24 October 2014

Busy Day

Here we are at the end of the day.  It's been very busy and I just now actually have a moment to myself before I head out.  So the big day is tomorrow.  I am going to start cleaning tonight, the children won't know why but they will soon figure it out.  Shy Girl is eating on her schedule but she is eating, so that is a good thing.  Something bit her on the back of the neck and she doesn't like me to touch it.  

Last night I worked on my home pc some more, still not quite there yet.  I am having some issues with Outlook but hope to resolve them and get the machine finished up over the weekend.  Despite being worked to death at work and home, I managed to wake up at 2am and I didn't get back to sleep until 4am.  I watched the 1st episode of Season 2 of Alpha House.  I will be binge watching it this weekend, as much as I can.  

Got to get up early tomorrow so that I can get to the bank for the cashier's check.  I am not too happy about it but I have never heard of a loan with no closing costs or where the cost is baked in, so it sounded too good to be true.  This is a start of things stepping in the right direction.  If the payment gets too much or rates drop, I can always re-fi again.  I am just very nervous about the whole thing, but I am pretty certain it will be okay.  It's just now that responsibility will offically be on my shoulders, it's been there all along but the weight didn't quite seem as heavy until my name goes on the title.

Well I am posting this and wrapping things up.  I've done quite a bit of overtime this week and am very thankful and greatful to have Monday off.  Hopefully, the next post will be from my new home pc.  

Hope you all have a nice weekend.  Talk with you peeps later.  

23 October 2014


I didn't know why but I felt drawn to Office Max to buy my pc.  Turns out we have a Office Depot & Max.  Since they merged we will only have Office Max, so the Depot is closing and they are having a moving sale.  They were practically giving merchandise away.  I got a new desktop last night for $600 including taxes.  They tried to sell me a warranty but I declined.  So now I am on Windows 8.1 and I hate it like everyone else.  I will purchase an overlay or download a free one.  I have begun the setup process - it's up and running.  I even have my old hard drive attached and as I suspected data is all in tact.  

So I get home pop in some White Castle to the Microwave and the phone rings.  I have been getting election calls like crazy but I answered this one.  Turns out it was the Loan Officer and he told me that we are good to close.  Once again things have changed.  I will get to skip my November payment but will have to make a December Payment.  I am still saving $500 per month, which is a good thing.  The interest rate is 4.25% which is pretty common these days.  He needs some additional documentation from me, but of course with my PC down it's going to take me a bit.  Then he hit me with what I dreaded cash to close.  Holy crap.  I hate parting with money.  I need a little over $1,300 to close.  So thankfully I have held on to my savings and will be able to make this happen.  We close on Saturday at 11am.  That will give me time to get to the bank to get a cashiers check, which is required.  Makee sure the carpet is clean, might be wet but at least it will be clean.  Tidy up the house a wee bit.  I mean the deal is done so it really doesn't matter what the house looks like.  Plus I will be able to grab a couple of my favorite pens to sign my life away.

I am very nervous about doing this, but I know it's the right thing to do so that the muffins and I can stay there.  Plus I will get away from the present lender and my name will be on the loan and the house will oficially be mine.  Given the fact that negative seems to follow me, that is a big reason why I am nervous plus I am commiting to a 30 year loan - who knows if I will live that long?  I just pray this all works out for the greater good.

Since I have so much going, I took off Monday which oddly is also my late partners birthday.  I would like to take care of getting a new vehicle as well but I think I am going to put that off.  That is an awful lot of change and right now my brain is going haywire -- no partner -- dead cat -- dead computer and now a house in my name.  Woah!  Slow down, save a little make sure that this all comes together and then maybe I will be able to take care of the car.  I don't know what the home loan will do to my FICO score, when I took out the line of credit for BLU it killed my score and I lost like 20 points.  Not happy about that but I figure in time I will be able to recover.  Plus with a lower house payment that line of credit will be paid for in no time.

I hope that Lawn Boy shows up over the weekend to trim the bushes, they are really bushy.  Then all I have to do is pray nothing else goes wrong.  I do have a toilet to fix, just a flapper to replace ... how hard can that be?  Good question, I will find out soon enough.

Lots going on here at work and I am taking a short lunch.  Plenty to do.  Looking forward to getting home on Friday night so I can start the weekend.  Meanwhile I just have to try to stay out of trouble.  Talk with you peeps later.  

