31 July 2014

Thursday already

I can’t believe that time has flown by so fast.  Today I got my first paycheck, it was nice.  I also got paid from the 3 day place I was at last week.  So in total it was almost close to a regular paycheck from the last place I worked at in May.  Kind of nice.  I am looking forward to getting my first real check from my employer, that should be a lot more money!

I discovered an intranet site that provides discounts on lots of things from clothes, cell phones, computers, parking, etc.  There are some nice perks.  I get a better deal on my cell phone than they can provide so I will keep what I have, even if they are paying the bill.

Speaking of which, I got my phone enrolled in their Mobile Device Management software so that I can get e-mail on my phone.  They really lock things down and take away your ability to be the administrator of your phone.  Plus if you leave they will wipe your device, no questions and no exceptions.  That doesn’t make me happy but I understand it. 

I went out with the hot guy earlier this week and time got away from us.  I hit him up again to see if he wanted to go out last night or tonight.  He made plans for tonight but never followed up on them.  I pursued him and he told me that he wanted to work rather than play, that really was a major disappointment to me.  I mean it’s for the best because I really need to pack but it still hurt.  I really felt the rejection and I am sure he probably didn’t mean anything by it.  I wonder if he even still likes me after the few things I shared with him.  He doesn’t know that I am gay but I suspect that he may suspect it.  Call me overbearing but I just sent him a friend request on Facebook to see if he will accept it, that in it’s self will say a lot to me.

So the training program I am in is moving along.  I am learning the bulk of what I am supposed to learn but they aren’t following the schedule to a T.  That bothers me but I am highly organized and used to following a schedule.  I was able to talk with HR today.  The Openly Gay button I found out just gets you lots of surveys in your in box.  Glad I didn’t check that one.  I finished the benefits enrollment and turned in my parking paperwork.  So everything should be all set.  I got the better vision plan for $5 per paycheck and that is totally worth it because it covers frames, lenses, etc.  Plus you get 1 free exam per year.  Now all I have to do is wait until the 15th and then go change the contribution percentage that comes out of my check for the 401K.  I will reduce it from 6% which is automatic to more like 1 or 2% which will be much more affordable.  Once the match starts in a year I may be able to afford to bump that up.

I have heard from my cat sitter each and everyday.  Thus far everyone is doing well.  No diarrhea from Big Boy so my guess is that will happen tonight so I come home to it tomorrow.  I am not looking forward to the drive back, but I am looking forward to seeing everyone and sleeping in my own bed. 

I like the bed here but there is nothing like your own bed.  I really started to feel the stress of the trip hitting me this morning.  I have vowed to get to bed earlier and earlier each night but it just doesn’t happen.  Well tonight it should.  I will be watching a couple of my favorite shows (hopefully they air here) and should be packing and getting ready to go to bed and check out in the morning. 

My boss talked with me yesterday and apologized but she neglected to inform me that I also support one other office.  It’s about 2 hours away.  So easy 1 day trip up and back.  No worries and I am also glad that I made them come up with the extra money.  It seems like from what I see that only a couple people here really work and everyone else is quick to goof off, go on break and sit around and chat.  Plus I also found out that the 1 week of training at home has been reduced to 3 days.  I am not happy about that but I will have to fly sooner rather than later and hopefully by that point I will be confident enough to take the reins and run with it. 

Okay, so off to the races.  Talk with you peeps over the weekend at some point.  I will be driving back here on Sunday.  Be well and thanks again for your support and readership!

28 July 2014

The 1st Day

I woke up in plenty of time, however with getting ready, having breakfast, then my stomach and nerves kicking in and then fighting with GPS I made it but it was much later than I wanted to be.  I was still on time. 

I walked in got parking all taken care of.  The receptionist was briefing me as if I were in the military telling me who’s going to be in the room.  Then we walked in.  It’s 2 girls and 2 guys.  As you can well imagine the other guy is fucking cute! He has a wonderful smile and seems upbeat and his booty is yummy looking.  Oh I want some of that.  I see a ring on his finger so it’s probably not going to happen.  I figured we might hang out tonight but not the case. 

