Eating My Meat

When I woke, it was raining and very, very early in the morning.  Of course it was to feed the cat.  I had all sorts of strange dreams and yes just like any other night she had me up a couple times.  I finally rolled out of bed around 8 or 9 I think.  To the kitchen for Gator’s 2nd breakfast.  I had a large glass of Chocolate Milk and finished off the last Chocolate Muffin I got last week from Sam’s.  It wasn’t a healthy breakfast but it sure was good. 

I did eventually wind up back in bed but not for terribly long.  I spent a good portion of time watching TV.  Something I got hooked on last night was body camera videos from Police.  Wow, they deal with some crazy stuff.  I think body cameras give the average citizen a great insight into the crazy ass world that the police have to deal with.  I’m not saying they always do the right thing.  However, when it comes to deadly force your talking about making a split second decision, not easy but most of them go back to their training and regardless of what anyone tells you they shoot to kill not to injure.  That’s why there is such a thing as suicide by cop.  They (police officers) are human just like you and I, that means that they have feelings and they have to mentally deal with decisions they make.  I’m sure it’s not easy to take someone’s life and that those events replay over and over in their heads if not for ever for at least several months on end.  There is more to policing than shooting and there are good and bad cops just like there are good and bad people. 

Back on to today.  I did eventually get a shower, got dressed and then headed out.  I made the right call to hit up the post office, pharmacy and cat food store before I went for pizza.  I got a large Meat Lover’s, so I can say that I ate my meat today!  I say that because when I came home and got out of the car my bladder was about to explode.  I don’t know why but those are the times that I always have a lot of stuff to take in the house and also the times that I chose to lock the door from the garage to the house.  Then I get to the door and it hits me, I’ve got to get my keys. 

I was fortunate enough to get the only male waiter that I wrote about last Saturday.  He’s lost some weight but he certainly didn’t need to.  He looks very fine to me.  Sadly the place was getting busy and he did rush me along to hurry up and leave.  I’m glad I left when I did because several cars pulled in as I was leaving.  The place had to turn into a zoo.  I did think about asking him out, as I have often done before.  However, I don’t exactly know his age but he’s got to be in his mid 20’s to early 30’s at best.  I’m not sure if he’s gay and even if he is, I don’t know that he would want an old man like me.  Of course I have been told by more than one person that I don’t look my age.  Sadly age does play into many factors in life and dating is no exception. 

I had some work tasks to tend to along with my silly daily report and have been in front of the computer for a few hours.  Gator has voiced some displeasure and I’m growing tired so up to be with her and eventually to bed.  Looking forward to eating breakfast out tomorrow and hope to pick up some more frozen Chicken Enchiladas at the grocery store. 

Hope all is well in your world and that your having a great weekend.  Take care!

Another fun day in the city

Today was a bit hectic. My counterpart has a bad habit of taking work but then taking his sweet time to finish it. People then reach out to me and it starts a shit storm of inquires and emails. The work its self takes about 30 minutes tops if you’re moving at the slowest speed and getting interrupted. I’m the guy that everyone knows is responsible for taking care of things as well as a huge face for my team, people depend on me and I hate that he is giving me a black eye. We’ve talked about it and he just hems and haws. I don’t want to mess up our working relationship but I think I am going to wind up engaging our boss. I don’t want to do that but if this keeps up, he is leaving me no choice.

We also had last minute notice of a person starting on Monday and that sadly is something that happens often. I have complained about it and it will get better but then things go right back to the way they were, so why bother to complain. It will get better but that only lasts a short time. The last department you want to make mad is HR, but they make it quite difficult for me and my counterpart at times. I pulled everything together and the crisis is over for now, until the next time this happens.

I’ve gotten several emails in the last couple days telling me that mask mandates are in effect by local government where our offices are located. I know that the word was last we are going back to mandatory return to the office after Labor Day. Right now, with the surge of COVID I think that is clearly the wrong move to make because it’s placing folks in harm’s way, regardless if they have gotten the shots or not. Were supposed to get an update next week. There is no question that the increase in cases is largely due to the folks that have chosen for whatever reason to not get the shots. I know there are a lot of theories about the vaccine and that it’s some how a trick, but it wasn’t for Polio, Rubella, or any of the many other things that we have preventative shots for. I know that in a few years the whole COVID thing will settle down but for now it is still here and will be for quite some time. That’s not saying we are all going to be sheltering in place or working from home forever but I do think that we opened up and relaxed protocol a bit soon. Perhaps if more people get the shots and the Delta variant settles down and no other variants arise things will be better for us next year. As for now I think that we are going to go through more of a lockdown phase and having in person events cancelled. This is just my opinion and we will see what happens. I am personally not in any hurry to rush back to the office. I do like the fact that I can eat out on the weekend, but I do spend the rest of the week isolated. It is getting old but at the same time I am getting used to it. Gator has to think I quit my job to stay home with her as I am sure many other animals think the same of their owners/humans. No question that when things get back to a true normal it will be a shock to all of us to return back to a normal state.

Outside of work not much going on here at home. Just baby sitting the cat and tending to her new ferocious appetite. She has started eating more and drinking less. However, there is water in wet cat food but she doesn’t know that. Outside of that she appears normal for the most part. She took a small tumble off of the foam steps when she was getting off of the couch yesterday and landed right on my foot. That didn’t feel good for either of us. She had a much more noticeable limp but today she is back to the normal limp which is associated with arthritis. It doesn’t step her from getting around, she has determination just like her mother. I’m really glad that she is still here to give me some comfort considering we are both locked away in this house.

I’ve started listening to the police scanner a bit more to help mix up the day and get some insight into what is going on in the world around me. It is interesting at times. I listened to a short pursuit today but when it reached speeds of 100mph it was called off. Stuff like that doesn’t make the news around here. If we were a large metropolis like LA there would be a chopper on it and a video feed for everyone to watch. Stuff like this happens across the country and isn’t always broadcast on TV.

The trash is out and should be hauled away early tomorrow morning. I am a bit bored and also not looking forward to tomorrow. It is going to be a very busy day and no doubt Gator won’t be terribly happy because I will need to be downstairs with two monitors instead of slumped over a tiny laptop screen.

Nothing terribly special on tap for the weekend. I will probably go for a pizza and I really should get to Target. Mix in a trip to the usual post office, cat food store and grocery store and then it’s back to Monday and I will once again be on call. Things have been kind of crazy this week as if I was on call so I have some mild concerns about what next week will be like but I will just have to stay tuned to find out. Fingers crossed for a calm and peaceful week.

