27 June 2016

Babysitting Again

I thought I dodged a bullet when I saw that my homeowner’s insurance was paid in full.  Turns out that the check the mortgage company sent for the property taxes hasn’t posted.  That payment is due on the 7th of July.  The odd thing is they sent it like 3 or 4 days before they paid the homeowner’s insurance.  I accidentally stumbled across this information online.  Now I am watching another website like a hawk, checking it a couple times a day.  Thinking, praying and hoping that soon they will post my payment.  I really don’t want to have to deal with this but I will tell you that it beats a surprise showing up in the mail.  Hopefully this is a minor fluke and it won’t be a recurring items but I can’t seem to relax when it comes to my mortgage company since they dropped the ball once I am paranoid that it’s going to happen again.  Almost worth refinancing to get away from them.  I’m not doing anything drastic just yet. 

On the Bear watch, he took all day yesterday but he finally went to the bathroom.  I made sure he had plenty of wet food throughout the day.  He spent sometime underneath the couch, once everyone thought I was going to vacuum but I tricked them and skipped it this week.  It was just too hot and the house is in decent shape. I had given him a pill for his bladder and I also broke out the pain meds and gave him a dose of that.  Man it wasn’t but 15 minutes and he was out of it like a light.  Sawing logs right in half.  He kept looking at me funny as he faded away into his slumber, as if to say I love you but something strange his happening.  This morning I made sure he had his food and fresh water.  I gave him his usual morning pill.  Nothing more, waiting to see what happens tonight.  I watched his output and it’s a strong stream, nothing like when he was younger but it’s decent.  I did some research on kidney failure, signs your cat is going to croak and what the normal amount of times a day a cat urinates.  All of this really bring any clarity to the issue.  I know that something within his body has changed but I don’t know what exactly.  This might be his new normal to only go once a day.  All I know is I am driving myself crazy with worry.  I don’t mind medicating him if he needs it but I don’t want to do it unnecessarily.  Stay tuned for more as the days go on. 

I got a decent nights sleep but Marv was sure to interrupt me a couple times. I just fell back to sleep, woke up to turn over thinking I had more time.  Started to go back to sleep and the alarm clock sounded off.  Wow, wasn’t expecting that but I didn’t delay I got out of bed and started with the day.

With next Monday being Independence Day here in the USA a lot of people are taking this week off.  Traffic is lighter and I can only imagine as we go forward it will keep getting lighter and lighter.  Of course light traffic means you can speed and the police count on that so they hide and run radar so you have to be careful or that fast drive home can wind up costing you more than the price of of the fuel your burning.  I love light traffic be it to or from work either way or both are great by me.  I can’t believe that were getting ready to go into July.  Time it passes so quickly.

Speaking of which it’s about time to get back to work.  Hope all is well in your world!

25 June 2016

It’s H O T

I have a high intolerance to heat and right now it’s just uncomfortable outside.  The best part of commuting to work is the chilly ride I get.  My car’s AC does a damn good job of keeping me cool.  On the weekends I use the truck and it’s older and doesn’t do as good of a job.  You have to be on a serious trip before you get any kind of cool from it in extreme weather.  I suspect that it needs to be charged.  I’ve got a kit here and can do that myself, but when I did it to my car a few years back, I actually broke the AC, so I am hesitant. 

I got a disturbing message this afternoon.  The eccentric old lady that was a friend of the couple I have Thanksgiving with passed away.  She said what she thought and there wasn’t a filter.  So she left us with one funny story.  She had COPD & Congestive Heart Failure.  She was in pain and just decided to forego any further treatment.  She went into Hospice on Monday.  For some dumb reason they were trying to intubate her.  That is not what she wanted and thankfully her daughter came in just in time to put a stop to it.  So now that is settled, they gave her a dose of Morphine.  Apparently on your first dose it just knocks you out.  She went to sleep for a while.  She woke up and said to her daughter, “You mean to tell me, I am still alive!?!”.  Her daughter said it’s not euthanasia it was Morphine.  See what I mean, she was kind of feisty!  I learned that she passed away on Tuesday.  Her friends took her cat and once she knew that was in place, it was like the last piece of the puzzle and she just left.  I only saw her once to twice a year but I miss her already. 