There was some paperwork and on my I-9 I filled in the document information well that pissed off the HR lady.  She said oh you have to redo this, you can’t fill in my part.  Bitch, I did you a fucking favor.  Ah well I did what she asked me to.  Training today was mostly on technology and how it works.  We learned how to write a letter on automatically generated stationary.  I have done this before.  Learned all about there DMS or Document Management System.  It’s mostly straight forward and not complicated like I was used to in the past.  Email signatures generate automatically based on your login.  You will never see your signature but they said trust us we assure you it’s there.  They have Cisco Video Phones which is pretty cool.  You have a camera on your phone so that way you can see who your talking to as long as it’s within the company.  They have it all going on and looks like they spared no expenses any place.

Tomorrow is more tech training and benefits.  They are so organized or at least give that impression.

Lunch was me, the hot guy and our managers.  We went to a local BBQ place it was awesome.  I had something called Cheesy Corn.  It’s corn in a cheese sauce, sounds like no big deal but it’s damn good.  We were all stuffed.  Talked a little bit about our lives and made small talk most of lunch.  I told them about the kids and they were all really taken back especially when I told them about Big Boy.  Lunch was an hour and a half.  Very generous!

The afternoon flew by, in fact I am surprised I am sitting in my hotel room.  I had Lobster Mac & Cheese for supper with Gooey Butter cake for desert.  It was all so rich and I am sort of paying the price now.  I need to get my shower and relax – tomorrow will be here before you know it.  I also am due at work earlier than today.  Right now I have no idea what my regular hours will be, but I am anxious to find out.

TV here sucks, I miss my Roku box and my On Demand.  I can always watch Netflix, Amazon, etc from the computer but I figure why bother.  At least with TV I have a remote.  I caught an episode of American Greed last night, which was enjoyable. 

I have a huge binder from work that I am going to read a little bit of and then it’s showers and bed.  Know that I am doing well and thus far having fun.  Everything seems to be coming together.  Despite the fact that I got lost going to work and coming home.  I will get it figured out eventually and by then it will be time to leave.  I really am not looking forward to making the drive home.

My cat sitter called while I was eating and said everything checked out okay.  He couldn’t find Big Boy and figured he headed for the hills.  I just hope he isn’t trapped.  He loves to crawl under the couch and then he sometimes has problems getting out.  I guess I am worrying to much.  If he doesn’t see evidence that Big Boy has been out tomorrow,he will go looking for him.

I did get on Grinder and didn’t see anyone I knew.  It’s entertainment so I will check it now and then.  Wouldn’t it be funny to check it at the office and find out that someone is really close to me.  :)

Okay, that is a wrap folks.  Talk with you later.

27 July 2014

Made it ok

Okay so I arrived.  I have spent over an hour trying to connect.  There is a network cable in the room, I thought wow free internet.  Nope, it’s pay.  Hotel WIFI is pay as well.  Both same price.  I saw a Google Fiber Free WIFI that worked for a short period of time.  I really wish I had tethering on my phone then this would all be so much easier.  However, AT&T doesn’t give anything for free.  Verizon on the other hand, sure it’s wide open.  I miss them for that reason alone. 

TV here sucks.  The adult movies are all hetero, not that I would risk my job for pron.  They have new releases like Zack Effron in Neighbors but they want $17 to watch, it’s cheaper to go to the movies.

I tried streaming pron from home it works but there is a delay, not so good for getting off.  Luckily I brought pron on a USB stick.  However, this laptop that I am borrowing from a friend is all locked down, so when I get back home over the weekend I will be able to use a tool that will open up the administrator account, so that I can clear my tracks.  He will never have any idea.  I really don’t want him to think less of me or that the only reason I asked is because of pron, because it’s not.  I need to check e-mail at home, use on-line banking and of course blog.

