I woke up to hear the Weatherman say it’s snowing outside. Funny thing it was Spring yesterday but it appears Winter is back at least for a day. Then we will jump back to Spring. Crazy weather patterns like this affect the plants as well as people. Hopefully things will smooth out. Meanwhile I dug out a long sleeve shirt and donned my leather jacket and hat. I thought for sure I was done with them.
I did some serious sleeping last night. I went to bed early my body was very tired, I got quite the workout yesterday playing with freight. I am not done and need to do more with it today but I’m not so sure that is going to work out. We have 2 guys traveling and a mandate to be on the phones. I have other things to do like get a persons machine configured and installed – this is for a new hire that starts on Monday. She won’t actually be here until Wednesday but still we like to have their equipment ready on their start date just in case.
Like a little girl addicted to FB I am checking the government bankruptcy website on a daily basis. Still no update. Until that figure changes to show that I have paid in over the required amount I can’t really do anything but pray for it to change. Hopefully it will happen with in the next few days but being that it’s government controlled they are not in any hurry. I also don’t want to stop automatic payments until we reach that point as well, just to be absolutely safe. The letter just needs a couple modifications and it’s ready to be printed, signed and mailed.
Next Friday the last rendition of the Fast & Furious movies will be out. I plan on seeing the movie while it’s in theaters, not sure that I will make it on opening weekend because the fans will be crazy. This is the last movie that the incredibly hot and talented Paul Walker stars in. So sad that he is no longer with us. It will be very interesting to see him on screen and see how the movies plays out. I believe this is the end of the F&F series. It was a great run.
Next Saturday will be the 2 year mark since my partner passed. As we get closer to this date the more depressed I get. Today I feel like I just want to go back home and hide from everyone. I know it’s not healthy but I just want to have some downtime besides the weekend. Perhaps I will feel better after the weekend but I don’t think so. I am eager to get to my therapy appointment tomorrow, I need it bad just like I need a massage.
The former co-worker and FB friend that I reached out to for advice on dating well he is apparently avoiding me. I sent a message to check in on Wednesday and haven’t heard from him at all. Meanwhile he continues to post on FB. Gee is you don’t want to help someone who is asking for advice it would be far better to say so upfront. I am giving him the benefit of the doubt for a couple more days and then if I don’t hear back from him I will most likely unfriend him, because he has proven unworthy of the friend status. The funny thing is when I depend on other people I am frequently disappointed and it only reaffirms my belief that I can only depend upon myself to get things done. I realize that the message I sent him was kind of cryptic and what I said was I needed to talk with him and wanted some advice. I promised that I wasn’t selling anything including religion and that I would only take 5 minutes of his time. If someone would have sent me that message I think it would have made me curious enough that I would have reached out, provided of course I knew them. If it was from a stranger that would change things. All I want to know is if he has some tips on how to get into the dating scene outside of the apps and going to a bar. I think I am doing everything right and that patience is what will pay off in the end. However, I am not a patient person by nature, despite what others think. I know in my professional life I exude patients but inside I am screaming like Lewis Black, you can just imagine what that sounds like. I don’t anticipate that even if I speak with him he will be able to tell me anything new. He however, might know of someone who is also looking and while I am not a fan of the matchmaker, it might help me in my quest.
Last night I gave into my temptation and stopped by KFC. I was once again reminded how expensive chicken can actually be. I got a 6 piece meal and was charged for 8 because apparently with 2 sides it’s cheaper, but that doesn’t seem logical to me. It was so good. I figured it would attract the children but it did not. Marvin came over and started meowing at the back door, I looked at him and he looked at me … I said oh you want the door open. He meowed I didn’t know that the answer was no. I opened it and he ran away scared. I know it was a little chilly out but never anticipated that reaction from him. The KFC meal reminded me of when we used to get it and enjoy a meal together. He would always order plenty of chicken and it got to be where he had to have his own side order of large mashed potatoes. I remembered the time when he thought he would surprise me and got me a side of mac n cheese. The Col. only knows how to do chicken not mac n cheese, it’s horrible. I do love the coleslaw. That and the chicken are my 2 favorite things on the menu. Speaking of which their menu isn’t exactly that clear and easy to make a choice from. I like Popeye’s menu much better, but they don’t have any restaurants close by me, I have to travel a bit. So I plan on having left over chicken tonight. I need to get to the pet food store as well tonight but that will depend a lot on how the day goes and how I feel once I get close to home. More than likely I will just want to drive home.