The eerie part was that I made Thanksgiving Reservations this week and thought that I would do something different this year.  I printed out invitations and was going to mail one to her but time just didn’t allow me to mail them quite yet.  I am glad because then I would have felt bad.  I changed the reservation today once I got the news and printed a new invitation.  It’s not going to be the same without her on Turkey Day but I know that we will still have a good time.  There is no funeral, she hated them.  There is supposed to be a memorial service for her around August.  I don’t understand why the delay but okay.  There is also no obit for her, which I thought was strange.  When my partner passed away there was an obit but it said there would be no services. 

On a better note, today I ventured out to get my new glasses.  They are okay and I compromised but I am not happy.  I just had to bite the bullet and order.  I am not done with trying to find the frame that I want and I hope that the model from the porn site, answers back so I can end my quest.  I went down to the pharmacy and got medicine for Big Boy.  I stopped and picked up the mail.  Bank statements, a bill and my Birchbox for Men was all waiting for me.  I came home and sat on the couch with some water.  Big Boy was at one end of the couch and kept looking at me like, I want attention.  So I picked him up and put him in my lap on the couch with me.  That would explain why my back is bothering me as I type this.  Anyway, we sat together for a long time and he was purring up a storm.  I could be wrong but I think he is trying to prepare me for his passing.  Anyway, he wanted down and I put him on the floor.  The vet has called twice today in follow up to an email that I sent yesterday.  Turns out he can be on the medicine that helps him go long term but they want me to try him on pain medicine, so we can figure out if he needs a muscle relaxer or pain medicine.  The pain medicine makes him delirious and I really don’t want to see him that way and don’t want to keep him in that state for a prolonged period of time.  He doesn’t act like he is in pain but then again cats are the masters of disguise.  He has spent some time in hiding today under the couch and that tells me he doesn’t feel well.  However he is still eating and drinking – begs for food and treats as well as attention.  So maybe he just feels slightly crummy.  He is acting like he is getting ready to block and if a little pill can prevent that then I am all for it.  He ran from me when it was bath time but he I fished him out of his hiding spot and once I got started he just loved it.  He kept grooming himself and never whimpered once, which is something new.  I took my time and gave him two shampoos to make sure his hind end was clean.  Let’s hope it stays that way.

My only meal out today was at Olive Garden.  I had the Spaghetti Pie with Meatballs.  It was one hell of a large portion and I was stuffed way beyond what I needed to be.  I’ve skipped supper but feel kind of ill so I want something but not sure what to eat.  I’ve been drinking Cold Water and had a little ice cream.  I think I am headed back for more ice cream.  Got a lot of TV to watch on the DVR.  Lance Bass is going to be on Family Feud this coming week.  I added the show to the DVR and it’s been recording every day.  This would be the show on ABC with Steve Harvey.  Wanted to make that clear so you don’t think it’s on another network, if your interested.  He’s kind of cute but taken.  Still it should be good to watch. 

Went car shopping online yesterday, had to take a late lunch.  I just don’t get how people pay for cars these days.  Leasing is attractive because they payment is low but once you go over the annual miles, they get you.  A friend of mine just leased a Nissan and he can do 36 thousand miles per year after that it’s 10 cents per mile.  I just did the math and I could easily work with that kind of allowance.  It would allow me to get to and from work as well as take some side trips.  However, at the end of the lease you don’t own the car but you will have an option to buy.  I have always heard that leasing is like stepping on a treadmill once you get on it’s hard to get off and there are fees all along the way.  I like the ownership option and that is all I have ever done with every car.  At the end it’s mine and were done.  I am 22 thousand miles out from being out of warranty and I really want something NEW before the warranty expires.  Date wise that would be September of 2017.  I am looking now but don’t think I will actually pull the trigger until fall.  I may even ride this out longer.  My car is fine knock wood.  The truck needs to have the wheel bearing fixed and I really don’t want to dump more money into it.  I would just as soon trade both vehicles in and get me 1 nice vehicle.  My budget tells me I can afford a car no problem.  My desire is to get an SUV because I like sitting up higher and driving the truck has actually helped me avoid accidents.  This will be the ultimate treat and also kind of scary because I will be making a financial commitment and that always makes me nervous.  I feel pretty safe in my job but today you never really know for sure.  Safe today and unemployed tomorrow.  All I hear is good news from my boss and that is what I like, I want it to stay that way.