One of my many favorite pron stars lives where I am at. I know he’s on Grinder and I really thought a lot about him on the way up.  It’s a fantasy that would be nice to fulfill but I’m not paying and well pron star, that is kind of opening yourself up to lots of risk.  Still it would be nice to be able to meet him in person, even if nothing sexual happens. 

There is an infamous gay bar, it’s a chain called Hamburger Mary’s.  They are supposed to have good food and I just looked it up, it’s 0.5 miles away from my hotel.  That would be something I paid for on my own dime, that is unless I wind up spilling the beans about my sexuality.  This is a fresh start so I am keeping plenty of secrets.

Time has really gotten away from me.  I need to get a shower and working the controls here will be a challenge, it’s all way too modern.  Brush my teeth, take my sleeping pills and jump in bed not before turning off all of the lights. 

I did 80 to 90 mph the entire way here once I got away from the city.  I saw plenty of places to stop.  There is like 2 adult book stores, which I am skipping.  There is the winery we used to visit, I will stop there and pickup some grape juice, it’s smooth and good.  I will be able to enjoy that.  I brought a bottle of water with me, drank it and had to pee most of the way.  I held it until I arrived and then found the bathroom – checked in and got settled.  Had a steak for supper which was just okay.  Online reviews said it was the bomb but it was just okay by me.  I’ve had better.  There isn’t much of a menu at the hotel restaurant.  I did hear they have a breakfast buffet so I will check that out tomorrow.  I also have the option of ordering breakfast to my room, fill out the little card, hang it on the door before 2am and presto everything arrives when you asked.

My room is over looking the swimming pool, mostly kids and women by the pool.  I don’t believe I will be checking it out but the week is still young.

Leaving the kids was the hardest part of the whole thing.  I almost cried.  I just hate them not knowing or realizing what is going on.  I told them but I don’t think they really understand.  I told them I would be back on Friday night.  I sure hope they are all okay.  I trimmed Shy Girls claws this morning and that was a huge mess.  However, I broke out the food and we became fast friends again.  She loves me just doesn’t like to be picked up or held down and no matter what don’t touch the paws unless you have protection on because she will lash out. 

So I think that if my late partner could see me now, he would be quite proud of how I managed things.  I really wish well you know that he was here. 

Okay, time to call it a night.  Talk with you peeps after my first day on the job.  I pray it’s everything that I want it to be and more. 

26 July 2014

Clock is ticking

Time as usual is working against me, the deadline of leaving is approaching and I still have way more to do than I thought I would.  I hit a snag today where the heat just sucked the life out of me and I had to have something to drink and a nap.  It was good to rest.

I got up and got moving but then again time, I had to leave to meet my friend for dinner.  He talked non-stop and I didn’t get home until 9:30 which put another dent in the plan of getting ready. 

I am in total control of when I leave but I told the cops I would be out of here by 2pm, I actually plan on leaving by 12 noon.  The cops will be watching the house while I am gone, along with my security system and my army of 7 scared cats.  Who I am sure will be wondering what the hell happened and when are we going to get fed. 

There is still lots of TV that I’d like to watch but it’s not available yet.  For some reason on demand hasn’t been updated.  Perhaps by the time I get back it will be. 

I hate to think that tomorrow at this time I will be tucked away in my hotel room, probably trying to go to sleep.  I’m guessing with the drive and a hot shower just before bed that will help.  I expect to get the best sleep I have had in a while.  I usually sleep better away from home for some strange reason.  I know I need a new bed but still you should be able to relax and sleep well in your own home. 

So my worries are the kids, will I survive the drive and manage to stay awake for 4 hours non stop or will I have to pull over.  Plus I am wondering what kind of environment and people I am going to be working with.  I’m sure with a little time things will settle down. 