22 October 2014

Death Again

Yup, last night my pc died.  The system was slow and very sluggish.  I restarted and heard the fateful click, click from the hard drive and I knew it was over with.  I have had that machine for at least 7 if not 10 years.  So it's lived a good long life.  My late partner had a replica of it, but he got his first.  So it wouldn't be prudent to use his because there is nothing saing that in a few weeks to whenever that the same thing wouldn't happen again.  

I am not very happy about having to replace it.  I mean the replacement part is fine just as long as it doesn't come with an expense part.  However, I don't know how to get a pc for free, so tonight I am going shopping.  It's essential that I have something at home so that I can get on-line and work from home if needed.  Thankfully my on-call week was last week or I would have been in a real pickle.  I would have had to come back to the office, check out a laptop and then go back home.  So yes it can always be worse.

The other thing I am not happy about is that I will be leaving behind Windows 7 and that to me is HUGE.  My data is all backed up safely online thanks to my Crashplan subscription.  It is more of the fact that this is very ill timed.  Setting up Windows 8 will surley not be a fun experience but I know I can do it.  Then I get the fun task of looking up key codes, serial numbers, locating media, etc.  It's like I need a day just to get my digital life back on track.  I actually thought about taking vacation but there is much brewing for the rest of the week, I think it would be a bad idea.  

My plan is to buy the machine tonight, get it home and unboxed, hooked up and at least get it to the desktop.  Install Anti-Virus Software and probably call it a night.  Yeah, well if I get that far I will want to keep going.  I am also buying a hard drive enclosure, so that I can transfer data from the old drive.  It's just a sector that has the OS on it for booting that is bad.  I believe the rest of the disk is good.

There is a program that can attempt to fix the drive, it's called Spinwrite and its written by Steve Gibson over at grc.com.  He's a great guy and the program has saved a lot of people from the very mess I am in.  However, you buy it - download - run and then it can literally be days or weeks before the program finishes.  It's very miticulous and because of that is why it takes so long.  I kind of knew this day would get here sooner or later and well frankly it's just time to upgrade.  Faster processor, better memory, larger hard drive and of course after I get everything loaded it will be as slow as molases, but welcome to the world of Windows, that is the norm.  

I picked up BLU's remains last night and was fine.  I almost broke down when I was pulling into the drive way but I caught myself.  The box they gave me represented what I was shown but it looked much bigger in the photo.  If I get curious only a screw seperates me from his remains, I will probably look at some point.  For now he loved to spend time in the living room, so that is where I put him, right below the TV.

BLU was the cat that figured out how to turn the TV on when we wouldn't wake up.  He would turn it on, then it would wake up both me and my late partner.  Once we caught on to his trick we just started turning the volume down he would still turn it on but it lost the magic touch.  Soon he gave it up, but I still to this day turn the volume down before I turn it off.  I was putting away my shoes last night and realized yeah the only reason why they are in the closet is because I was afraid he would pee on them. Well now that Mr. Big  Boy has his problem I am not taking any chances.  Shoes are expensive!  Then  again what isn't expensive theese days.  

We have had a huge technical blunder here and email doesn't work for 1/2 of the company.  The phones have been ringing off the hook, because everyone lives and dies by their e-mail.  I get it, all we can tell them is it's being worked on.  They don't like to hear that, they want a time estimate... okay how about before Thanksgiving but no later than New Years Day.  I wonder how far that would fly.

One of my coworkers discovered he was the only one logged into the phone system, so the fat fuck sends out an e-mail with the boss included.. hey I am the only one on the phones, I could use some help.  Yeah well what about the multiple times it's happened to me.  Did I yell and scream like a little girl?  Did I run to mommy telling on everyone?  Nope, just took it like a man.  I didn't like it but I didn't cry about it either.  As you can tell I am not a fan of his.  He's got a lot of knowledge but social skills he lacks plus he says very hurtful things but he thinks he is joking.  Like one time I called and he said I knew you were going to call me because everytime you call my skin crawls.  Uh, excuse me?  That didn't sit very well with me, but I let it go.

Ah the phone is chirping, I have to go setup for a meeting.  Another lunch hour cut short.  Guess what I am doing over the weekend?  Yep, working on the PC more than likley.  So much for getting away, but maybe I can pull off my breakfast stunt with some sucess.  They say that bad things happen in 3's well I have suffered 2 and we can skip what ever will be #3.  I think my dues are more than paid up.

Talk with you peeps later.  Happy Hump(ing) day!  :)

21 October 2014

Fire Drill

Yesterday we got instructions on how to evacuate the building in the event of an emergency.  Today they set off the fire alarm and we got to see who read the memo.  I read it but kept following other people and even talking to people I knew I worked with but had no idea what their name was.  