Hope all is well in your world. Talk with you all again soon.

All work & no play

This morning I was woke up by my alarm clock, which isn’t something that happens that often. I was in deep sleep. I thought for sure the week was done and my alarm going off was a mistake. Then reality set in and I knew I had to get moving. I was tired and really just wanted to go back to bed. I didn’t know it but this was an omen.

We have a ton of people leaving on Friday and it’s going to be a busy day to say the least. I like to get my ducks in a row and obtain all of the information I need long before a person is walking out the door, it makes the whole process so much smoother. I had a catch-up task on my calendar for this reason. Gator was screaming her head off when I was done with my morning report and I knew the only sure-fire way to silence her was to get upstairs. I put my catch-up task off until tomorrow. Then once I got settled, I opted to start with one person and got finished. I wanted to move on but something said don’t do it.

Good thing I listened. We had a couple people click on things they shouldn’t and all hell broke loose. Boss man did his micro-management thing passing out assignments and that of course elevated my blood pressure. I took care of what task I was given and then it was time for a couple of useless meetings. Boring as they were I sat through them.

I was dealing with something else that was just stupidity because someone didn’t pay attention and do what I asked. That’s when I just grabbed the bull by the horns and took care of it on my own. That’s the best way to accomplish most things versus depending on others. I have mostly found that when I place trust in other people, they often fail me and I wind up having to either clean up or do the job myself. What a mess.

The fun part of the afternoon was when I learned that my counter part has been scheduled to attend a full week of training next month. That just means a little pressure for me but hell I managed for a couple months what’s a week. Then I had my fun. I put in for a week of vacation and have plans to in fact take the full 40 hours and do nothing work related. No report, no email not a thing. I’ll make it clear that I am not to be disturbed unless there is a true emergency. I just so happened to schedule this around my birthday. I know that I will likely be alone that week and I anticipate that my depression will be at a high level. As we get closer to this time frame, I plan to reach out to my infamous thanksgiving friends to see if we can get together. This is a milestone birthday and the last thing I want is to be all alone and down in the dumps. Otherwise, I’ve got no other plans just to be lazy. It also happens to be just before the mandatory return to the office, so if I still feel the same about returning, I will need to reach out to my doctor a bit early to get a note so I don’t have to worry about returning.

Speaking of returning, I see that the numbers for COVID are unfortunately continuing to increase and that mask mandates are going back into place regardless if you have been vaccinated or not. The location in which I work has a mandate that was recently implemented and that of course means that everyone will be wearing a mask. I understand and agree with masking but it does become quite the hassle.

All work in this post and no play. I am very happy the day is done but tomorrow will be calling and I for sure need to get my catchup task done, Gator screaming or not. It’s quicker and easier to do it with 2 screens rather than a small single screen, however she’s a cat and could care less.

Speaking of screens, I am doing the Warby Parker thing again. I’ve picked out 5 pairs of frames and they are sending them to me. I will choose one and upload a prescription to get new computer glasses. They make it super affordable and I suspect that my vision insurance will reimburse me something towards the cost of my purchase but even if they don’t, I won’t be out much.

Had some Chicken Enchiladas for supper for a frozen TV dinner they were very good. I was wishing that I picked up two packages of them. Finished up my Snickers Ice Cream as desert and watched more Suits.

Here’s hoping that you had a great day and you didn’t have to spend all day working like I did. Now it’s time for me to publish this and grab a razor because it’s time for a shave. Spending too much time in the bathroom irritates the Gator but there are tasks that are necessary. I’d love to let my beard grow but I never can get past the itchy part and now that there is white in it I really don’t want it on my face any longer than necessary, never mind that I am not leaving the house.

Take care and I will talk with you peeps again soon. 

No Pizza or Eye Candy

My afternoon was running late after yesterday’s post. I realized that I still had to login and gather data for my report at work. I started that process and then I got a phone call that put my heart in my throat. My brother called. It was a knee jerk reaction as to the feelings I experienced. We haven’t spoken in roughly about 2 years. Sadly, it was a pocket dial call. I kept saying hello and got no answer. I played along for a half hour and had planned to just keep on listening until my battery ran out or he hung up. After 30 minutes I felt enough was enough and I just hung up. While it doesn’t surprise me that I am in his contacts I am kind of surprised of all the people in the world he dialed my phone. What I gathered from the call is that his wife was sick, as in feeling unwell. Sounds like they laid down to take a nap together. I thought about calling back but opted not to. Don’t get me wrong I wouldn’t mind a relationship with my brother that was not persona non grata but I also know that my family in general has a bad habit of shitting on me and I’ve frankly have had enough of that. Hell, he doesn’t even know that I am aware he got married.

Funny thing is so much has happened in my life in two years, despite the fact that it’s a boring life there are events (ups and downs) here and there. He’s got no idea that I lost 2 more cats, that I have/had a mold issue, my getting side swiped car accident or the fact that I have worked from home for the last year. I am sure there are many things in his life as well that I am not aware of all because we aren’t talking.

Needless to say, I didn’t feel like getting pizza after the call and just opted to stay home and eat hot dogs which is something I haven’t had in a while. I watched a Tech podcast and then jumped back into Suits. Got a nice hot shower and was able to drift off to dreamland until I was awoken by a hungry cat.

More often than not when there is a disagreement be it with a friend or family member enough time passes that neither one of you remember why you stopped talking in the first place. This is not the case with me and my brother. He had broken up with the bimbo who was at the time just his psyco girlfriend. He was a wreck and there were physical symptoms to indicate that he had issues. Oddly this brought us close to where we would talk on a very frequent basis and it was quite nice. However, he mostly wanted relationship advice from me despite the fact that his relationship was done. He eventually got to the point where he was suffering from situational depression and went to the hospital for some help. He was looking for a magic cure or at the very least some medication to help him cope and deal with what was unfolding in his life. Rather than call me as an emergency contact, he opted to call the bimbo and she was by his side. I had a very bad day and opted to reach out to him which is when he broke the news to me that he was leaving the ER and was in there for his depression and she was with him. It was at that point that I just flew off the handle and started screaming at him that we were done. I couldn’t believe it after all of the crap she pulled and how she took his money and left him so emotionally drained and psychologically damaged that he would even want to go back to her. However, it’s often that the victim of abuse goes back to their abuser. He said that the past was in the past and they were going to start over. That was a big ask. She had conditions for getting back together 1 was her name on the house, which still hasn’t happened and the other was a ring on her finger. Like a dumb shit after a couple weeks of being back in love his dumb ass went out and bought a ring and proposed to her. She essentially tricked him in to marriage but from the photos I see on social media he does truly look happy. I get that he wanted someone to spend his life with and I don’t hold that against him but I am not fond of the fact that he chose her of all people to do that with. She is a leach that is clearly just using him for his money. He helped her dig herself out of debt and just fed her nothing but a steady diet of money and then threw him away. Now that they are married, she has another new vehicle that I am fairly confident he helped her buy and lord knows what else he has been bamboozled into getting her. Plus, her entire family lives with them in a house he purchased. She has 2 adult kids who should be out on their own but he’s coddling them and not collecting a dime in rent or food. He doesn’t make nearly what I make but he is the clear steady breadwinner in the family and everyone exploits that.

