Review

I had my review and everything is all good.  My boss mentioned our prior discussions but said that it wouldn’t be reflected in the documentation.  I am still waiting to see my copy.  I heard the overwhelming praise, the rubber stamp thank you and how valuable I am speech.  All things considered I think I am a lucky guy.  I just need that overtime back in order to stay a float or a serious pay raise.  I’ll be campaigning for that later this year.  Right now I am just keeping track of all of the good and how I am contributing over and above.  I will keep my eyes open to see what the market has to offer but doubt seriously if I would leave.  Having 3 years in and getting ready to ring in 4, I am 1 year away from getting extra PTO.  Yes, I am bitter and angry.  I feel like I was fucked without lube or even a kiss, but I am playing along for the moment.  While I appreciate the rubber stamp speech that I typically get on a daily basis, I would appreciate money much more.  You can’t slice a thank you speech and pay bills. 

Speaking of which I just finished paying bills and I see money left over.  That’s from overtime.  I backed out my overtime from this check and found that I would need a few hundred dollars more just to break even.  That doesn’t allow for living, that is just paying the bills.  I’d have to charge groceries, gas, cat food and anything else that I needed.  My biggest expense is the vehicle and yes I am living well above my means but at the same time, rewarding myself for all of the shit I have been through is appropriate.  I mean I have 1 very nice thing and I appreciate it but at the same time I am scared to death that I am going to go under.  Getting rid of it is an option but I would still take a financial bath.  I just finished paying off the financial bath I took back in September and am not ready to take another one.  However, depending upon what the future has in store for me I may have to acquiesce.  For now I drive and enjoy. 

Momma is chirping and it’s 1/2 hour later than normal.  So I need to get cracking because soon it will be bed time.  My boss is out tomorrow so I look forward to that, I can hopefully get some shit done.  At least I have plans to, lets see what the day has in store and if I will be able to. 

Happy end to Tuesday.  Here’s hoping Wednesday is a productive and kind day.  Cheers!

1 down 4 to go

Monday is behind us.  The conference calls I was dreading are done.  They turned out okay but as per usual we didn’t stick to an agenda and got off course more than once.  We ran out of time and have to schedule another call for later in the week. 

Tomorrow I get to have a quarterly review, zipity doo dah.  I really want to unload but I will go in guarded and depending upon what is said I may or may not voice concern.  Regardless if I voice concern or not, I expect the results will be the same.  Sort of like buying a lottery ticket, there is a chance I one could win but the odds are slim. 

Wolfed down my Lasagna from Maggiano’s, it was really tasty.  Followed that with some Mint Fudge Gelato.  A great combination.  Now I need to take some heartburn medicine. 

Tomorrow nights menu is left over pizza and the same thing for desert.  Fun task tomorrow night, paying bills.  I’ll be glad when we get to flip the calendars to March.  New men to look at on the calendars.  Plus it brings us closer to Spring and lawn care.  Not looking forward to the lawn care part but Spring yeah kind of excited for that.  Even though it will be some aggravation to my allergies I look forward to short sleeves and no jacket or coat.  Sun roof open and enjoying some rays. 

Up to watch some TV and spend a little time with the kids before it’s time for bed.  American Greed on CNBC is back with a new season and I look forward to watching, that is a great show. 

Momma is squawking at me which means it’s time to run.  Hope you all had a great day.  Here’s to a great rest of the week ahead. 

Talk Therapy

It’s been a rollercoaster week.  Sit back, relax and I’ll take you through it.

We had a bunch of people at work forward and click on a malicious link, it caused a lot of work for me and my team but we made it through.  Things calmed down and then wave 2 hit later in the day.  You loose all track of time and really focus on what your dealing with, trying to cover all of the bases, document what your doing while hoping for the best.  When you can finally relax and let your guard down, you feel how emotionally drained you are.  These situations are nerve wracking, but I am cool under pressure or at least I give that impression.  Inside I am shaking like a leaf but that is what makes me so good at my job. 