Then my cell phone rings.  It's our head Network guy and he wants to know whats going on.  I said we are having a fire drill.  Turns out the receptionist sent out a memo saying we had an emergency and were asked to evacuate, she also said this is NOT a drill.  Well now I understand why I got the phone call.  Oh  vey, don't say the sky is falling unless you actually see it, even though by then it will be too late.  

My lunch is cut a little short today because I have to set up for some meetings.  It happens more often than not.  I just adjust for it on my time card and everyone is happy and I can laugh all the way to the bank.

Went straight home last night and wow it smelled like Cinnamon Rolls & Cat Pee.  Those two things don't go together.  I broke out the steam cleaner and found a new place where the fat boy likes to pee at.  The water came out yellow and I repeated the process over and over and eventually I just gave up. I didn't think that I would see clear water anytime soon.  I sprayed something to help with the odor and once again I have a brown stain on the carpet.  I honestly don't know how to fix this w/o replacing the carpet.  A friend of mine says oh, pull it up and put down hard wood floors.  That sounds great except you ever see a cat try to walk on a hard wood floor?  It doesn't work so well.  While I have a problem now, the last thing I need is for someone to break a hip and be back at the vets place.  So I think I will pass on the hardwood floor idea.  

Talked with my friend about the resturant guy.  Her advice was repeat what you did Sunday again this Sunday and see where you get.  I am super nervous about it and today is only Tuesday.  I suppose time will tell if I am up to do it again.  If I am I hope he is actually there this time.  I was remarking last night how I don't think much of the dating apps that are out there.  I mean does anyone actually go on dates anymore because all I see is hookup requests.  Granted I did get one date but that just didn't pan out well.  So the search goes on.

My neck is bothering me I think it's from too much time on my phone.  Once again I look forward to going home and sleeping.  Just me and my jumper.  He was hogging where my feet went last night, I had to really push to get him to move.  I guess he was comfy but I sure wasn't.  Shame the massage lady won't be here this week, that would fit in really nice.  It's been nothing but stress here latley and I am slowly coming down from that.  

Here is to going home and walking in the door to smell only Cinamon Rolls tonight.  That would be awesome.  Supper will probably be mac and cheese - nothing fancy.  1/2 tonight  1/2 tomorrow.  I noticed that I am packing on the pounds, not exactly happy about that but stress can cause that as well.

Speaking of stress, back to work.  I am waiting on someone to fix something so that I can do my job, until then I am kind of in a holding pattern.  Hopefully all will be well soon.  You take care and I will talk with you peeps later. 

20 October 2014

Done with on-call for now

Yay it's Monday and I am not on call anymore.  I got a couple of wake up calls last night but thankfully they were for my counterpart, so all I had to do was hit the mute button on the phone to stop the alarm from sounding.  Jumper wasn't too happy about it but we soon were off into the land of slumber.

TAZ man has been seeking me out for attention.  I brushed him last night, the last time I brushed anyone it was BLU and I figured it was only appropriate that TAZ goes first so he could pick up whatever scent was left behind from his buddy.

Speaking of scent, cat pee is the scent that I am smelling.  Not good.  I worked on Saturday to clean up a couple of their messes and at the same time I removed the urine remover stuff.  I can't just leave this permenant brown ring on the carpet, it looks horrible.  I think honestly there are two ways to get rid of the smell.  #1 is to get all new carpets and #2 is to get rid of the cats.  Both of which won't be happening anytime soon.  I actually see no point in removing the carpet, why ruin new carpet.  I am not happy with Mr. Big  Boy but he doesn't know that.  I have kept telling him to pee in the litter box, it's an extra couple of steps but it's where he needs to go.

Tonight I haven't made up my mind to go straight home or to stop off at the pet store.  Right now the way I feel I could just lay down and call it a day.  My back hurts, my neck hurts and I am tired.  At least tonight I can power on the sound machine, put the allergy machine on full blast and not hear a sound all night long.  Plus the phone will be on do not disturb.

I was a little alarmed when I looked at the on-call calendar and saw that someone had modified my duty to extend to tonight.  I changed it so that it ended as of 7am this morning, like it's suppose to.  The guy after me is off today and I'm guessing he doesn't want to work on-call tonight.  I thought about asking about it but decided against it.  I looked at the schedule and plain as day it says I am on for 1 week.  Someone else is on for another, etc.  So if we follow the schedule I am fine.  My guess was tht someone thought because I had someone else cover last Monday I needed to do 1 more day. That isn't how it works.

