure I pray he doesn’t marry her.

One thing I that I told him holds true for everyone.  You are responsible for your own actions or inactions and if you don’t take care of yourself, don’t expect anyone else to do it for you. 

He’s scared and lonely right now plus he is mourning the loss of a relationship.  Plus he has a near empty house and he has to furnish it now.  I told him you can buy what you want, you don’t need to get someone’s approval.  You can also eat what and when you want.  There is good and bad to everything but look more at the positives than the negatives.  I think and hope with sometime he will move on and perhaps find a new person for his life.  I told him if he ever gets lonely to call me, we can go to the gay bar.  He laughed at that.  It’s funny to me that he laughs at some of the things I say.

I did my usual day.  Woke up in the middle of the night.  Marv had an accident and I had to clean it up.  It was 3a and there was no going back to bed after that.  I watched some TV and drank a sports drink.  Eventually I was able to fall back to sleep.  My mistake was I slept in the same bed with Gator.  She don’t move at all.  She stretches out and becomes concrete.  You can nudge her all night long she will stay put.  So I didn’t sleep real well but I got in a few more hours.  Then up and off to grab breakfast.  Hit up the grocery store, the car wash, the gas station and then finally my favorite stop of them all, home. 

I had some plans for major cleaning this weekend but since my laziness kicked in that didn’t get done.  I have taken time for myself and spent time with the kids, so it’s been an okay weekend but not the worst or the greatest. 

My porn hard drive is down to one TB of space left.  I want and need a new drive.  I want to pull the trigger but since I don’t exactly know what the future has in store for me I feel like waiting is the right thing to do.  Perhaps after payday this week I will feel more confident.  It’s not major money it’s less than $200 but that can be a lot of money if you don’t have it. 

Boss man is out on Monday so hopefully things will be calm.  I have a lot of catchup work to do.  HR is putting in end of year departures like a 2 year old eating from a pez dispenser.  I may not have to process them all but I do have to gather background information on all of them and complete multiple spreadsheets because I am the only qualified to do it.  Stupid has tried in the past and he fails miserably so I just do, that way I know it’s done and if there is a mistake I know where to look. 

Thinking about it if Santa were real there would be a few things that I would ask him for.  Top of the list would be a man, money, happiness, having stupid grow a brain and whatever else I can’t manage to think of now.  Honestly I think that if I got a man the rest would just fall in place.  With that in mind I joined a new dating app called Chappy.  It’s just like Tindr but only for gay people.  I don’t have any location issues like I do with Tindr.  At work our network is out of 1 major city and then we have branches so I get guys that are constantly not in my area.  I hate that, because when I find someone I like I take a look and they are a million miles away.  I know that 2 apps increase my odds of meeting someone but I really hope I strike gold.  I have high standards as I think a lot of people do. 

So here’s to the week ahead.  May it be warmer, fast moving, productive and quiet.  I get to see my co-worker who has cancer tomorrow.  I don’t know that he has a lot of options available for treatment but he went to find out on Friday.  Thursday I told him a little bit more about me and came out to him without saying I am gay just that I lost my spouse and he at one time had colo/rectal cancer.  This is a different ball game for him, he’s got it in his bones and in his lung.  It’s Stage 4 and that is the worst it can be.  He is struggling to make it from day to day and each day I see another small piece of him die, it’s very minor but I honestly think he won’t be around a lot longer.  It’s really sad because he is a great guy and his mind is sharper than a razor.  With age come experience and he has been through the mill in 65 years of life, which by the way is still young even though it sounds old. 

So long for now.  I’ll be back to tell you more about what unfolds this week.  I hope there is way more good than bad.  I hope you like the changes I made to the theme, not exactly what I wanted but it’s fresh. 

The breakup?

The next season of The Ranch was released on Friday.  I started watching at work.  Came home watched some more.  Woke up this morning and finished it off.  Wow what a show.  Never expected it to end the way it did but cliff hangers are what keeps people coming back for more.  So now I am eagerly awaiting the next release. 

I switched to a laptop at work.  I spent a good portion of Friday afternoon moving into my new machine.  I wanted a 3rd monitor and got it hooked up but there simply isn’t enough real estate on my desk and I feel crowded, plus the 3rd monitor has to sit too close to my face.  So I uninstalled the 3rd monitor.  I put in some over time in working on it but things aren’t the way I really want them, so Monday morning I will be doing some modifications.  Still sticking with 2 monitors. 