We have some Next Gen AV software that isn’t playing nice with a particular application.  I have fought with support but the only fix is to hack the registry on each machine to apply a fix.  There are like 30 people that use this software.  I have been fixing them 1 by 1 as they come in.  My boss said that the dummy will be on call next week and I should train him on how to do this.  Yeah okay.  So I took time to prepare detailed written instructions.  I had a call with him and asked him if he ever edited the registry on a computer before.  He said yes.  Okay so let’s get into the registry on your machine.  Uh how do I do that?  Are you fucking kidding me?  You really did bullshit your way into this job, didn’t you?  Son of a bitch!  So I shared my documentation and then he was trying to connect to his own registry as if it was a users machine on the network.  This guy is a complete Fuck Tard, he lacks all common sense and skills that an average help desk person has.  He’s a senior level person and I am the junior level person – I run circles around him and know way more than him but I don’t tout myself as an expert. 

Thinking about that and how things are not likely to change, I decided to take a gander and see what the job market has to offer today in my current field.  There are no shortage of jobs.  It’s a matter of picking where you want to work and then applying.  My problem is I have a lot riding on my job.  I don’t want to fuck things up just because I am stuck working with a dummy and am trying to get away from him.  Plus there is the fact I need more money. 

I found a job, I think I can do.  I walked away and thought about it.  It’s been out there for a month and I just found it.  1 day isn’t going to make or break things.  I dreamed about it.  I couldn’t get it out of my head so this morning I applied.  Turns out it’s for the credit union that has my vehicle loan.  If I get more money, I would have to travel a whopping 12 miles to get to work and I would be doing very well.  I am asking for a serious pay raise and they might not have it.  I make a decent amount of money but I had and still have to work for every penny.  I am worth so much more than I am making.  I am nervous though, what if the stars and the moon align.  They like me and I like them.  I pretty much have a sure thing in my hand should I really throw that away for a maybe?  I have had second thoughts since I applied but at the same time it felt good to put myself out there.  I get my 2nd quarter review on Tuesday and I think I will have a lot to talk about.  Just as long as I don’t talk myself out of a job.  I am really frustrated but at the same time I don’t want to fuck things up.  

On to a different day, the morning is going by things are flowing.  I decided to take a break and started looking at Facebook.  That’s when I found out my friend in Canada suffered a major heart attack.  She’s fine and on the road to recovery.  It was just out of left field and really was quite the shock. 

Today I was on Facebook and saw on my high school page that something happened with a couple brothers I went to school with.  It was cryptic and sounded like at least one of them were dead.  I found out tonight that one shot the other and then killed himself. 

I am ready to dump Facebook it’s just bringing me devastating news.  I am so addicted to it I have no idea how I managed before it came along.  Social Media is a great escape for me and I spend way too much time there.  But I can see 1/2 naked men, catch up on what friends are doing and see funny cat videos.  I mean it’s a wide variety of things. 

Last night I met up with a friend who said he had cat toys for me.  I am really short on money but I found a way to make it work.  I drove in the pouring rain and had what was a more expensive meal than I thought it was only to find out my friend forgot the toys.  Fuck.  I wasn’t terribly happy but hell I was already there so might as well eat. 

Thinking about money, work and switching jobs.  I went to the grocery store this morning.  I forgot to pick up my brownie cookies that I like so much.  I also bought Diet Mt. Dew when what I needed was Coke Zero.  My mind is in a blender.  I stopped for gas, the pump shut off and I added just a little bit more gas to get to an even number.  Then I drove to the car wash where I discovered my tank was only 80% full.  I wasn’t happy about that at all but at least my vehicle is clean.  I’ll top things off on Tuesday after I get the mail, presuming there is something worth stopping for. 

The best thing to happen is I have one of my tax refunds already.  I am still waiting for my Federal refund but every penny of both refunds is going to a credit card company so I am just holding money and going to earn a little bit of interest off of it.  Every penny helps! 

There are plenty of things out there to take my money.  I got an advertisement from an adult toy shop and there are a couple items I desire but I just told myself no.  That is not an easy thing to do.  I don’t like the word no but we all hear it and have to deal with it.  Tuesday will give me a peek at my pay check which will hit my bank on Wednesday and I will either be breathing easy or gasping for air.  I am just ready to find out.  Oh and I even though my OT is limited I have managed to get 3 hours so far for my next check. 