While he is blinded by love and is under her spell there isn’t anything I can do about it. No matter what I say it wouldn’t matter and honestly there really is no place for input from me. He made his decision and I made mine. It’s not that I don’t want to ever speak to him again but I don’t want to get caught up in his relationship and I am never giving him relationship advice again. I saw right through all of this and each time I made a prediction or call something out, he always responded with you know what, your right. However, despite being right he took none of my advice and wasted a bunch of my time. I have made sure that he knows I will still speak with him about anything else and that we can talk but since he has her, she is his life and he could care less about me, the fact that I am alone and could really use a brother. I sent him a birthday text last year and never heard a word from him. When our mom was alive, he was forced to send me a birthday card but now that she has passed there are no cards, no letters, no text messages and no emails. It’s total silence and it’s to the point where it’s deafening. I think we both have hurt the other it’s just that he has someone in his life to occupy his time so therefore he doesn’t dwell on this like I do. I lament about it and then just move on because constantly thinking about it does no good and he has proven to me that he isn’t receptive to me reaching out.

From birth we have both been different. He was a spender and I was a saver. He liked heavy metal and I did not. He wouldn’t clean his plate but I would clean mine. Anytime we were out at a bank or someplace there was a give away (like a sucker or a piece of candy) I would always immediately ask for one for my brother, he had to be prodded. There are many other examples of our differences but I was always the older protective brother and he was always the younger ungrateful brother that would set me up to take the fall, make fun of me and always leave me wondering what I did wrong for him to hate me so much.

Who would have thought a pocket dial could conger up so many feelings. I am sure that if he ever looks at his call log and sees a ½ hour recent call he will think that I somehow hacked into his phone to cause it to happen. Look I’ve got some skills but hacking into a cell phone isn’t one of them. I am not quite as smart as he wants to believe that I am. I am by far much more successful than he has or ever will be and I earn way more money than he will ever see in a year, unless of course he wins the lottery.

At the end of the day, he may be a bad brother, but were still related. I can talk bad about him but it still rubs me the wrong way when others do it, depending on who it is and what they are saying about him. He probably isn’t my #1 fan either. I do wonder if at some point he will reach out and we can resume some kind of normal brotherly relationship. I do hope that happens before one of us passes away. If not, whomever is the surviving one will carry a mountain of guilt and odds are with my luck that person will be me. I am very jealous of anyone who has a brother and gets along with them. It’s something I wish I had from day one.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason but I am not quite sure why the pocket dial happened. Back to my Monday. This certainly isn’t what I planned on posting today, so maybe the reason why the pocket dial happened was to surprise me and for me to surprise with you with the details.

Hope all is well in your world.  I will probably go for Pizza and hope for eye candy this weekend.

Did you miss me?

I wish that I was on a 2-week vacation. I just haven’t felt much like blogging and while some of you enjoy my hum drum (boring) life and the play by play I think it turns others off. In any case I’m about to catch you up, so hold on to your hat because it’s going to be a boring ride.

I had a doctors appointment scheduled on the 15^th but I had a bad feeling about it and sure enough late in the day on the 14^th I got a call that the appointment was cancelled. I was not happy because I had taken time off for this but figured might as well treat myself. I did what I enjoy the most and that is doing nothing – watching TV and napping here and there. Something about that is just so relaxing and refreshing knowing that I don’t have to be a slave to my phone and the fact that since I don’t really know anyone no one is going to call and for sure no one is going to show up at my door, other than a delivery person.

Considering the napping, I wound up getting doped up by taking some different sleeping medication and the after affects felt like they would never leave me. All I wanted to do was sleep. I got in the silly report for work but I had delusional dreams and woke up and forgot what day of the week it was. I finally made it to the new breakfast place. Like a dummy I ordered an omelet covered in homemade spicy chili. It was good but a little too much spice for me. They had no waiting when I checked on line but by the time, I got there I was like the 5^th or 6^th person in the door and there was a waiting line for tables. I wound up sitting at the bar, which isn’t something I enjoy. I was still hung over from the sleeping pills that I took the night before. I came home afterwards and took something for heartburn because I figured that chili was going to talk back and I didn’t want to give it a chance.

Saturday, I drove to eat in the dining room of a Steak N Shake. The one in my town is still drive up only and I have no idea if or when they will ever re-open the dining room. I wanted an authentic experience but what I got was close. I walked in the door and had to place my order at the counter, pay and then everything was brought out. I had to fetch my own soda, napkins, crackers, etc. There wasn’t an option to leave a tip when paying and I only carry a couple dollars in cash for extreme emergencies. Towards the end of this meal, I felt the chili from the day before rumbling around in my stomach and knew that it was time to get on the road. The good news is that I made it home. The bad news is I had a huge problem on my hands, need I say more?

Sunday, I didn’t have motivation to do anything but knew that I had to get food for both me and my 4-legged friend. Late in the afternoon I drug myself out of the house and made a trip to the grocery store. I opted to buy cat food there, it costs more and there is less of a selection but I was only in the mood to make one stop. As I drove home, I kept thinking about Red Lobster. Damn if I didn’t wind up making a trip there. It was an okay experience, nothing to brag about and I didn’t get my usual pina-colada.

I rescheduled my doctor’s appointment for this Thursday so I only had to work 3 days and that was nice, they flew by fast. I didn’t have an enjoyable time at the doctor’s office because I got stabbed twice in each arm by three different people who couldn’t draw blood for shit. I thought something was wrong when they only filled 2 tubes. The first person had 4 tubes lined up and as I got pawned off on other people the tubes decreased. Like a dummy I didn’t say anything. Wouldn’t you know it the next day I got the results and they only did the extra blood work and not the routine stuff. So, I have no idea how my cholesterol or A1C is. While I wasn’t looking forward to the numbers because I figured they would be bad I would have rather known than not known. I don’t plan on going back to get stabbed again, if he wants the rest of the blood work done, I am sure he will call but for now I am not worried about it. The extra stuff was to check my Thyroid and my Vitamin B level. I have had some memory issues that have been quite concerning to me. In at least one of the episodes, I knew that I knew the answer to what I wanted but couldn’t think of the words to articulate it was like I was aware but forgot the actual words to utter. It didn’t make me happy. The results came back and things are in the normal range but low. If the memory issues persist then my sleeping medicine will be changed. I did mention the fact that Ms. Gator doesn’t really allow me much sleep. The doc thinks that she is getting me when I am in REM sleep and I never am afforded the ability to return to REM and thus the issues.