Speaking of work we let a help desk tech go this week because he kept calling in.  I kind of understand he hated his job so rather than be there he called in.  Anything and everything under the sun qualified for a day to miss work.  I’ve been in his shoes before and lost a good opportunity because of it.  One day he will look back on this just like I am and realize what a mistake he made.  What I don’t understand is how it was so easy to get rid of him but yet I am stuck with stupid.  Yes still.  He has gone back to his old ways where he is missing things and I have to come clean up after him.  There has been no further talk about my alleged promotion and while I realize were only on the 8th day of the month, you’d think that since each day brings us closer to 1-1 that someone would be reaching out to me.  Work has gotten crazy busy for me, so the days are moving fast but not always fast enough.  There have been a couple days where I haven’t been able to look at social media.  I’m addicted to that, so if I can’t get at it while I am working when I am home I look at it.  My furry family hates my cell phone.  Oh yeah I almost forgot.  I was called for AV help this week to setup a video conference.  I got things going and who was on the other end but the hot stud I have a huge crush on in another office.  He is 100% gay, not sure if he has a boyfriend.  He’s way younger and he’s a blond.  I was just awestruck to see him.  I wanted to listen in on the meeting and tried but I couldn’t hear a damn thing so I gave up on that quickly.  He did look super fine. 

While I’m talking about the 1st of the year, my friends that normally invite me over for the holidays have yet to do so.  I’m pretty sure they are putting on a shindig but since I got a weird vibration from them at Thanksgiving I am just keeping my distance.  If you want me you know how and where to find me.  I just hope they don’t wait until the 11th hour to extend an invite.  I am over that and honestly would really rather just stay home for Christmas.  I can buy something in a cardboard box to eat or get a meal to go from somewhere.  It’s a depressing time of year for me and the sooner it’s over with the better off I will be.  So I am waiting but I don’t expect anything. 

I am surprised that I only got 1 reaction to my holiday letter.  No one else has said a word about it.  I even know someone who is moving and I asked them to reach out with their new address but have yet to hear from them..  I get that people have lives and no ones presently revolves around me but I think it’s just common courtesy to say that you received it.  It’s reactions like these that prove my point, that I don’t matter.  Honestly I have some time but I don’t think next year I will do another letter, it’s apparent that no one appreciates it and it was a lot of work, a lot of ink and a lot of time I spent away from my furry friends.

So I got a phone call this week, just before getting ready to get ready for bed on Tuesday.  It was my brother of all people.  Apparently things have gotten much worse with his relationship.  Someone is very close to either getting seriously injured or killed.  It’s highly toxic and then he lowered the bombshell on me.  He was going to propose to her at Christmas.  Instead he is paying her a decent amount of money to simply go away.  He told her his plans but since things have gone sideways he isn’t going to follow through.  Now she is devastated. He is in therapy which is a huge surprise to me.  It sounds like it’s helping.  She is boxing things up and supposed to be all gone by Sunday.  I hope for his sake that she really does leave, they don’t need to be together.  He wants them to take a breather and sort their own stuff out.  He thinks maybe they can get together again in the future.  Fuck, kick that bitch to the curb and be done.  I do have to watch what I say and can’t express all of the emotions that I want to.  I listened to him drone on about this and that, he was to the point where he is losing his voice from talking so much.  Plus it sounds like he might be getting sick.  Since I have no idea how things are going to turn out, I am on standby for the phone to ring.  I hope if it does it’s just him telling me she is gone.  Some of the stories he told me were just insane and they speak volumes as to why they shouldn’t be together.  I told him that I see a pattern, each time he calls things keep building and get progressively worse.  Now that she is boxing stuff up, she is crying to get him back.  I told him don’t you dare take her back.  It sounds like he has reached his breaking point and come to his senses, but I have thought this in the past.  So I am waiting for an update. 