Well time to go watch that TV and get in a snack before it’s time to go lights out.  Y’all take care and stay cool.  As Ellen says, be kind to each other.  Talk with you again soon.

22 June 2016

Still tired

There just doesn’t seem to be enough hours in the day to accomplish everything I want to do.  I have time to accomplish the basic tasks that are required to exist but beyond that most anything for pleasure has to wait until the weekend.  I’m not so sure why I am all of a sudden time poor.  The days and nights seem to pass very quickly.  Weekends are the exception to that they linger a little bit but not by much.  It is nice to get out of bed and not have a schedule.

I woke up this morning and it was as if I never went to bed in the first place.  I was up at least once to let Marvin out but that’s it.  I think it might be the heat zapping all of my energy and drive.  I do have an allergic reaction to heat in that I can easily get sick or if the temperature gets way up there I will pass out.  Right now in my part of the world it is summer time and my area is known for high temperatures but they usually don’t come on very strong until July.  That is not the case right now.  A/C is running every night and most of the weekend.  I have found a temperature that is comfortable for me and the children don’t complain.  Insty loves to curl up under my blankets but only when I am not in bed.  She crawls in and buries herself as if she is in a deep freeze.  Sometimes I will turn the A/C off for her but it’s not often.

Speaking of the little fur balls, everyone has had their birthday.  Momma is now 13 as of this past Sunday.  The kids turned 12 yesterday.  I love each one of them and am proud of them.  Bear has had the toughest fight by far.  I remember when there was a respiratory thing going through the house and all of the boys got it, that is way back when #1 son was alive.  I think it’s something Taz (aka LB) brought in.  We almost lost both Marv and Bear it was wicked.  I can also remember racing home to greet them as they were each born into the world..  Time flies by way too fast and memories are great but the more you remember the older you tend to be.

In light of the tragedy in Orlando I have made a couple of posts on my FB account and I readily admit that I am gay. I’ve never really put it out there for the world to see.  It felt good and empowering.  I am a private person for the most part but felt that it was time to open up and just let it all hang out, so to speak.  I was curious to see if my friend count changed or if anyone would say anything to me about it, but nope.  My friend count may have decreased by 1 or 2, but I don’t keep that close of tabs on who is my FB friend and who isn’t.  So if in fact someone left they don’t stand out to me.

It’s been a while since I have seen a comment posted and I was wondering if in fact anyone is still actually reading my blathering's?  While this is something that I enjoy doing and it’s therapeutic for me, if no one is reading it then I am just babbling for nothing.  So if your reading this, take a moment and let me know.  If there is a topic you want me to write about or a question you have, don’t be afraid to post that as well.  I am as friendly as I sound and I don’t bite.  Happy middle of the week everyone.  Two more days and then maybe I will be able to sleep in.  I really hope so, I could use a lazy day.  In fact I am surprised with the way I felt this morning that I actually made it in to work.  Best part about coming in and going home is the AC on full blast in the car.  Its like I am in freezer and it feels so good.  Take care.

20 June 2016


Sorry for the delay, life’s been busy and I am exhausted.  Let’s start with good news, the credit card I applied for a 2nd time came back with an approval.  Now it’s time to watch the mail and wait for the card.  I don’t have any idea what my credit limit is but I am happy that they approved me, which I kind of figured was going to happen.