Tomorrow morning there will be so much left over.  I need to file my unemployment claim.  This is the one where I tell them I am back to work and they will stop paying me.  I will also take a peek to see if I can see the deposit that should be pending for Monday from the last place I worked at.  It will be the 15th of the month before I see my paycheck with this new job, so money is tight.  The good news about that is I will be on the road and away from home so when I get back and we enter into week 3 of training on that Friday is the 15th, so I should be in good shape.

My next entry should be from my hotel room letting you know that I arrived, that is if I have enough energy to post.  I have a feeling that all of the jitters and nervousness will die down once I get there.  Talk with you peeps later.

25 July 2014

Expensive Day

Since my feet have been bothering me for quite sometime and my doctor can’t seem to figure anything out, I made an appointment today at the Good Feet Store.  They sell Orthotics and they are NOT cheap.  They tried to talk me into a 3 step system for $1,500.  I guess if I would have gone in sooner I would have had the money but that is a mortgage payment and I just can’t afford to part with that kind of cash right now.  I walked out with the cheapest thing they sold and spent $200 for it.  There is only a 6 month warranty for it and the guy tried to tell me that I would be back to buy the full system.  I don’t think so.  They don’t do any insurance billing but they are quick to tell you that there is a 0% financing offer available provided that you pay it off within 12 months.  All of there inserts are non refundable due to “health reasons”.  I sort of understand that but it’s an insert, you can wash it off and it’s good as new again. 

Then I managed to get my car into the dealer, thank God.  I got some Freon for the AC and the usual oil change & checkup.  That was another $120.  I found out that my tires are starting to wear.  They will need future attention.  I was told that would be somewhere down the line.  I was really surprised they say the breaks are perfect.  I’m known to be hard on breaks.  I know my habits have changed but I didn’t think by that much.  So the car is more than road ready.  Just pack, fill the tank and go. 

The paperwork came in by e-mail for my trip.  I got a copy of my offer letter which tells me that they will 100% pay for my parking, so another bullet dodged.  In looking over the benefits summary I found out that you have to be there for 2 years before you are eligible for Profit Sharing.  Your automatically enrolled in the 401K upon hire, I will have to nix that because I need all of my money right now.  I am not apposed to joining but at a later date.  They also have a basic vision plan that is at no cost.  If I want to step up then it would be $10 per pay period, which is $2 more than my last employer was charging but I bet you that the coverage is way better.  I did look at their Medical & Dental even though I have coverage, it looks to be very affordable and you have many choices. 

I will be staying at 2 different Hotels.  The 1st one is a Westin and they are really paying a premium for the rooms.  The Westin charges for Internet Access.  I’m going to request it upon check in and it should be added to my bill for The Firm to pay, if they don’t want to pay it then I will be happy to pay for it on my own dime.  I just have to have connectivity to the outside world.  They have a swimming pool but it’s outdoor only and I’m not a fan of outdoor pools because I will turn RED like a Lobster before I know what hit me.  So looks like I will be hitting the shower and that will be as much water as I see, unless of course it rains.  I will have to drive to the office each day and check in on the 1st day by 9am or the offer goes away.  That won’t be a problem, I plan on being there some where between 8 and 8:30.

The 2nd hotel is a Hilton and there is no pool but they have WIFI.  Again an expensive room.  This hotel is within walking distance of the office, so provided the weather cooperates I can walk to work, which will be good for my fat ass. 

Parking at both hotels is $18.00 per night and they will pay for that as well.  Not to mention whatever the parking cost is at the office garage.  I am very excited about this opportunity and look forward to what they have to offer me.  I pray that I have NOT signed a deal with the devil and that this turns out to be everything I think it is and more. 

The mail brought a response from the agency investigating my discrimination complaint on my former employer.  Turns out I have a case based on Sexual Orientation.  I am guessing but do not know for certain that they contacted the other person who was let go under the same guise as I was.  Now if she signed their Separation Agreement then technically she resigned and that is what the company will report.  So that may blow a hole in the case and stop it dead in its tracks.  In any event I signed and mailed the paperwork they asked for.  Only time will tell what will happen.  I know I do not want my job back, I would want a monetary settlement. 