As for a return to work I told the doc the plan and he said to watch the numbers over the next month. The Delta variant may well change the plans. He thinks my employer is making plans well too far in advance. I will do as he says but right now, I just don’t feel comfortable in returning to a mixed environment where some people will be wearing masks and others won’t, not everyone had had their shots and I think it’s a recipe for disaster. The doc said that if I would get COVID that it would be a milder case and I for sure wouldn’t die but I would be quite miserable for a week or two. I am also slightly afraid to leave Gator behind. While I think she would adjust because it would be trial by fire, I think that it might be the one change that sends her over the edge. Look I know that she is close to the end but I see no reason to speed it up and am trying to enjoy as much time with her as possible. To the point where she is grating on my last nerve. I do think that I will probably ask him for a letter to be exempted from returning in person but will also pay attention to the numbers, which sadly are on the rise and mostly affect the unvaccinated folks.

Gator has had some appetite issues where no matter what I feed her she wants more and will only eat a small portion of what I gave her. To fix this I have switched back to larger cans which contain more food but also more gravy. When she gets in those moods, I put out a big can and she wolfs it down. Like I was telling the doc, I probably should take her back to the vet for a check up but figure that I won’t get the best news and unless there is obviously something seriously wrong, I would rather stay away, because bad news has a way of finding me especially when it comes to the animals.

Speaking of animals. The raccoon family is still around. I saw one of the kids last week playing. I also saw the damn ground hog in the front yard. I haven’t seen him in months and really figured the raccoons took care of him. Ah well.

I watched a video about the CHP (California Highway Patrol) and how their vehicles are outfitted. They have so much equipment in them that they take the seats and most of the interior out to be able to run wires. It’s quite interesting and was about a 10- or 15-minute YouTube video. That of course made me look for jobs with their agency but also the LAPD (Los Angeles Police Department) and the City of Los Angeles. I saw a couple things of interest but also saw there was a mountain of paperwork to complete and if awarded the job, regardless of experience you would start at the minimum pay. I know that the cost of living on either the East or West coast is expensive compared to costs here.

Back in the day I saw a YouTuber move cross country and it made his life better being in California. That’s where I get the idea that it would some how magically make my life better. Not to mention there are more people out there than are in the area I am at now, there are also more choices with retail and restaurants. However, until I actually visit, I won’t have any idea and if I should make the leap and not like it I would for sure be stuck because it would cost way too much to move back. I’ve just got this bug for moving sort of like I have new car fever. I am keeping both at bay but I can tell you that for sure eventually I will get a different vehicle. As for moving I don’t know if that will ever happen. I do think that once this pandemic is really behind us and I feel more comfortable that I need to ramp up my game on dating and get much more aggressive. Especially because I am getting older and say what you want, I think age plays a huge part in things. I think that I am limited in who will be interested in me. I like guys that are much younger than me but I know that the chances of finding someone young and getting along with them is kind of limited. The younger crowd does get on my nerves and hell were in different generations so what appeals to me doesn’t necessarily appeal to them and vice versa. But some of those younger guys look damn fine!

On the TV front I am re-watching Suits on Amazon. It’s a legal drama that was on the USA Network. I can sit in front of the TV for hours upon hours and it doesn’t really bother me terribly. That keeps Gator happy for the most part because she merely requires me to be in the same room with her and only wants attention occasionally. Mostly her demands and requirements are around the demand for food be it a meal or a snack. We have quite the routine worked out or should I say she has developed quite the routine.

I made it to Sam’s club yesterday (Friday) for the first time since the pandemic started. I had problems finding a couple items. I did find a few things to purchase, one of which was printer ink. That is a huge expense but something that I keep on hand because you usually run out when you need it most. I recently shaved my head. I had an idea for a haircut but it didn’t look quite right and I gave up. There was a little kid who said hello to me and then told me that I have a shiny bald head. It was cute but my hair is growing back and in two to three weeks you will never know the difference.

Next week it’s back to a normal 5-day work week and not something that I am looking forward to.

Today I managed to wake up early, so early that it was time to feed Gator and there was a very loud thunderstorm going on. It was difficult to get back to sleep but as soon as I did, Ms. Meow woke me up. I finally had enough and picked her up and put her out of the bedroom. She hates that but it’s the only for sure way that I will get any sleep. Then the Thunderstorm started back up again. I finally rolled out of bed a little after 8a. I checked that waiting line at Cracker Barrel and there was no wait. I hurried up and got dressed and passed out what was Gator’s 2^nd breakfast.

Driving I like to listen to music and my infotainment system didn’t auto play music from my phone. I tried to get that going with my voice but it didn’t work. I finally had to pull over and start things up manually. I pulled into a local spa’s parking lot and as I was fishing around in my pocket for the phone, I read their sign. They have some chiropractors working there, sounds like a massage and an adjustment would be really a nice treat. Anyway, I thought it was rather odd that one of the doctors has my exact name if I would have changed my name with my marriage. When I say same name, I mean first middle initial and last name. What a coincidence. I’ve passed by this place a million times and never noticed that.

By the time I arrived at Cracker Barrel there was a waiting line and I knew that because there was close to no where to park. I popped open my phone and joined the waiting list and then went in and checked in. I had just a short wait. Blueberry Pancakes, 4 scrambled eggs and sausage patties. Washed it all down with 2 Diet Cokes. Then instead of going to the grocery store as a treat I came back home, got undressed and resumed watching Suits. I knew that I would pass out eventually and that happened but only for a short time. Her majesty insisted that I get up and as I protested, she only got more insistent. I knew it was for my own good so I got up and passed out her lunch. Then got dressed and made it through the grocery store.

I really am craving eye candy and what better place to get that then with a pizza. The only problem is that I don’t know if the only male waiter is working at the pizza place today but I think I am going to find out. I got a bit of a time crunch and don’t know that I can accomplish everything I want too today. I am tired of putting things off until tomorrow because it seems that nothing really gets done that way.