Last week is pretty much a blur.  One of my co-workers families lost one of their family pets.  It was a small dog.  He got out and climbed the fence only to be eaten alive by the neighbors pit bull.  Horrible story and I felt so bad after I heard it.  I bought a card and then had a lady I work with who has a plasma cutter make me a couple crosses with the name of the dog.  Then I packaged it all up and sent it to her through interoffice mail.  She was thankful but at the same time she was crying her eyes out.  I warned her ahead of time that I was sending her a package that would evoke emotion.  I offered her the option to let it be a surprise or I could tell her.  She opted for the surprise. 

The eye doctor called and I stopped by to look at frames.  I have driven myself bat shit crazy over trying to find a match or even something remotely close to the glasses that Kennedy from Corbin Fisher wears.  I finally gave up, but it was a good conquest.  I opted to go with a pair of Nike’s which has been my brand of choice since I started wearing glasses.  I at least was able to get them in Blue.  Not as vibrant of a shade as I wanted.  They are on order and will most probably be in this Saturday but they told me to allow 10 working days.  They of course are paid for because they won’t place the order unless you pay for them up front.

Orange Is The New Black came out with a new season on Friday.  I watched the whole thing over the weekend.  Finished up the last episode this morning between 2 and 3 am when I woke up from a sound sleep and couldn’t go back to bed.  Insomnia is a bitch!  I even took extra medication because I haven’t been sleeping well and thought that it would knock me out and keep me out but sadly I was wrong. 

Big Boy gave me quite the scare yesterday.  He started peeing on himself and he was straining.  I gave him some medication to help with that.  Then he promptly retreated to hide under the couch and he was a little ways from it.  That told me he didn’t feel good.  Straining is one of the primary signs that he is blocking or worse blocked.  However, I saw a dribble so I knew he wasn’t 100% blocked.  I thought about it and opted to error on the side of caution.  I made an appointment and we went to the vet yesterday.  Neither of the regular docs were working.  I had to choose from the hack that cut into him or another doctor who is soft spoken.  I went with the soft speaker.  If that butcher would have come into the room I would have had a canary.  Anyway I loaded him in the truck and off we went.  As soon as I parked and went to get him out he was soaked and so was the passenger seat of the truck.  Next time I am just going to load him in the truck and we are going to go for a drive, then I’ll check him and if he isn’t soaking wet then I will make the vet appointment.  Turns out the doctor found some crystals forming on the outside that he had passed.  They are so fine that it’s hard to notice.  So I have to make sure to keep his penis clean, which is a difficult task because it’s buried in fur.  He got an ultrasound and it came back clean.  I got the bill which was only for the exam, paid cash and out the door we went. 

Momma rung in her 13th Birthday yesterday on Father’s Day.  The children including Big Boy will celebrate their 12th year on earth tomorrow.  Wow where in the world did the time go?  I remember when they were so small and now they are large and quite the handful.  I am so thankful for each and everyone of them, no matter how much a pain they are.  They are still a blessing and my children. 

Lastly I spent the bulk of the weekend rebuilding my laptop that I use here at work.  I visited a known infected site for an end user as a favor, I figured all of the protection on my machine I would be safe.  I got a huge pop up from Google that told me the site wasn’t safe.  Malwarebytes barked at me that it blocked me from surfing to the site and I thought that was the end of it.  I didn’t figure I was infected.  Turns out I was.  My machine was trying to phone home to what is known as command and control, if it was for our ISP Grade firewalls the connection would have been made and then I would have known for certain I was infected, it would have also spread to others on the network.  We started getting alerts and I put forth every defense and argument, even put in a firewall rule to block traffic to the address in question.  Still the alerts kept coming.  What sold me on rebuilding it was Microsoft.  They have a Malicious Software Removal Tool.  I downloaded and ran it.  The scan detected 3 items infected and then after two hours jumped to a whopping 115 and then an hour later the scan was done and it came back with no infection.  I ran the tool on my other machines because they have the same software and they didn’t behave in that manor.  I of course didn’t let the infected version on my network unless everything else was powered off or disconnected.  There was a need to get out to deactivate some software before I could reinstall it.  I spent the bulk of my time fighting with Bit Locker it didn’t want to take the decryption key even though I had it.  Then once the drive was decrypted it couldn’t find the damn recovery partition.  Thankfully Microsoft has a media creation tool for Windows 10, I used that and was able to turn a USB drive into media and got the drive wiped and a fresh copy of Windows installed.  Then it took a day and half to encrypt the entire drive.  Slow as a turtle, but thankfully it’s behind me. 