Much like other offices we are allowed to wear jeans on Friday. The deal is you have to pay $5 to whatever charity they are collecting for. I’d like to submit the 6 cat fund but have a feeling I wouldn’t get many takers. Anyway lots of people wear jeans and never pay. Nothing is ever said to them. I don’t like being charged to wear my own clothes to work, so I just come in my normal professional attire. The guy who’s phone number I got earlier this week he is all casual today and looks very hot. It’s not fair to tempt others it’s like seeing food, drugs or some other addictive substance but knowing that you can’t touch it. My addiction is men, I love to stare at them and think not so clean thoughts. Sex and Sexual attraction is something that I don’t think we can ever get rid of until the day we die. Speaking of which a website that I subscribe to has this March Madness thing going on and I pay to subscribe to the site. Well to chose the nominees you have to pay extra for scenes and then you get the privilege of voting for your favorite guy. Whoop. I think they should be giving me the content included with my monthly subscription. There is one or two scenes that I am very eager to see. However it’s the principal as to why I won’t pay for them. I’ve reached out to support but heard nothing yet and suspect they don’t care. It’s truly a business where if you don’t like it or want to complain your pretty much out of luck. If you leave there will be someone else who will subscribe. I could run a site like this but the customer service would have to be impeccable and beyond anyone's wildest dreams. I am very customer focused, they are the ones who pay the bills and can make or break you and/or your business. So it makes sense to treat them with respect and answer every question no matter how dumb you think it might be.
Yesterday I had a situation come up where someone got a new iPad and needed to have it activated with company e-mail. I had told them that it would be wiped. When it was they acted all surprised and bitched at me because they lost an app which I came to find out was a game that they paid several hundred dollars for. Are you fucking kidding me? Are you on crack? Did you gargle with bong water? Who the fuck pays $100 or more for a fucking game to play on their phone? A crazy rich person that is who. This person is rich but apparently throws their money away like it’s tissue paper. I’d love to be the trash can for their money, I wouldn’t need to work again ever. In any case since they were bitching I went to my boss and found out that the person who wiped it, did so in error. It shouldn’t have been wiped. That person is my neighbor and he got in trouble for it. That is not what I was looking to accomplish. I brought this to my bosses attention because I wanted to cover myself and in turn wound up getting someone else in trouble. I don’t believe I made an enemy but I feel bad about it. I also feel compelled to respond to the person who was the ‘victim’ here but I have decided to just let it be. I told that person how to recover the app but they insist that they are unable to do this. Apple backs up your purchases for this reason. I mean how in the world did they plan on transferring it to the new device? You have to login to your account and re-download it. I’ve changed devices before (phones) and that is the experience I have had. So they want to make me feel guilty but it’s not going to work. I told them I didn’t push the button, which is the truth. Had I been the one who pushed the button then I may feel differently.
Work has brought in an outside firm to speak with us about our jobs and the way we perform them. They assured us that this is to better streamline things and make us more efficient. Then in the next breath they said they were not looking to eliminate anyone's job. Me thinks thou do protest too much. That conveys the fact they are looking to eliminate jobs. That goes hand in hand with what I said when they asked us to start submitting reports of our daily activities. I don’t see any writing on the wall for myself or smell any sense of they are going to get rid of me. I think this is a witch hunt that has to be made like they are doing it for a different reason and we will probably see a couple people gone by the end of the year. I still have my eye on the job market and have passed up applying for jobs that were appealing to me. I am very lucky to have the job I do and being paid what I am being paid. Like any job there are parts of it that I don’t like and would do differently or not at all. There are people that I dislike dealing with. However, at the end of the day I am happy – even though right now I feel rather numb. I don’t see any reason to jump ship at this point.
I could blabber on but think it’s best to stick a fork in this post and call it done. I hope that you all have a very enjoyable and productive weekend. I will talk with you peeps again soon.