My inbox at work is over flowing mostly with spam but I know there are a few important things in there and as I turned my calendar back on my phone, I see that my boss called a bullshit meeting for tomorrow afternoon. Seeing that made me want to turn in my notice, but I will breathe through it and hopefully will be able to hold my tongue for what will turn out to be another day. The only problem with that is when I eventually blow up there might not be any coming back from it. He is grating on my last nerve and has been for quite some time. He is helicoptering and micro-managing things which I hate. He says all the time that he trusts me and knows what I am capable of but his actions contradict his wording. He isn’t picking on me and is doing this to everyone, I just don’t know that everyone is as upset by it as I am. I don’t have plans to inquire further with my colleagues. I think that perhaps he is under the microscope or something with his relationship with his boss has changed because his behavior is much, much different and that has been going on for a while. I do have plans to address it but only when I am able to talk civilly without flying off the handle.

My apologies if you missed me, I am still very much alive and kicking. Just not much going on in my hum drum life. Hope that you have been doing well and that life is treating you more than fair these days. Summer is on its way out but we still have a couple months left. I hear the cicadas at night and last night I even heard a couple of frogs which is something new. The only good thing about winter is that everything outside in the way of insects and bugs is dead along with the grass, so I get to save some money.

Take care and we will talk again soon.

1001:1 The Cory Wiessman Story – Motivational Post

I just finished watching 1001:1 The Cory Wiessman Story on Amazon Prime. It’s a true-life story of Cory Wiessman who was a great basketball player who is in the prime of his life, a freshman in college who had a stroke. It was not a fatal event and he is still alive to this day.

The acting was spot on in the movie. I have seen strokes both in people and animals and they are not pretty. It’s important to know the warning signs of a stroke and to get medical help as quickly as possible, that increases your odds of survival. There are two types of major strokes – wet & dry. Wet meaning active bleeding and Dry being a clot that formed. There is also a TIA which is a mini stroke and could possibly mean that a full major stroke will follow. It’s important to get immediate medical help regardless if you are having a major or mini stroke.

This movie brought back memories and it made me cry, laugh and do both at the same time. My late husband suffered a Wallenberg stroke after having foot surgery. His surgeon gave him too much clotting medicine. He was at home recovering because most procedures done in hospitals are on an outpatient basis. A Wallenberg stroke goes after the center of balance in the brain. He was told that he would never walk again and to that he said bullshit. He told the doctors and nurses that he would walk out of the hospital and indeed he did.

My understanding is that with all strokes there is re-learning involved, meaning that you have to learn to do things that you already knew how to do but because of the interruption in your brain it forgets. My late spouse had to learn to get his center of balance back and to walk. There were some speech issues but he overcame them pretty quickly. This unfortunate situation was an eye-opening example to me that proved you really can do anything you put your mind to do. With most medical situations be it a stroke, cancer, broken bones or something else your attitude plays a large part in your recovery. This wasn’t the only medical situation he recovered from, he also beat colo-rectal cancer and believe me when I tell you the odds were truly stacked against him. The doctors hoped to buy him a year or two at most but they wound up saving his life. His body was altered and our lives were forever changed by both the stroke and the cancer but we survived. Kind of scary to think about but it’s true.

Looking back at both of these situations now, I wonder if these were examples that happened to show me the way in that I can move a mountain and overcome adversity. Hell, I have done just that. However, I am constantly thinking about what lies ahead and if I will ever meet a guy. This movie helped give me a refresher. The easy thing to do in any frustrating situation is give up and it’s so tempting. However, you build character and learn things about yourself if you keep on pushing.

Life is the card dealer and just like in a card game it’s how you play your hand that determines if you will win or lose. A gambler and card playing guy I am not. I’m not sure who needs to hear this but don’t give up with what you are dealing with. Give it time, think, talk to others, pray, meditate, journal or blog, point is do something to release the pressure & tension. Most of all give yourself permission to take time for you. Go do something that you enjoy, you can’t think about something 24/7 365 so intensely, if you do you will burn out or make a bad or wrong decision. Rest is something that we all need and it’s something that we need to afford ourselves just as we all need time off or time away. Just because you take a break, doesn’t mean your giving up. I’ve learned a lot of lessons in life the hard way but those are the lessons that you tend to remember the most.

I’m not 100% sure how I come across to everyone and maybe that’s not something I need to know. I experience doubt but at the end of the day I have proven to myself and others how strong I am and that is something I will forever be proud of. You’ve probably heard this more than once in your life but if I can make it through the hell of not only being a caretaker to my late spouse but to also surviving his loss, I can tell you that you too can make it through your situation whatever it might be. It helps to have friends of which I feel like I don’t have any but at the end of the day all you really need is yourself. It’s easy for me to type words that are essentially saying pull yourself up by your boot straps and keep on moving. It’s another thing to put that into action. Even I have problems with it from time to time. However, if you would have told me what my future would entail at say age 30 (when life was a bed of roses), I would have told you there is no way I will make it. In a few months I will be 50 and it’s tough to fathom that I am at the middle point in my life for all intense and purposes but I made it.

The movie talks in a couple places about how everything happens for a reason and nothing happens by chance.  I subscribe to that theory. You might now always know the reason why, there are many things that I have questions about that I will probably never get answers to. I can tell you what I didn’t know at the time of my spouse’s death is that he was taken from me because he was done teaching me what I needed to know on how to survive in this world. It was time to stand on my own two feet with no safety net and either sink or swim. I needed to start living my life instead of living in someone’s shadow. It’s scary because the world is cold & cruel. I’ve made it and so can you.

The biggest struggle for me that contributes to my depression is the fact that I am all alone. I know that if I can build a network of true friends and find that special guy that is out there for me then everything else will fall into place and I might just be lucky enough to once again find true happiness. It’s something that once you find it, you often take it for granted but when you lose it, you wish that it never left and that you appreciated it much more.

At the end of the day, we all want to be loved and accepted. It would be nice to be wealthy, live in a mansion and have a staff of people to attend to every aspect of your life but for 99% of us that isn’t going to happen. We all have a much greater chance of getting love and acceptance, once we have it, we should all truly be grateful and feel fulfilled. It’s important to grant the same to others.

If it’s your sexuality that you’re struggling with, things will fall into place for you once you learn to accept who you are and to love yourself. I’m not saying it’s going to be easy but I can tell you that with time people mature and aren’t nearly as cruel as they can be when they are younger.

I hope these words help someone and perhaps give you inspiration to keep on fighting. If you are looking for a movie to watch for sure put the Cory Weissman story on play, you might cry you might not but you can’t help but walk away from the movie being inspired.

