I logged on to my credit card companies website and they offered me an increase in my credit line. That was unexpected and nice. Now I can get further into debt. No worries I will be very careful. Nice to know that if some calamity happens I will have a way to pay for it.
In surfing today I see where it’s time to advertise that my state has a bunch of unclaimed property. I always search but nothing ever hits. Well today is my lucky day I am owed 2 refunds from Symantec. Not exactly sure how much they are but I have the necessary paperwork to claim them. It will take like 12 weeks before they get around to sending me my money.
Being bored, I ran everyone’s name that I knew that lived in the same state. I found a couple friends some money they are owed as well. One of them was a friend of the family. He probably had no clue that I was gay but I wrote him an e-mail and told him that my partner died. I figure he can put 2 and 2 together. While some hetero’s refer to their mate as a partner it’s much more common in the gay community. I told him all about losing my job, my mom having a stroke and how life generally sucks for me right now. Then I told him about the money I found for him. Haven’t heard from him and not sure that I will. The gay might scare him away, but it’s okay by me. If you don’t want to talk to me because I am gay well then, it’s your loss.
I’ve seen the job I interviewed for last night posted on a couple more sites. It’s probably more of an automatic kind of thing. I’ve been going back and forth in my mind as to weather or not they will call me to extend an offer. Part of me says no because of what I don’t know. Part of me says yes, because they wouldn’t have to pay as much as if I already had the knowledge. It’s truly a guess on my part and I will just have to wait and see how it plays out. The suspense will kill me but I am really praying. It’s a unique opportunity and would be a great move, or so I think. Plus I would be working in my state so no more filing 2 state tax returns after this year. That would be a blessing in disguise. Because I get killed every year on taxes.
I found some writings from my partner and started to read them. It was like he was standing next to me. I started to tear up and felt like I wanted to cry. People here wouldn’t understand if I were to burst out into tears. So I just held it in and wiped away the tears. The writings I saw reminded me once again that he loved me and that he couldn’t make it without me and he truly appreciated me going the extra mile for him. Then he talked about not checking out anytime soon. That kind of got to me because well he’s been checked out for over a year. I wish he would come back. Since that can’t happen I only hope that when the time is right I find someone who is as loving and appreciative as he was.
If I were to put in a whole days work we have an hour a 15 minutes. I am not putting in a whole days work. I am leaving early. I’ve got 2 days worth of mail to pickup and sort through. Not to mention feeding the children and having some me time. Last night things were so rushed and I was so short on time. The kids got their meals and I managed to pacify them, even though a couple of them count on time with me. That didn’t and couldn’t happen. I was wiped out!
That’s all I know at the moment, besides the fact that I didn’t have a single number in the lottery and that passing the day by surfing the web all day long to give the appearance that you are working, makes for a very long day. Plus it’s not something that I want to come back to. I have maybe an hours worth of work to do and after that I am done, with totally nothing to do. So I just keep putting it off.
The best things about if I get this job is I will be surrounded by primarily men and there won’t be any food day’s or pot lucks. That will be such a welcome change for me. Were having a food day tomorrow even though most of the office took off because it’s Good Friday.
Talk with you peeps later.