I have a very boring and long conference call in the morning.  So not looking forward to Monday, but we will get it over with and then I will find something else to complain about. 

Been thinking about my brother and almost called him a couple times.  I wonder if I wait how long it will be before he calls me.  Now that he’s back with the bimbo she surely occupies all of his time and has that strangle hold on him.  I hope he’s doing okay, but my main focus has to be on myself and my furry family. 

So it’s been a while and I hope that the trash has been flushed.  I am going to turn comments back on and see what happens.  I hope your doing well, take care of yourself.  You are the best you that you have.  No one else can be you!

Falling Dominos

As per usual, what a week!  I am falling behind at work, which is no surprise to me.  I feel the pressure to catch up but the more I try the further behind I get.  Interruptions are a common theme if it’s not in person then it’s by phone.  Seems like everyone knows my name and while normally that is a good thing and should make me feel proud, at the moment it’s causing me a little bit of pain. 

Thursday night I was so excited for Friday as I normally am.  I had a bitch of a day but getting home with the kids and relaxing is what makes it worth while for me.  I went to bed at normal time.  I woke up at 3am wrapped up in blankets as if they were a straight jacket.  I had a Charlie Horse in my left calf and I had to get out of bed and stand up to make it go away.  I finally was able to get out of bed and as soon as I stood up I saw stars.  My blood pressure dropped, I got cold and clammy – felt horrible.  The pain in my leg stopped but now I had a greater problem.  I felt like I was about to pass out and that my sugar tanked.  I didn’t pass out but it was very scary and to be all alone was even worse.  I was able to get back to sleep but it wasn’t restful sleep.  I woke up at normal time and thought about forging forward, I mean I could have made it if I wanted to.  I felt nauseated and a little bit tired.  My neck was killing me.  Then I thought why should I kill myself for work, I am taking the day off and I’m not looking back.  I sent an email, turned on my out of office, recorded an absence greeting and then turned off mail on my phone.  I put my phone on do not disturb and that was it.  There were plenty of things that went wrong but I will deal with that on Monday.  I didn’t have much interaction with my phone.  I watched TV and slept the bulk of the day.  I also took a stronger muscle relaxer which I knew would knock me out.  It probably wasn’t the best use of my time, considering that it would have probably allowed me to catch up but it is what it is.  They don’t want to pay overtime so I’m not working it unless it’s for on-call related issues or some urgent departure.  Yes I am bitter but that is wearing down.  Overall I do feel better but I still am dealing with nausea.  It’s not nearly as intense as it was when this first hit.  I thought for sure I would puke but thankfully that didn’t happen.  

As for the early morning wake up call on Friday, I think I may have over done it when I was watching porn the night before.  Helix released an awesome scene with Blake Mitchell and Cole Claire, it was wicked hot and I was really into it.  I knew the scene was released early in the morning and looked forward to watching it.  Normally, if I skip a night or two that will generate Charlie Horses.  I did skip Wednesday night but that was because I got a phone call.  I didn’t have any side effects Wednesday night or Thursday morning, except that I woke up horny.  I thought about taking care of things in the morning but got side tracked with cat issues. 

Today I kept true to my word and I have filed my taxes.  Way to go me.  Well not exactly.  The Lemon Car settlement really fucked things up.  So my federal refund was lower, I owed my state more money and it also impacted the state I work in so I got less of a refund over all.  It was like domino’s falling because it’s income and that affects everything.  As far as the government is concerned I was self employed and was declaring that now that it’s tax time.  The only good news is that I don’t have to pay my state until April 17th.  I will get a check in the mail to them long before that date.  I feel like I should have cheated and kept my mouth shut.  Chances are pretty good that I would have flew under the radar but I did the right thing because sweating it out is no fun and I don’t want to do battle with the IRS, it’s daunting and costly.  It’s a headache I really don’t need.  My fear is that I will have raised a red flag by being honest.  I sure hope that is not the case.

Now I feel like the walls of debt are closing in on me.  I have renewal expenses in February and March that really suck the money.  There is the post office box and my car insurance just to name two.  The car insurance bill was waiting for me in the mail.  I was not happy to see it but knew that it would be there.  I really feel like I am being robbed by my insurance company but when I got to check rates no one can beat them.  I am tired of trying to fight it, I could change my deductibles but that wouldn’t be a smart move.  I just pay them all be it monthly because I can’t pay it in 1 lump sum like I used to.  There is and always will be someone wanting to take my money.  I just have to get used to it, I don’t know that I ever will.  I’d like to build a nest egg that I could pull from.  