I hope this is going to be a good week.  I am really feeling the lack of sleep.  I just hope I make it through the afternoon with out nodding off.  Back to the fun!  Stay cool and safe.  Talk with you all again soon.

14 June 2016

Good News

I learned that Charlie Puth is going on tour again in the US and he is coming to my city.  Tickets go on sale later this week and you can bet your bottom dollar that I will be doing my very best to get a ticket to go see him.  I want to know that I have the ticket before I book time off.  He will be here on a Monday so that means I will be taking a Monday and Tuesday off.  I am giddy like a school girl over this and very much looking forward to seeing him preform live again.  Not only is he good looking he has an amazing voice.  No doubt that he has a very bright future ahead of him!



We made it to Tuesday.  Lots of news about the tragedy has come out of Orlando.  I saw today that the killers wife tried to talk him out of this.  Uh yeah I said wife.  I had no idea he was married.  I don’t understand why a married man would frequent a gay night club. What I don’t understand is that if his wife knew of his intentions why she didn’t call the police.  Now for all I know maybe she did but that wasn’t in the short blurb I read.  I was really surprised that he was married.  I also heard about a pastor who had a service that the world was rid of a bunch of pedophiles.  Really, but when the media reached out for comment the coward is no where to be found.  If your going to make statements like that then you should be man enough to face the press and answer the questions that the media has.  The article I read said that he referenced older scriptures.  Funny thing is that the Bible is an interpretation, do you know how many things get lost in translation?  Besides that if your going to quote the Bible for homosexuality then you shouldn’t be upset when someone quotes it back to you and tells you how you are not living up to the word either.  I mean were all sinners, none of us are perfect.  I just don’t understand why we can tolerate and get along better.  It would make the world so much more enjoyable to live in. 

Got my blood work results and my A1C is lower, as I predicted.  I am pretty proud of it and hope that in 3 more months the number is even lower.  Getting my diabetes in order is a huge priority for me but I still can’t seem to turn off that sweet tooth.  I wish my body were in better shape than round and that I had the abs of a Greek God but that is not who I am.  I sent the results off to the doc last night via fax and am mailing him a copy today.  The hospital where I went to have the work done doesn’t always communicate with him because he is not on staff.  There have been plenty of times where I have had to try to get the results so I could send them to him.  Now thanks to the electronic requirements of health care and patient portals it’s pretty easy to get results.  The hard part was getting them redacted so I didn’t clutter up the picture and show him much older data.

The children are doing okay.  Mr. Bear started to hang out at the top of the stairs, in my room and that kind of worried me.  He was away from his bed/litter box and didn’t use it for a couple days.  Instead he peed on the carpet, despite me putting down pee pads for him.  I wanted to ring his neck but I just sluffed it off.  Better to have him going than not.  I got him back to the bed/litter box last night and I told him today before I left to leave me a mess to come home to in his bed.  He knows what I mean and hopefully he will obey.  I need to know that he is going, ever since he blocked I am more scared than ever and watch his output like a hawk. 

Ruth’s stomach gave her a fit on Sunday but appears that she is back to normal now.  I got to give her a good back scratch last night.  She loves it.  I told her everyone likes having their back scratched.  I wish that I could train her to do mine but with those sharp claws it would be murder.  She has really warmed up to me and I am so happy about that.  I want us to get closer but it’s totally up to her.  They all know how to work me, I think that is a secret they happily share amongst themselves. 