I also got all of my bank statements and was able to reconcile all of my accounts.  It’s really true I don’t have much money.  I am interested to see what the 3 day place gives me on Monday.  It’s direct deposit so I won’t know until the evening, which should be interesting.  In any event it should be enough to cover a couple bills or I could use it for spending money while I am away. 

I am putting off the getting luggage out and packing part, but then again I don’t leave until Sunday.  I want to try to relax as much as possible and enjoy what little time I have left here.  I will leave on Sunday probably around 12 noon and not arrive there until 4 or 5pm.  I will be able to leave on Friday and make the venture back home in which case I should be home around 8pm.  The children won’t be too happy with me when I return.  They really won’t like it when I leave again but after that there won’t be anymore travel for a while, if ever.  I just pray that they all make it through this temporary readjustment.  I know the rugs will need cleaning when I get home.  Big Boy will develop Diarrhea from not being on his medication.  Jumper will be puking because he won’t be on his medication.  Momma well who knows, hopefully there won’t be any side effects from her.

The thing is it will be like a shock to their system at first, then they will go back on medication for 3 days and then off again and finally back on.  That in its’ self is asking for trouble.  However, I have no other choice.  I can’t afford to board all of them and if they were boarded I’m afraid they would shutdown or develop some other problem.

All things considered it’s been a good day that has only gotten better.  I am not looking forward to the drive but I am looking forward to getting started.  I need that money!  All I can say is Thank You God for blessing me.  Let’s hope the vicious ride from hell that I was on, has finally come to an end. 

I will try to post while I am away.  As there will be plenty of time in the evening to kill, unless co-workers want to do something.  I’m guessing that won’t happen, which is fine.  The part that I will miss the most is being able to call back home and talk with my late partner.  That was the best thing about traveling before he passed, just hearing his voice was comforting.  Now I will be calling my cat sitter and checking up on the furry guys and gals. 

It’s way past my supper time so I am going to eat something, even though I am not hungry once I start I have a feeling that I will just dig in.  Tomorrow night I am going out with a friend who is picking up the tab.  It’s going to be a really busy day tomorrow and then again on Sunday.  After that everything should fall in place or so I hope.

Thanks again for your support.  I will talk with you peeps later.

24 July 2014


I got a dollar for dollar matching offer from The Firm.  They are very open to when I want to start and since I am kind of in desperate need of money, I said Monday.  Wow so travel they wanted to buy me a plane ticket which would obligate me to stay there for 2 weeks.  I’d like to go back home on the weekend if possible.  So I suggested driving, it’s a long haul but I am certainly open to it.  I am letting them decide what will work best for them.  If I drive I don’t have to worry about Airport Security, which I hate with a passion.

Wow what a ride it has been.  You think a rollercoaster carries a lot of emotion, well it’s got nothing on what I have been through.  So I am waiting for the piece to form and to have ends tied up.  My guess is that since it’s so late in the day I won’t know anything until tomorrow for certain. 

I want to get together tonight to celebrate with friends, again I am waiting to see if that will happen.  Only time will tell.  All I can tell you is that whatever I consume for supper I plan on it being awesome!

Now let the good times roll.  Talk with you peeps later, I’ve got some work to tend to.  Thanks for all of your support. 

23 July 2014

You Won’t Believe it

Today started off like any other day.  We had a meeting to “train” and then we were sent live into production.  I asked during the meeting if we could get a subscription to some IT learning site(s) and that it would benefit all of us to expand our knowledge.  I was told that they would need to look into it but it shouldn’t be a problem.  Around 1:30pm both managers come get me and say they need to talk with me.  We walked to the front of the building and before I knew it we were in HR.  I said why do I get the feeling this isn’t good?  They said it’s not, have a seat.  Then the HR Manager told me that based upon what they have seen over the course of 3 days that I didn’t posses the skill set to preform the job I was hired for effectively.  Therefore, effective immediately they were terminating my employment and I had to immediately surrender all company property.  I would be escorted back to my office to retrieve my personal effects and then escorted out of the building.  They will pay me for the week, plus Monday the 28th.