I made a bold move today.  There is a guy on social media that I think is really hot.  The problem is that he is into pot and that’s not my thing.  I know he’s gay and I know he is in my area.  This morning he posted a new selfie and was going on about how he was depressed and trying to work on bulking up.  He is a twink, young and still in college.  I’m telling you the camera doesn’t do him justice, he is way hotter in person.  Today I reached out and left a comment on his post.  He commented back and said how sweet I was.  Yeah that is me Mr. Sweet and lonely.  I could probably push and get a date out of the situation and maybe a boyfriend.  However, the drugs are a deal breaker.  I know it’s just pot.  However, I am vehemently opposed to illegal drugs.  I saw what it did to my mom and how it messed up my family, if I only learned one thing in school it was to say no to drugs.  I’ve done a good job at that. 

Tomorrow it will be time to hit up the grocery store again and fill my tank to prepare for the week ahead.  I think I am seeing better gas mileage.  It might just be a fluke, I am hyper sensitive to it since it relates to money coming out of my wallet.  I got gas cheaper on Wednesday night and a car wash.  Of course Thursday it rained and fucked up my ride.  Dirty windows are a pet peeve of mine and if they get dirty enough I can’t see which makes driving more difficult  The back window on this SUV is everything and it’s the one window that I can’t seem to keep clean.  It’s supposed to rain the majority of next week and we have a heat wave coming supposed to be in the 60’s.  I know it’s still Winter but were edging closer and closer to spring. 

Pandora now has a premium service to make them more like Spotify.  Since I am a grandfathered subscriber, it wouldn’t cost terribly much to upgrade but I am happy with what I have and unless they force the issue I am staying put.  It’s just that when I launch the app on my phone I get a nag screen that asks me if I want to upgrade.  Asking once is fine, twice is even okay but beyond that I think is harassment.  Each time I open the app I get the same question.  They are trying to tempt me by offering it free for a period of time but thus far I have resisted.  I wish there was a way to turn off this nag screen.  I have Spotify Premium and it’s nice, picked it up at Christmas for 99 cents per month for 3 months.  It’s not all that and a bag of chips.  I like Pandora even if they do repeat songs several times per hour.  I don’t see me keeping Spotify past the 3 months.  Funny thing is I pay annually for Spotify and that renews in April. 

When I woke up this morning it was snowing.  I stayed home instead of going out to breakfast.  I didn’t get out until this afternoon.  I hit up Cracker Barrel and got their Meatloaf.  I started eating it and got the burps long before my body had any time to digest those green peppers that were in the Meatloaf.  It was a good meal that didn’t last long enough.  I wanted Olive Garden but settled due to being on-call and the fact that it is a little bit of a hike for me. 

The kids are all doing good.  They are keeping me on my toes.  Momma has been crowing and under my feet, she really wants to go upstairs.  I am content to stay down here but she must think it’s a normal night and if that is the case I am down here way past time.  She is a great time management boss.  She knows my routine and makes sure that I stick to it, including her belly rub club time.  I had everyone in my room last night.  3 of them were on my bed, 1 was on the cedar chest at the end of the bed and of course Bear was on the floor.  I was thinking it would be a great time for a family portrait, something we always wanted but never managed to do.  Getting them all together as adults is next to impossible.  I really wished we would have done that when they were younger, cuter and more cuddly.  Ah well, off to see what I can find to peak my interest on the net and then it will be upstairs and back to bed. 

I hope all is well in your world.  Thanks for your visit. 

Vanilla Ice

I drove on some ice this morning, it wasn’t bad out but there were certain spots that could have been treated better than others.  I went back to Steak N Shake in the hopes of seeing Mr. Dream Boat and of course to save a little money.  Eating for 1 there isn’t terribly expensive.  I didn’t get to see him but I did get much better service than yesterday.  I also had a shake which was very nice. 