My disclaimer … I am not a medical doctor or medical professional.  I am also not an expert with life but am happy to provide advice to anyone who asks.  I don’t claim to have all the answers, despite the fact that it appears to me that I am really good at solving other peoples problems.  I think we all have that thought from time to time.  It is important to seek opinions of others when making some decisions or choices in life.  The opinion of others can help one arrive at a decision. Life is a game of risks and choices. We all take a risk getting out of bed and we only get out of bed because we made a choice to. In order to live you must have a reason to get out of bed, if you don’t that is when you will cease to exist. As an example look at the person who is a workaholic, if/when they retire in a short time they pass away.  It’s because they no longer have a reason to get out of bed. 

While we all may not have the riches of money, the popularity of being famous or have valuable possessions.  We all have been given the gift of life, use that gift to it’s fullest, treasure those friends & family that you love so much and don’t put anything off.  Live your best life because we only go around once that I know of, might as well make it the best you possibly can.  You can only control you and your destiny.  You are the very best version of you that there is and no one else can be you. 

    

Tomorrow

If your here today, be sure to come back tomorrow.  Last night (Saturday) I saw a great movie and made a post about it.  If your going through something or thinking about giving up, tomorrow’s post is for you. 

As for today it took me forever to get moving.  I got woke up by the cat multiple times last night.  I didn’t want to get out of bed at an early hour.  I kept telling myself that I was going out for breakfast, which is usually motivation to get moving.  However, I am finding myself growing lazier when I have nothing to do.  I was quite comfortable in my room with the cat by my side either in bed or in a chair.  Awake or asleep.  I finally got breakfast out of the freezer at 11a and then came back to my room to get dressed, only to put that off and wind up laying around until 2p.  At which time I started moving. 

Made it to the grocery store.  I thought about stopping for cat food but opted to just pay the higher price and get cat food at the grocery store.  Came home and put everything away.  Then I went out for that breakfast I said I was going to get.  It wasn’t the best meal of the day but it wasn’t the worst either.  Came home and put off coming down to the office to work on my silly report for work.  Got all of that done.  Worked on my post for tomorrow and made this one. 

Sadly there is only a couple more hours left in the day and then it will once again be time to go to bed and Monday will be calling.  I am so not a fan of working for a living but I am addicted to the money, if that was something I could do without then I am positive I could find better things to occupy my time.  However, since I can’t do without it I shall drag myself to get online, it can always be worse in that I could be required to go in and since I am not, for that I am thankful.  Sounds like a line from Tosh.O. 

Hope you had a good day.  I’m headed up to grab a snack, feed the cat and find something entertaining to watch on what has been referred to as the idiot box aka the TV.  Talk with you all again soon!

Trash

Happy Saturday!  I hope that you are doing well and enjoying the day. 

Feeling a bit MEH today.  It’s been nothing but thunderstorm after thunderstorm.  Combine that with Gator & the Weather Radio and it’s no wonder I am sleepy.  However, I did some how manage to sleep through a phone call that came in the middle of the night.  It was a community call about severe weather and I’m glad that I missed it. 

I was supposed to have mail today but when I went to the box nothing in there.  I am missing a prescription that hopefully will surface.  Today should have also been trash pickup day because of the holiday but they fooled me and picked up yesterday as normal.  I didn’t realize that until I saw a truck in the area in the afternoon and by then it was too late to put my trash out because they were on the other side of the street and I wasn’t prepared to react.  I figured just put the trash out like normal and yeah the can is still full today.  I was the only one in the neighborhood that put their trash out a day late.  I didn’t see but 1 of my neighbors put their trash out at all, so I suppose next Friday will be a busy day.  I know my garage is going to smell bad.  This is the first time in the 20 plus years of living here that I missed trash pick up.  I could probably call on Monday and complain but why bother, just wait it out and the problem will resolve on it’s own. 

As you can tell I did manage to get out today but I just drove a long circle around my house and then came home because rain was in the forecast.  I wanted to get something to eat but I honestly don’t like to be out in the rain unless it’s necessary.  I even put off Gator’s food shopping until tomorrow.  We will both manage just fine.  I am going to have some Mac & Cheese and there is plenty of unopened cans of food for her majesty. 

We (Gator & I) watched some cartoons via YouTube this morning.  I was surprised to see The Pink Panther and caught a couple episodes of that.  I really like that because there is no talking it’s all visual.  That Pink Cat always did appeal to me even as a child. 

Not much else going on, doing some laundry that I have put off.  Slowly emptying my list of stuff that I have marked to watch on Amazon Prime.  Staying entertained is becoming difficult but somehow I always manage to find something to watch and if all else fails there is always music. 

It’s getting close to 5p here and the lady has been screaming for me to come back upstairs.  I’m going to run my silly report for work and do that.  Might as well spend time with her it seems to make us both happy even though she grates on my last nerve at times. 

Take care and I will talk with you all again soon. 

To patch or not?

Not sure if it’s made your local news but I woke up to an alert from Microsoft to patch my system from my local news. I looked into it and apparently Microsoft has issued a patch for the Print Nightmare exploit but within hours hackers have figured out how to work around the patch. What should you do? Patch your system for sure. Make sure that your security software is up to date.

Where there is technology there will always be exploits, viruses, malware, etc. in today’s world you have to be constantly looking over your shoulder when it comes to technology. I know that it’s complex for a lot of people but making sure that your system is patched/updated and the same is true for your security software is a good first start. What is safe today may not be tomorrow, when you stop and think about it, that is kind of sad but it’s the world we live in today. Data Loss & Ransom are things that exist. When I was growing up and heard the term Ransom it referred to a person being held hostage from a kidnapping. Today there is another meaning to Ransom and what it affects. Which makes me think of the saying, the more things change the more they stay the same.

It was a little bit of a busy day but I had several lulls and I caught a couple naps. Gator has thrown a couple of tantrums but right now she is all passed out cold and I am happy. I like it when she is quiet. She woke me up a couple times last night and I did have to kick her out of the bedroom.

Looking forward to BBQ Chicken tonight. That is about as exciting as it gets here. I know pretty boring. We’ve got rain in the forecast for the rest of the week. I also have piled up some work at work so tomorrow will be a little busy. Not much on TV right now considering its summer but that’s why there are streaming services. I keep managing to find something that draws me in. Last night I watched a movie on Amazon, called This Means War. It’s about 2 CIA agents who fall in love with the same woman. It was humorous and entertaining, also free with a Prime sub.