Okay so going into this they already knew that I didn’t posses the skills the job required.  However, they afforded me the opportunity to learn and grow.  Then a couple days after rolling out the red carpet all bets are suddenly off.  I don’t get it.  It wasn’t fair to me, to the firm and it wasted a lot of time, money and not to mention it got my hopes up.  I was worried don’t get me wrong but I wanted to prove it to myself and to others that I could do the job.  Granted the 1 week rush to be trained didn’t help things.  If training could have been more relaxed and spread out over a couple weeks then I think this would have been a more positive experience.  That said, if they were going to pull the plug I am glad they did it now rather than later when I would have to start my job search and unemployment all over again.

I raced home as fast as I could.  I called The Firm that I rejected last night and told them that I had a change of heart and I would really like to put the offer back on the table.  They said absolutely.  So they were very pleased that I called back.  Now they apparently don’t like to take no for an answer.  Since I told them no two times, they put into management so they could make me a counter offer, they really, really want me.  So the counter offer will be either what I was making at the job I was at for 3 days or it might be slightly less.  Either way, it’s a job and it will be a win for me.  I thought we would have this all hammered out today and I could relax, but things are still up in the air.  They are waiting for management to provide the dollar figure and they will call me tomorrow.  Provided everything works out I will be working again on Monday.  I will be away from home for 2 weeks for training, but I think I will be able to make it home on the weekend.  It kind of depends upon how I travel, if I am flying then probably won’t happen.  If I am driving then it shouldn’t be a problem.  I won’t know the particulars until we get to the dollar figure part and they can make me a formal offer. 

I am so very lucky and fortunate that I had this other offer in my hip pocket or I would be t-totally screwed.  The other offer is a desktop support job which is my forte and I should not only be more comfortable, it should be a walk in the park.  Getting used to the environment, the people, etc. will all come in time.  Overall, I think that at the end of the day this place will be home for quite sometime and that to me is what it’s all about.  Of course the money is a high factor.  They have a prenominal 401K with a 50% match up to the 1st 6%.  There is profit sharing, they will pay for my cell phone, I can direct deposit into multiple accounts, I can get standalone vision coverage, they purchase and pay for AD&D, Life as well as Short & Long Term Disability.  They will subsidize parking, They pay you $100 per week when you are on-call, plus you get to charge for your time in  15 minute increments.  There are just wins all over the place for me.  Now I will have to work hard, I am sure but it sounds like at the end of the day they really do care and show great appreciation for their people.  That to me is worth a lot because most employers will tell you they care but they don’t show it. 

The cons so far are – travel for 2 weeks, no laptop provided when your on-call.  You have to use your home machine.  I have to use my own phone – really would like 2 devices but they are paying the bill so it’s not really a con.  The location of the office from my house kind of sucks.  There really isn’t a good way to get there but I will figure it out. 

For once in my life I am able to make a list and the pros actually out weight the cons.  I just hope it all comes through and works out.  Otherwise I am in fact up a creek, out of money and there are no paddles. 

I will keep you posted.  I got a therapy session setup for tomorrow, thinking about having my haircut and hopefully I will be able to celebrate.

I can’t believe the emotional rollercoaster I have gotten on.  I am so tired and done with negative and bad words just can’t express it.  Just when it looks like life is turning around it ups and kicks me in the ass.  I pray that after tomorrow I can put the negative behind me and move forward with only positive.  At least if something bad is going to happen, make it time delayed for say 20 or 30 years.  Then I think I will be able to cope better. 

Say a prayer or two.  I will keep you posted and talk with you peeps or should I say peep later!