Last night I was looking at what else SUV’s and found a new ride, it has everything my present ride does plus more.  Chances are I could switch out and my payments would go down, maybe not by much but money is money.  When I went to bed last night I was hell bent on getting up and going to buy it.  However, when I woke up this morning I had a muscle cramp in my back – it hurt and I figured that was the universes way of saying, not now.  Ah this new car fever I wish it would end.  Two things that get me going vehicles and men.  Maybe if I would find a man that would cure the new car fever, hey it’s a thought. 

I got going late in the day.  Grabbed the mail, a bite to eat and then hit up Target and the cat food store.  There was a cute guy in line behind me who had a friend with him.  I wanted to hit on him but once again passed up my chance.  Part of it is fear of rejection and the other part of it is fear of being humiliated or assaulted. 

Despite the fact that I got going late, Momma still things I am working past my bed time so she is all over me.  Plus they haven’t had their treats so I guess I will be going upstairs. 

A win for me this week, the eye doctor absorbed the balance on my account and I got an apology.  I’m still not going back but hey a win is a win.  I heard from the hospital about the ER visit that is up the air.  My medical records have been sent to my insurance provider.  I got a call from an executive at the hospital who took exception with the fact that I am blaming them for improperly submitting the claim.  I explained to her what I was told by my insurance provider and she tried to argue with me.  I told her the facts speak for themselves and she could deny it all she wanted but they fucked up and in a big way.  I told her if I am on the hook for this then were going to have a serious problem on our hands.  We parted ways agreeing to wait to see what the insurance company does and if there is a balance I am supposed to call her so we can talk about it.  I’m keeping good records on my end and this should play out pretty quickly as the time limit is approaching.  It will be a Merry Christmas for me if this whole thing just goes away.  I’ve checked my dental insurance website and no claim has been submitted yet for my tooth.  I am watching that like a hawk.  Ah, money there is just never enough of it in my account to do the things I want to do and cover the expenses I have.  Being poor sucks!

I hope life is treating you well.  Talk with you all again soon.   

Another unplanned expense :(

I decided to call the Dentist and made an appointment to get my tooth fixed, just to error on the side of caution.  Since selling the practice to a corporate conglomerate things just aren’t the same.  I got a robot person when I called to make the appointment who tried to shuffle me off to another doctor.  I declined that and they said the soonest my dentist could see me would be Thursday.  I scheduled time off work and that was that.  Fast forward to Thursday at 11:30 I get a call telling me that they only scheduled enough time for an evaluation and there wasn’t time for repair work to be done.  So I could go twice or just come in one time but the appointment would need to be moved.  I opted for 1 trip, it’s far better than 2 trips.  The appointment was setup for Saturday.  Not exactly how I wanted to spend my day but the work got done.  Turns out if I would have left this decay would have set in and then things would have gotten much worse.  As she was cleaning and drilling, we heard a snap and yet another piece of the tooth broke off.  Holy hell I am just falling apart.  I had to get numbed up for this and it took 2 shots because the first one was a little off and missed the full quadrant of my mouth.  It was about an hour and a half for repair time.  My dentist knows me well and so does her staff so that’s why they called ahead of time.  I asked today about why Saturday, well turns out Big Brother watches them close during the week but no one is in on Saturday so they can jolly well do what they want.  If this would have been a week day they would have scheduled an hour but then Big Brother would whittle that down to 30 minutes.  That’s all they allow for a Dental Emergency, they are all about making money and if the dentist is tied up seeing an emergency they aren’t making money.  Corporate logic it escapes me but it’s what has happened to the Medical field here in the US and now it’s spreading like cancer to the Dental field.  Before this is all said and done I may be looking for a new dentist but for now I am staying put. 

The best part of the visit was when it came time to settle up.  In times past they would send you a bill but now they want their money up front.  First glance the receptionist told me it was covered 100% and then she did some more digging and said nope it’s 90% covered.  So they took a small amount of money.  I just looked on-line and according to what I see there is no coverage in place for this and I am responsible for the full bill.  That will take time to process but probably later this month or first of next month it will be a reality.  I go back in January for a checkup and that’s when they will have their paws out for my money.  Yet another unplanned expense. 