The weekend was a little busier than I wanted but everything was simple.  I am doing clean up today and trying to tidy things up so I am ready for whatever this week throws at me.  I actually have an odd ball item that I am going to troubleshoot momentarily.  Then on Thursday I think I have to come in super early to set up for some meeting.  I am not happy about that but maybe I will get a good parking space.  Maybe even some free food, who knows.  

Gotta run right now.  I will talk with you peeps later.  It sure will be nice not to run aroud like the world is on fire.  Relaxation is the name of the game.

19 October 2014

Risk Taker

Well my on call time is just about over with.  7 am Monday is around the corner.  It’s been busy this weekend.  Yesterday was my big day.  Today seems to be my counterparts big day, network outage.  Lots of calls. 

Thankfully I have had simple stuff and a lot of it I was able to fix on my own, other stuff I had to get help from someone because it’s above what I have rights to do.

Pretty much a normal weekend here.  I was able to get to the cat food store had to run home to deal with an urgent call, then back out to Target and to Sam’s Club.  Money spent just as easy this weekend as any other.  The only thing I couldn’t do was leave the area and I am itching to get out of here.

Today I was able to get breakfast, hit the grocery store and back to Target.  I also got in a nice nap.  It was just a grand old time.

So there is this guy I have had my eye on for a long time at Cracker Barrel.  I went in this morning with a plan.  I got there early, so it wasn’t crowded.  I wrote down my name and number on a piece of paper.  I asked to be seated in his section.  The plan was to ask him if he likes guys, if he said yes then I would have given him the paper and said call me or something like that.  The problem some woman was working his section and I never saw him.  I guess he was off.  Damn!  So I have a couple of choices… 1 I can try again next Sunday or 2 I can try to friend him on Facebook and if he accepts, then I could message him and ask.  My gaydar has a couple blips on it, but honestly unless you are obvious about your sexuality I don’t pick up on it, the whole gaydar with me is broken.  I am not sure of what to do and am waiting for some feedback from either you or another friend before I rush and possibly make a mistake.  I want to communicate and get an answer but I don’t want to scare him away.  The whole thing just has RISK written all over it.

The Gay Dating apps, well they aren’t getting me the results that I want.  I am keeping what I have paid for but when my time is up, my time is up.  I’m not pouring a bunch of money into this, it’s silly but I am not exactly sure how I am supposed to find a partner, considering I don’t go to gay bars.  There is a guy at work but again that has RISK written all over it and my policy is not to get into a relationship with a coworker, it’s just going to end badly and could ruin my job.

I am proud of myself because I didn’t let all of my 2nd guessing give in and I went to eat there and had plans to approach him.  The tricky part would be ask first and risk pissing him off so he spits in my food, tells his co-workers and everyone laughs at me or to ask before I leave.  Either way it’s a risk.  The wind was just let out of my sail when I didn’t get to see him.

At the grocery store I ran into the cashier who thinks I look like Jim Gaffigan, she is only the 2nd person in life to tell me that.  He is white like pail white – I look nothing like him.  Anyway, she said oh how’s your baby?  I said he passed away.  I just knew I would have to have that conversation with her today and kind of dreaded it. 

I have been thinking about my decision and well I do regret it in the fact that there are so many unknowns.  Regardless if it was right or wrong, I have to live with it, there is no bringing him back now.  In fact I should be getting a call tomorrow or very shortly telling me that his cremains are ready to be picked up.  I do want to bring him home, but didn’t plan on doing it like this.  So sad how things went so quickly from good to bad to death.  It’s amazing that life as we know it can change in the fraction of a second.

Speaking of cats, I was able to clean the rug yesterday.  Big Boy I believe had peed again.  It smells horrible, I put down the urine remover.  I am not sure what I can do to break him of this.  I caught him the other night and just picked him up and put him in the litter box.  He finished and hopped out.  He knew I wasn’t happy.  I think he is just seeing how lazy he can be – I mean I rotate his plate, he chirps for food and I am right there, he asks for attention and I give it.  I think it’s all just a test.  I hate it – pee in the litter box and we can continue to exist peacefully.  After all I have been through I think asking for that one little favor shouldn’t be a problem.

I have switched to Air Wick scented oils, they seem to have a much wider selection of fragrances that I like.  I picked up Cinabon Cinnamon and have that plugged in upstairs to help mask the cat pee smell.  I have a Pumpkin & Vanilla in my office, it’s okay but more Vanilla than Pumpkin.  Glade allows you to control the amount of fragrance, Air Wick doesn’t.  Febreeze is also in on the game but I’m happy with what I have.  Air Care like one of the best things ever.