My replacement for my old job started yesterday.  He is ramping up but he still has lots to learn.  I’ve given him a lot to digest but someone else is working with him on the day to day stuff.  I have told him I am happy to help and to reach out if he has questions.  Can’t do much more than that.  It’s like a cat you can put water in front of them but you can’t make them drink it. 

Lunch is almost over and it looks like I will be going to a cluster of a meeting.  This is the dreaded Tuesday project meeting about mobile device management.  It looked like it was coming together but has slowly fallen apart again.  The jury is still out on if I will need to purchase another phone.  I am monitoring the situation pretty closely.  If I do have to get another phone I will probably do something that is pre-paid to help keep costs under control.  For now it’s just 1 phone.  New iPhone should be coming out this fall and if I were to upgrade my present phone that would be the time I acted. 

I hope all is well.  Time to get back to it.  Take care.

12 June 2016

Total Shock



When I went to bed all was right with the world.  When I woke up I couldn’t say the same thing.  I can’t believe what happened in Orlando Florida.  I am even more devastated by the initial number of casualties, which is listed at 50.  I know that in the days to come that number will climb, which is even sadder. 

I think this was timed due to this being Pride month and the gunman probably figured that he stood a greater chance of taking out more people now than say a month ago or even a month from now.  That may or may not be true.  This tragedy will forever change the lives of many people.

I’ve never been to a gay nightclub or a Pride event.  I can tell you that if I would have decided to go and then this would have unfolded I probably wouldn’t want to go back, not to say I wouldn’t.  I live no where near Florida but due to the tropical climate it is one place that gay people love to flock to. 

Given the course of events with shootings not only in the work place, the movie theater and now a nightclub I think we are headed towards security checkpoints to be common place.  We will all find ourselves standing in line just to get through security.  Be it to enjoy a meal out, to go grocery shopping or even visiting the doctor.  Can you imagine this and then tack on one of those times when you have to pee.  Well there won’t be any cuts in line and chances are you will probably wind up peeing your pants. 

Lots of people say we need gun reform.  Guns don’t kill people.  People kill people.  Jack up the price of ammo, like Chris Rock said … $6k per bullet and that will solve this problem. 

America is a great country to live in.  We have liberties and freedoms that others don’t enjoy.  Many men and women have made the ultimate sacrifice so that you and I can live free.  I don’t understand why we want to turn against each other.

I do understand that there are several people, predominantly those of various religious backgrounds that despise gay people.  They think we should all be rounded up and put into a prison camp and shot. What they fail to realize is that straight people produced the gay people.  Being gay is not a choice, no matter what you hear.  I’ve said it before… who would chose to live a life where they are under constant persecution, made fun of and tortured all because of their sexual identity.  I can’t think of a single person who would chose that life for themselves.  I know that I wouldn’t.  It’s no fun and it does have lasting repercussions that stick with you through out your entire life. 

There is plenty of hate in this world and not enough love and peace.  Negativity is easy to come up with but it takes real resolve to be positive and stay that way.  Life it’s self is such a precious gift and it’s taken from us quickly.  Were all walking the earth but we all have an expiration date.  That date could be tomorrow or it could be several years from now.  Live your life as if today is your last day, do un to others as you would want them to do un to you.  These are all lessons we are taught as children but quickly forget about.  It’s sad that it takes an event like this to remind us of those lessons. 

The world will eventually come to an end, that I believe.  I also believe that as we get closer to that violence will become more common and events like this will be as common as picking up a hamburger at the local McDonald’s.  Regardless if your stupid, smart, educated or not its clear and ever present that we as humans are the problems.  The vast majority of us are law abiding and God Fearing citizens. 

My heart truly aches for the victims and their families of this senseless event.  I pray that they will be able to find comfort and that someone will be there for them to wipe away their tears and sadness. 

Peace be with you and may God Bless the United States of America.