On to the grocery store where valentines day was the theme.  Sweets and Roses greeted everyone that walked in the door.  Ah, I just looked past it and kept on walking.  I kept it light and got out for just under $60.  I didn’t need much which helped as well.  I have about $60 left until Thursday when it will be payday again.  I have this check and one more to follow that will have overtime on it, then after that they will be primarily regular pay.  :(

It was nice last night to once again be able to turn off my phone and jump in bed.  Turning it back on, I never know what I will get but thankfully I missed nothing of value and there wasn’t any emergencies.  I still have my home phone but no one from work knows that #.  If your a good friend or my brother then you know it.  Otherwise chances are you just have my cell phone.  If it wasn’t for my alarm I would remove the home phone as I have found that I really don’t use it a whole lot.  It’s nice to have and I am on the lowest calling plan possible but still removing it could save me a few dollars.  I know I could opt for a cellular backup option but that would drive up the cost of the alarm so it’s one of those situations where I am better off leaving it alone.  Now I could get rid of both the alarm and home phone.  However, if something happened to my house I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself. 

Yesterday getting my hair cut I was asking the stylist about Nioxin.  I joked and called it Nixon.  I really didn’t want to know about the stuff but I guess if you ask they have to tell you.  She went on and on about it and had me sold on it even though I don’t have thinning or balding.  It’s not cheap either.  However, it sounds like it feels really good on your head.  It’s apparently the only shampoo that leaves your poor's open.  So maybe I’ll get some in the future, for now I have enough hair care to open my own salon.  I guess it’s stereotypical for me being gay but I just love hair product, shampoo, conditioner, etc.  Honestly I could probably go a couple years, I mean my hair is kept short and that doesn’t require a lot of anything to keep it clean and looking good. 

Got in my nap, slept probably too long but it was nice.  Last night I was dreaming of Lance Bass and what he was doing to me was very X rated.  Not exactly sure why he was in my dream but hey it was a good time so I’ll take it.  I would like to see him naked, but chances are slim that will happen. 

I wound up watching comedy specials which did make me laugh a little bit.  Right now it’s hard to find something interesting on.  I have Netflix, Amazon Prime and Uverse with HBO, Showtime, Starz and Encore.  You’d think with all of those choices there would be something that peaked my interest, but sadly that is not the case.  Netflix and Amazon need serious overhaul to their content it’s stale.  BTW, Netflix is raising it’s prices.  I hope that means that the content will improve.  I like having a choice in what I watch.  I consume a lot of TV, Movies and Music in general.  I am not including porn, that is separate but I am a very visual person and it’s really great when I can enjoy the content.  Nothing beats a good movie or TV show.  It’s an escape for me and it’s something I need more often than not.  Plus it adds some flavor to my otherwise boring life. 

Speaking of boring life I am up to my usual Sunday tasks.  It will be time to break out the vacuum just in time to scare the children.  I had to wash my bed stuff partially because of Gator and partially because it’s just been too damn long.  One load left to send through and that will be the covers from the couch.  Then when that’s done I will be able to grab a shower and start my wind down process.  Right now everyone except me is passed out upstairs and resting comfortably.  One flick of a switch and that all changes.  I hate that they are afraid of the noisy machine because it won’t hurt them and even if it would hurt them, I wouldn’t let it happen. 

Supper is Stouffer’s Chicken, Pasta and Broccoli Casserole.  1/2 tonight and the other 1/2 tomorrow. Desert will be Mint Gelato, sure hope I like it.  Back to the grind and I am on-call.  Here’s hoping it will be a good week.  May the odds ever be in all of our favors.  Stay warm, be well and we will talk again soon.

Depression

Hi there and thanks for stopping by.  Here’s some ramblings on how this week went.