Back to laundry, TV and cracking open a window.  Talk with you peeps later. 

17 October 2014

Fear No More

Yesterday was a very busy day.  We had some in house training to attend and that meant that disrupted everyones day.  We did it in groups of two so there was a morning phone shift and people in training and the same for the afternoon.  I was on the phones in the morning and in training in the afternoon.  It was supposed to be about HIPAA but they kind of got off topic, plus we were also talking about security.  At some point in the training the moderator said something about living your life in fear and how that was not a good model for one to live their life.  It was in that moment that I realized hey I am not living in fear anymore.  I no longer work for the Jewish Ass, I no longer have to worry about if my partner is going to pass away - he already did and last but oh so fresh I don't have to worry about BLU and if he will be okay.  Getting these things out of the way was rough but each brought me great knowledge and I learned something from each and everyone of them.  

From the Jewish Ass - never trust anyone, people will say one thing to your face and another behind your back.

From the loss of My Partner - It's important to have the end of life conversation early on so others will know what your wishes are.  To say I love you each and every day to those that you care for because someday you won't be able to.  That closing out another persons life it a misserable, labor intensive process that can litterally take years.

From the loss of BLU - Appreciate your pets, because unless you have a bird chances are you are going to out live them.  Money spends really quick at the vet and having available credit or money set aside for their health care is important.  Vet's are people too and chances are most of their diagnosis process is simply a guess.

So things are a little easier now that we are approaching the weekend.  It's been a very long and horrible week.  I got a sympathy card in the maiil last night from my vet.  I knew it would be coming.  It didn't affect me at all, by that I simply mean I didn't break down and cry.  I did reflect back on memories that I have had with him.  I've been doing that perodically.  I was surprised that all of my content of BLU (pictures and videos) is limited to my phone.  Holy cow!  I will be working on geting it transferred to my PC quickly, so that it can be in 2 places and backed up twice.  Memories and photos are all I have at this point.  

The rest of the children are getting used to having quiet around the house.  TAZ is starting to seek me out for attention and as well for food.  He lays by himself and I know he's got to be wondering where is my friend at.  I keep talking about BLU to him and telling him that he isn't coming back.  I hope that it sinks in.  I also tell him that we only have each other and we made it through one death, we will make it through another.  That is whhat we do, we are survivors.

So my co-worker that helped me out sent me a thank you e-mail.  My boss who I know has to have received the card and gift I sent for Bosses Day has yet to reach out to thank me.  I am starting to wonder if she ever will.  I asked a friend about it last night and was told give it a little more time and see if she says anything.  It really sucks when you have to seek people out to get a thank you for giving them a gift  

On-call hasn't been terribly bad.  Last night all was quiet.  This morning at 5:30 someone needed help, she never said it was urgent so I let it sit and she called two more times - then I said ok deal with it.  I did and wow turns out there was an outage and I was fortunate enough that I only got 1 call and not 40 calls.  Things are all better now and I picked up an extra 1/2 hour of time.  We got her fixed and damned if she didn't reboot and we had to fix her again.  I was later than normal leaving the house but thanks to my lead foot I was able to get to work with plenty of time to spare.  

I had a plan for the weekend to get cat food tonight, wake up early on Sunday and get groceries.  I believe I am just going to proceed as normal.  I went back and looked at last weekend 3 calls on Saturday and Sunday - that was it.  I hope I can get away with that or less and I hope they are easy if I get any calls at all.  Easy is what I like, you fix it and move on to the next thing.  I will essentially be chained to my house but then again if you think about it, I am usually home on weekends.  I really want to get away and go for a drive but that will have to wait.  Right now I am feeling the effects of getting up early, waking up in the middle of the night and all of the other sleeping hiccups that happened this week.  I need some good sleep with no interuptions.  For now I just have to put up with it until Monday at 7am and then I am done until December when I get to play the game again.  On-call at other places I worked was much worse.  This so far has been a walk in the park, I hope that experience continues.

So I am getting ready to go back to work and swap out a laptop.  It will be a grand ol time, I hope that everything works like it should.  I have to repeat this process 3 more times within the month.  Looking forward to putting that in the past as well.

Have a great weekend and I will try to do the same.  Weather is supposed to be pretty good, so who knows maybe I will go crazy and open the windows.  The children would love that!  Talk with you peeps later.