How are things going in your neck of the woods? The work day is about done and I’m ready to flip on the TV and see what I can manage to find. I also will be taking a shower tonight an that of course will upset Gator. Hope you had a good day. Talk with you all again soon!

Tuesday feels like Monday

Well, it was back to work today and the start of the voluntary return to the office. I can already tell you that I see many people came in. I however am comfortably sitting in my home and have been all day. My co-workers leave ended and he returned so we have a full team, which is good. Out of the blue I found out that over the holiday we lost another co-worker. She really loved her job and it sounds like it was unexpected but details are never provided. I didn’t know her but it’s still sad. My organization is primarily made up of younger folks (20’s to 40’s) and we do have older folks (50-70) as well. It just seems that younger folks seem to be taken from us all too soon and us old people tend to hang around forever.

Not a whole lot to talk about it was a busy day but also a boring one. I was ready to start watching TV early. The gator has been restless today but did permit me to take in quite the evening of sleep and I woke pretty well rested. She got me up in the middle of the night and I didn’t know what the noise was, I was in the middle of a dream. Then she woke me about 20 minutes prior to the time to get out of bed. I got her to jump in bed with me and gave her some attention for a few minutes, then rolled out of bed and got us some breakfast. For some strange reason I was super hungry and just about polished off an entire box of cereal. Kind of felt a little like my sugar was going to drop but the feeling passed.

I had some of my peanut butter pretzels for lunch. They are okay, if the pretzels weren’t topped with salt it would be better. I never have been a salt fan. I get enough of it with frozen dinners and prepared food, if I could eliminate it all together it wouldn’t bother me.

Saw a new model with a solo scene show up on one of my favorite porn websites. I am eager to take in the scene and hope they put him in a dual scene with another guy and soon. That’s the problem though you never know if your going to see the model again. I suppose lots of people try it and then decide after the fact that it wasn’t for them. It does take some guts to be in front of the camera and naked. I suppose I should just be happy that there is a solo scene to watch.

Had left over pizza for supper. I’ve only got 2 pieces left and that will make up one more meal. Looking forward to the BBQ Chicken that I will be having, hopefully tomorrow night.

I do hope that you have had a good day and managed to stay cool in this hot weather. I’m going to enjoy what few hours of freedom from work I have before bed and then get up and do it all over again tomorrow. Last day for boss man for 1 week not 2 like I had thought. Hey at least we get a break and for that I am thankful. Take care and we will talk again soon.

Slowing Down

I haven’t been in a hurry to do much of anything other than sleep and doing nothing.  3 day weekends feel so long but in reality they are so short.  Why is that? 

Saturday I spent the entire day indoors, did nothing but watch TV and sleep.  It was really nice.  I took a vacation from my phone as well.  I powered it off and on a couple times but I didn’t spend terribly much time in front of the screen. 

Sunday it took forever to get out of bed but I made it.  Had breakfast out, grabbed the mail, got gas for the car & a wash.  Then hit up the cat food store and came home.  I figured I would go back out to finish up grocery shopping later in the day.  I had taken some knock out pills on Saturday night and they took a while before they worked.  After all of that running all I wanted to do was come home and sleep.  Sleep I did.  Then I woke up and decided to make a pizza run.  I wanted a BBQ Burger and still do but hey the trip was nice.

The only male waiter the pizza place has finally immerged from the back.  He hadn’t been there the last time and I was wondering if he still worked there.  He’s got to be in his 20’s or very early 30’s.  He’s lost a little weight, not that it was needed and damn he’s is just fine.  I want to ask him out but I don’t know if he’s gay and he is a tad bit on the young side but then again I kind of like that.  He either hasn’t noticed me staring at him or he doesn’t care, I’m not sure which one it is. 

Came back home after the pizza road trip and didn’t bother to leave.  Kicked off my clothes and sat in the ultra cool AC with my Gator and the TV.  Relaxed.  Did a little bit of house work before bed and then just drifted away watching TV.

Monday morning no one wants to get out of bed and today wasn’t much different.  I could have easily made it into the new breakfast place but just opted to sleep in and have a couple slices of cold pizza for breakfast.  Got a shave and shower.  Made it out of the house by noon and hit up the grocery store.  No peaches this week and I wasn’t terribly happy about that.  Saw boat loads of huge strawberries though.  Passed them up.  I grabbed some smoked pulled chicken which has nothing on it.  A few other items for the week and remembered to hit up the chip isle for those Peanut Butter Pretzels, got a small bag and going to give them a whirl. 

Came home and unloaded the groceries.  Sat in the AC with the Gator and watched a movie.  I dozed off a few times because it was boring.  Then woke up around 3:30p and decided I should grab supper.  Hit up a BBQ place that I like.  They didn’t serve up the best meal today and I still want the BBQ Burger.  Anyway I got a side of potato salad to pair up with the Chicken I got from the store so that will be a meal one night this week.  Then came back home. 

I had some work to take care of.  Sat on the couch and worked on that with Gator napping away.  I had a few other things to do and came down stairs.  It’s so hot outside and it’s like a freezer in my basement.  The rest of my house not so much.  The basement is always the coldest place year round.  Let me tell you it feels great.

We have had our share of fireworks, last night it was pretty large.  I never did hear from my friends and kind of figured that I wouldn’t.  Their house is torn apart and I wouldn’t think they would be up to have people over, unless they were doing it outside and well they already know I hate the outdoors so they probably did something but just didn’t invite me, which is fine. 

Tomorrow is the day my co-worker returns and I’ve been anxious for this day for a very long time.  Glad it’s finally here.  It will be a little awkward to change up my morning routine a bit but I will get used to it.  2 days of boss man and then were all on vacation for a couple weeks.  That will be damn nice!  I’ve enjoyed not hearing his voice for 3 full days, shame I will have to listen to it for 2 days but that is nothing in the grand scheme of things. 

I know he’s got plans to ship my co-worker off to some intensive training later this month, another co-worker will be taking time off next month.  I have to figure out how and when I can squeeze in a weeks worth of time for me.  When ever that period comes around for those 5 days I will be pushing myself away from my phone and won’t be checking in on work.  However, it may be a bit before I get there.  I’ve got 2 days next week off so I can go see the doc.  Not exactly looking forward to that but it’s a trip I have to make. 

Gator is doing okay.  She has been eating a little bit more than normal but I am okay with that.  Now I need to get her to be able to let me sleep all night long and we will get along even better than we already do. 

Hope that you had a great holiday and were able to take some time to relax, refresh and recharge.  Talk with you peeps again soon!