I got a gift card from my boss, turns out that is what he was working with HR on.  Here I was expecting a pay raise, kind of let down.  Then one day he calls me up asking me to justify and account for all of my overtime in the month of January.  I had a feeling this was going to catch up to me sooner or later and it did.  I accounted for my time and was told no more overtime, unless I am on-call or it’s an extreme emergency.  I have to start on time, can’t start early.  I have to go to lunch and not work through lunch.  I have to leave on time can’t stay late to finish up.  I have serious doubts if I will be able to make it without the overtime.  I was around an extra $600 a month roughly speaking.  In fairness it’s not just me that is getting this message it’s everyone, no matter what department you fall in.  Were not losing money but the people at the top want a bigger paycheck so we have to be the sacrificial lambs.  I am really pissed off because I threw my all into my job, juggling and trying to make sure all of the bases were covered at all times.  Now I simply don’t give a shit.  I do my job but I don’t go the extra mile anymore.  I eat lunch and forward my phone to voicemail for an entire hour.  I don’t watch email at lunch.  Just wait until the next time I am off, I won’t be watching email either.  Some catastrophe will come up and they will need my help, good luck in trying to reach me.  Again I will do my job but nothing extra.  I am more hurt than anything by this and yeah it’s enough to make me leave but reality is I am comfortable and that goes a long way into keeping me where I am. 

I’ve had some dreams that have had my late husband in them, they were all pleasant and then I’d wake up to the reality that it was just a dream.  I tried to work on what used to be his office and get rid of things but that didn’t happen.  Big Boy and I just sat in there consoling each other.  I also had some of my mom’s stuff in there and went through that.  I am just so lonely and I miss my guy.  I found a recorder that he bought and he recorded some funny “testing” recordings, saying things that he knew would aggravate me, but today when I heard them all I could do was just laugh.  I realize that my depression and mourning probably won’t ever end so long as I am in this house.  I need to get out of here but I am in no hurry to go anywhere.  I would need to do some repairs, then there is the chore of moving and the reality of what in the world will I ever do with all of this stuff.  Honestly all I really want is for the pain to stop.  There isn’t a pill on the market today that can fix that. 

We have bad weather on the way with ice expected overnight so tomorrow’s commute out to grab breakfast and groceries could be quite interesting.  I am on the fence about where I want to dine at in the morning and just as I typed that a third place came to mind.  I did have the common sense tonight to get gas while I was out pet food shopping.  It’s one less thing I have to have on my list for tomorrow.

I also got another tax form in the mail this week and when I plugged it in to my taxes it took away a good chunk of my refund and caused my state tax to increase.  Not terribly happy about that but what do you do?  I am still waiting for one more potential form to come regarding my winnings and I honestly think it’s not coming but I have to wait to be sure.  I am just eager to file to get it over with. 

We have a Primary Election coming up where we will be electing a new Governor and the ads on TV have already started.  We were just about done with January when they started appearing and now I have to listen to them all the time.  It’s insanity I hate campaign season.  I also put in my name to vote by mail.  I do it all the time, it’s much easier than standing in a long line.  It’s not a privilege that is reserved for anyone, it’s actually a right for everyone.  I had an aunt who was a shut in and she did it all the time, that’s where the idea came from. 

Last night was not a terribly fun evening I elected to finally take care of Ruth’s claws.  I thought she was in a good mood and she just might cooperate.  I was wrong.  She went from nice to evil bitch in less than 2 seconds.  She sees the gloves and that is when the fight was on.  Funny thing is when I was done she wouldn’t let me pick up my glove, she claimed it and had her head resting on it.  I waited her out and eventually she left.  She was sticking in the rug when she would walk and/or try to run from me.  We wound up in the basement and just like the last time we wound up in the basement last year there was blood.  Turns out this time it was from me and not her.  I did something to my leg in the process of trying to capture her.  It’s very, very minor.  I let her throw her fit and the more room I gave her the more room she took, until finally I just snapped and that’s when the fight was on.  She permitted me to trim but she expressed her displeasure loud and clear.  There was quite the mess to clean up afterwards but hey it’s all part of taking care of her.  Of course now that is over with and I am the keeper of the food I am her friend again and she loves me.  Evil bitch, I love her too. 

I saw a preview of Bad Mom’s Christmas and there was a male stripper in the movie.  Hell that was enough to hook me.  I rented it this morning and it was funny and entertaining.  However, it had that sappy family Christmas theme and well since I have no family it didn’t really help my depression.  However, the male stripper was pretty damn hot, even if the only thing I saw was his chest and what presumably was a horse cock through his underwear.  I think that was a Hollywood thing and not real.  Then again I will probably never know, as if it matters.  If you seen one, you have seen them all – generally speaking.  That applies to guys and gals. 