It’s been a crazy week and I am glad it’s over with.  However, being on-call it’s not over until Monday morning.  My boss will be visiting stupid along with his boss.  Not exactly sure what if anything is going to happen there.  I find it odd that my boss is traveling because that isn’t something that happens.  If your getting fired HR usually tells you and your manager doesn’t really have anything to do with informing you.  I had an incident where stupid wrote me asking a question.  I provided an answer and that confused him so he called me.  I told him the same thing I put in the email and then he suddenly understood.  We have these types of incidents all the time, it’s not getting better and try as he might, this is just not the job for him.  Ah well I will work with it as long as I have to but it doesn’t mean I like it. 

I got some feedback on my holiday letter from a long time family friend.  It was put much smoother than I am saying it here.  What I heard was we all have problems, your not alone or special, my year was similar to yours but I’m not going into details and then I got this quote from John Lennon.  Lovely.  I understand people don’t want to read doom and gloom all the time.  I tried to put in some humor.  I slaved over that letter with many printed copies hitting the shredder and much time spent away from the furry family.  Momma was sick to death of me editing the damn thing.  Frankly so was I so I got to the point where I thought it was perfect and pulled the trigger. 

Last night I had some work that was scheduled so I got that done.  Then opted to take care of this crazy ass eye doctor bill.  I wrote a very frank and stern letter that said I think your fraudulently trying to get money out of me and you won’t or can’t provide an explanation of how this balance came about, you waited two months to tell me my account was past due when in fact based on interaction with your staff I was under the impression my account was settled.  I thought about this long and hard but in the end I gave an ultimatum either forgive the bill and admit that this was your mistake or cough up the itemized bill.  I sent it straight to the doctor not sure if it will end up there but I also used Certified Mail and there is a time limit imposed on the ultimatum.  There is more than one eye doctor in the area.  I have long thought they fuck people over but this gives merit to what was just an opinion before.  The chances of me going back are slim, this has put a very bad taste in my mouth.  I want to bring about a resolution so I can move on with my life. 

There is still the matter of the Emergency Room visit hanging over my head and while I hope my insurance will pay based on my appeal, it’s possible I am going to get stuck with that and that will put a huge damper on things.  I want that over with as well but if it’s going to mean I have to pay up, well then this can drag on forever as far as I am concerned.  By law they have 60 days and then they have to render a decision so it shouldn’t be much longer. 

I have often tried to conform of what I think society or others expect of me in the way of appearance.  An example of this is getting my ears pierced it’s something that I have always wanted to do but never have done  Today’s radical change was I had the sides and back of my head shaved off, it’s like a bare skin fade.  It looks really cool and it’s something that I have always wanted to do.  Now granted I picked the wrong time of year because it’s Winter like outside but today it was like summer in the 70’s.  Tomorrow were back to 45 degree weather and I will be wearing a hat for sure.  This is a great way for me to get sick again but as long as my hat is on, I should be fine.  I don’t know if I will ever muster up enough courage for the ear piercing thing.  I did manage to scare the shit out of myself.  Before I left for my haircut, I turned on the TV to a tech show that I like to watch.  The kids enjoy it as well.  Well when I came back home I forgot all about that.  It was quite and then just as I was half way in the room I hear a voice and jumped out of my skin until I realized what it was.  Holy hell almost had a heart attack over that. 

It’s been a long day and I am beyond tired, so I guess I will be headed to bed.  My jaw is sore.  I wonder if this is a side effect that one experiences if they suck cock for a living?  I guess I will never know.  In any event I am eager to see how I feel tomorrow morning.  Even my ear hurts and I can only open my mouth so wide.  Insert sucking cock reference again here.  Sorry but I have to laugh and that’ my inappropriate sense of humor.  Speaking of which I will be getting training on Sexual Harassment.  I do hope it’s a how to course but think that it will be quite the opposite of that.  That and Diversity & Inclusion are big pushes right now.  I got an invite to join a D&I group as did everyone else that I work with.  I would kind of like to go but at the same time I want to keep my personal life out of my professional life.  My sexuality is my business.  I only tell people that I trust, well that or if I am sleeping with you.  So as I said I only tell people I trust.  I wish I was sleeping with someone it would sure help me out.  As the holidays approach so does the depression and being short on cash doesn’t help things.  I am hopeful for a bonus as well as a nice raise come the 1st of the year but thus far I have heard nothing more about my supposed promotion. 

So how’s life in your neck of the woods?  What’s new?  What’s old?  How’s the weather?  I do hope all is well.  I shall talk with you all again soon.