Cry of the Gator–no sleep for dad

I had a decent evening, found a movie on Amazon but can’t remember the name of it. Went to bed and was anxiously woken up by the Gator at 3a. She was screaming up a storm. It felt like something was really wrong. I figured we would be making one of those dreaded emergency vet visits. However, turns out she was just super hungry and thirsty. Water is out in an abundance for her so she always has something to drink. However, she only eats wet food and since she doesn’t have thumbs, she depends on me to open those cans of food for her. I found something (not sure what it was) and gave it to her and tried to go back to bed. However, she wouldn’t permit that either. She climbed into bed for a moment and was on the floor the next crying over her water bowl. Then back in bed with me. I finally figured out that she wanted even more food. I took a flashlight this time (it was 4:30a) and picked out something that I knew she would normally chow down on. I stayed with her and it worked, she got her belly full. I figured that finally I could go back to sleep but nope she still wanted my attention. Eventually she settled down around 5:30a and permitted me to go back to sleep but only for 30 minutes at which time she thought she could worm more food out of me. I closed the door and tried to go back to sleep all I really did was toss and turn for an hour and then climb out of bed.

Breakfast the most important meal of the day and one that I enjoy the most. I had to pass out more food for the hungry cat. She went through her morning paces and I was never so happy to see her finally curl up in her bed while I sorted through my phone before my day began. She always is ready to pass out and this morning I was so ready to join her.

I took care of my morning report and came back upstairs. She was passed out but just sitting down on the couch and turning on my laptop was enough to wake her up. She came out crying (totally normal) and sat next to me. Eventually she fell asleep. I took care of some additional work stuff and then there was a huge lull for what looked to be an hour before my first meeting of the day. I took the opportunity to pass out on the couch maybe 45 minutes and then woke up in time to make the meeting which was less than five minutes.

The rest of my day has been wide open and I am okay with that. I took in some TV and have trimmed Gator’s talons which she hates. She got mad at me for doing that and stormed off to my room to whine about it and after a few minutes of being alone she waddled back out to be with me. All is forgiven and she is back to her normal crabby/sweet self. She has enjoyed a lot of attention from me today and I am still a tad concerned about her but hopefully this will all flush out and perhaps tonight will be the night that I am permitted to sleep.

It makes for a long day with little to no sleep and I certainly lack motivation. However, I push myself when I have to. Just a couple of tasks to take care of closer to normal quitting time and then I am done for the evening. Having a Mexican TV Dinner for supper and probably will cool off my mouth with ice cream. I did throw out the chocolate cake. The trash man was here at 6a to bang the barrels around as he emptied them.

This weekend we get to play America’s favorite game. It’s called Gunshots or Fireworks. When you hear a noise, you have to guess which one. I hope that you stay safe. Get some good food, enjoy some relaxation and do what you want. It will be nice to have the extra day off. I am looking forward to just being able to get in some sleep and eating breakfast out. Those will be treats in and of themselves. Fireworks don’t tend to upset Gator since she is older, it’s been several years where don’t cause her to run for the hills like she did when she was younger. The same was true for her siblings as they got older.

Happy weekend! Take care and I will talk with you all again soon.

More Money

My phone call came from the boss man about my pay raise. As I suspected there is no bonus but I did get a pay raise beyond what I was prepared for, so that was nice. It should go into effect with the next check and once I see it I will increase my retirement contribution.

I stepped out to the pharmacy to grab a refill on my sleeping pills and figured that nothing would come in while I was gone. I was wrong another person leaving and, on the holiday, nevertheless. It’s bad enough that I have to work 7 days a week for the silly report that I am doing, which by the way I found out no has looked at it in a very long time. There is an audit trail of access and I am the only one in the damn thing. Now you know if I stop putting it out that is when someone will have a need for the data and I will be in trouble. Ah well it all truly does pay the same and while I would rather not have to do any more work than absolutely necessary everyone knows they can count on me. That’s good and bad. I got a request last night just before I went to attempt to cut my hair and thought about it. I could have easily pushed it off to the morning but I chose to address it then. I am glad that I did because there was a bit of a fiasco this morning that tied me up for a bit longer than normal. Everything happens for a reason; you won’t always know the reason.

I did break out the clippers last night and gave myself a nice head job haircut. The only area I have problems is in the back. I look at it and touch it up and the more I mess with it the worse it gets so eventually I reach a point where I say to myself STOP and that is when I clean up the mess and jump in the shower. There wasn’t much hair on the ground, I mean I just cut it like 2 weeks ago. However, I noticed that one side started to show bed head and that bothers me so I had to chop it off. I like to be able to get up, get dressed and go out without anything noticing obviously that I didn’t shower that morning. I take a shower every other day and have since the start of the pandemic. I could shower each day but it seems like such a waste since I am stuck in the house and really only get out on weekends and holidays. If I am going to a friend’s house or any type of event, I always shower that day, regardless of when I last took a shower. I am a clean person but have just relaxed my standards a bit since I don’t get out on a daily basis.

There is one more task I have to do today and that is take out the trash. I am delaying because I am conflicted over Chocolate Cake. I bought this massive thing 2 weeks ago at the grocery store and it cost a small fortune but it’s got multiple types of chocolate in it and it’s good but really, really rich. I’ve chipped away at it and only have a small portion left. I am debating if I want to eat it or if I should throw it out. I know if I throw it out, I will suddenly have a craving for it and if I keep it chances are good it will sit in the fridge a little longer. Not like this is a real problem but it’s one of the dilemmas that paralyze me when I have to make a choice.

I really wish Steak N Shake would open up the inside of the restaurant. Every one of their restaurants in my immediate area is drive up only. If I wanted to drive up for a burger, I’d hit up a place like Wendy’s or McDonald’s. I think of Steak N Shake as a sit-down place even though it’s fast food, sometimes that food isn’t so fast. Plus, if they would open up it would give me a new place to hit up for breakfast. I kind of miss my old routine but I know my body doesn’t miss the grease. Nothing like a bowl of chili & a burger for breakfast sometimes I used to even get a shake. You can have desert with every meal if you want it’s just not a terribly common thing to do. I like to change things up once and a while.

Nothing else really on the agenda for the day, just sitting around passing time in case something should arise. Hopefully we are on the quiet because the weekend is about on us. Tomorrow should be dead but I do have a lot on my calendar.

The rain should be finished up here for a while. It’s all sunshine and warmer weather until mid-next week from the way it looks on my phone. Weather is subject to change so I take the forecast with a grain of salt. I hope that your dry and staying cool. That’s all I know at the moment, talk with you folks again soon.