I hope that your warm and that life is treating you good.  Seems my joyride of a good time has come to a bottle neck.  I know I will make it without overtime the question is how far and will I need to give anything up? 

Well off to the wonderful world of the internet, where porn is ever flowing as is information.  Take care and we shall talk again soon. 

Snow

There is a little bit of snow in the area, just enough to make things sloppy.  Accidents are stacking up and I am thankful that I am at home and not on the road.  I got up early and did my running.  I had thought about going out for supper but I’ll do my usual thing and stay home.  I have left over pizza from Friday. 

Yesterday I met a friend at Maggiano’s and had some good food.  Spent way too much time there but it was enjoyable and we had some laughs. 

This past week has been stressful and all of the odd crazy things happened.  I blame in on the Moon.  I got to leave early two days this week, both of which were at my bosses request.  Plus he told me that he is working with HR regarding me.  He let it slip and then glossed over it but he is trying to get me a pay raise.  He’s one of those people that doesn’t typically say anything until it’s a done deal.  He is really afraid for some reason that he is going to lose me.  I think it all stems from a conversation I had last week with a couple people in my office and they asked me why I was dressed up.  I wasn’t dressed up, but I was properly dressed for work.  I told them I was looking for a job and the 1st impression is the only one that matters.  I think someone either over heard me or took me serious and word got back to him.  If that is what happened I think it’s hilarious. 

So today is my last day on call and I am looking forward to the dummy picking up tomorrow.  He should have a quiet week but I will be backing him up a little bit. 

Normally this time of year I have Raccoon’s living under my deck, this year I got a pleasant surprise and found that I have a cat living there.  I just saw him/her yesterday and decided to take some food out.  It is not trusting of humans and doesn’t appear to like me.  I have seen it around my yard since late last year, but had no idea that it was claiming my house as it’s own.  If my late partner were alive he would be trying to coax the damn thing inside.  It’s cute and I want to help it but I really don’t want another cat.  He’s been managing to find something to eat on his own for months, not sure if he’s eating well but a can of food here and there won’t hurt me.  Maybe we will develop a rapport.

Saw the guy I asked out this morning.  I thought for sure as I was leaving the staff was calling my name but I figured if someone really wanted me they would come out the door before I got to my car.  That didn’t happen so I guess it was all my imagination.

Momma’s been clingy today, in fact all of the kids kind of have.  My waitress this morning asked me what was wrong, I told her everything was fine.  She said that I looked like something was wrong.  People at work have said the same thing.  I guess I have resting bitch face.  I certainly hope it’s not an omen that something bad is about to happen. 

Checked up via social media on my brother.  His page now says that he is in a domestic partnership with the tubby ass girl he has been going with.  She chose the wording.  I don’t exactly know what a domestic partnership is between a hetro couple.  I know what it means for a same sex couple.  I personally think she is trying to rub it in my face but maybe I am just way too sensitive.  I really wish he would have dumped her, she is trouble but hey it’s not my life.  I am only responsible for me and my cats. 

I am patiently waiting for the dryer to finish.  I am dying to shave, my face started itching on Friday it was light and now I am to the point where I am ready to start gnawing on it.  The dryer has my favorite towel hostage but that will be coming to an end shortly. 

Oh I got some additional forms for taxes and I went to check to see if I need to file them and turns out I don’t but somehow now I owe my state a small amount of money.  Just what I thought would happen.  I’m waiting to see if my bank is going to send me a form for the gift I won, that is the only thing I am holding on.  I won’t be waiting much longer.  Of course you know I won’t wait long enough and will probably have to file an amended return but I am trying not to have that happen.  I really want the refund that the feds owe me, that is going to wipe out a credit card and I am looking forward to seeing balance owed is $0.  That is so refreshing!

Bargain of the week.  I got pee pads for Bear today and with my points from my Amazon card, I paid a whopping $3.  You can’t beat that!

Going to deal with laundry and then shower.  Then food and some web surfing, TV watching and sooner than I want it will be bed time.  I’m not interested in the Super Bowl but the commercials are always epic. 

Here’s to a better week ahead.  Hope your staying warm and doing well.  Talk with you all again soon.