11 June 2016

The rest of the week

Hey there!  Been a few days since I made an entry.  Time just got away from me.  The remainder of the week was busy.  Plenty to do.  I did tell my boss how shitty the training was that I went to.  He reached out to the company and found out that I wasn’t the only one who complained.  They made him an offer but he said I want my employee trained, I’m not interested in your offer I want my employee trained.  So I’m waiting to see what happens.  I did stress that I would rather not repeat the course.  I talked with a friend of mine who is super smart and even he agrees with me that this system is complicated.  He uses it but struggles and has to reach out to support frequently.  You’d think they would make their system easier to use but apparently they don’t think that is what their customers are asking for.  I just wonder how anyone uses it at all. 

Had my weekly review and the boss is pleased with my performance.  Totally happy that I am a go getter and grabbing things and digging in, regardless if I have been trained or not.  I figure it’s better to take something and learn than to leave it and not learn.  Learning is how I will grow and excel in this job.  It’s going to take time but it’s only been a month and a half.  While I don’t feel 100% secure I am told that I should, nothing is going to happen unless my work ethic changes.  While I don’t foresee that happening, I still want to give it sometime in the hopes that I will feel more comfortable and can then commit to making that large purchase of a new vehicle.  I so look forward to that. 

Speaking of vehicles today was a busy day.  I had to get my car emissions tested, my license plates are due for renewal, I got my blood drawn, had breakfast out, picked up more pee pads for Bear at the post office.  Talked to another eye place about the glasses I want.  Got a nap in, drove to the buffet, picked up cat food and started laundry.  It’s been a very busy but productive day.  Just what I had in mind.  I am trying to talk myself into driving the truck more on a daily basis but I saw by my trip today that it would be more expensive.  However, it would keep the miles off of my car.  The truck has many more miles and a higher chance of breaking down.  Then there is the matter of the wheel bearing that needs to be fixed.  I honestly just want to get my moneys worth out of it and really not interested in sinking more money into it.  It’s fun to drive in that I get to sit up higher and can see better.  However, it also reminds me of my late partner and the many trips we took in it – good times and bad.  Another reason why I want something brand new – it’s like a fresh start and I will be doing it all on my own.  When the time comes it will be another first experience and something that I will be proud of and equally as scared at the same time. 

My furry children are doing good, not to jinx anything.  Bear is really going through the pee pads.  I told him I would much rather pay for pee pads than to pay a vet bill and be overcome with worry.  He does still worry me as they all do.  On the way to the buffet I did stop and look at a house.  I am not interested in moving right now but there is another place that my late partner always wanted to live, it’s a really nice neighborhood but it’s filled with modular houses.  That is what he really wanted but our county was against them, we bought our house and presto a year later modular houses were popping up.  They are actually better constructed than a stick built home and are way more energy efficient.  The draw back is they have no basement.  They all look like regular houses and you can’t tell they are built in a factory and put together onsite.  They are just super nice. 

Speaking of houses, my co-worker that I gave the AC to last year, well earlier this year she went to open her window and the AC fell out.  Of course that broke it.  She didn’t go to test it but went to turn it on the other day and it was done for.  I found out yesterday and while I wasn’t pleased because it was a gift, at the same time it was a gift so it was hers to do with as she saw fit.  You can help people but you can’t save them from themselves. 

Still watching the mail and waiting to hear about that credit card.  You would think they would have reached out to me by now but nope.  I still call the 800 # and their system still has no record of me.  Given what they said I should hopefully be hearing from them next week or so I hope.  I could just as easily pickup the phone call their customer service department and have them search to see if they can find an account for me or know anything about my application but that would ruin the surprise factor.  I am ready to do it though. 

Nothing terribly exciting going on the usual, wash, rinse and repeat or as I say it WES (Work Eat Sleep).  Too bad I’m not actually talking about a guy named Wes.  Still looking through the apps at guys hoping to make a connection.  I did some checking for our LGBT Center and it’s closed for good.  Last year they were moving, guess that didn’t work out so well.  Then I checked into the Secret Society my former therapist told me about.  It’s a group called Prime Timers.  They upped their dues and I remembered why I want to avoid them like the plague.  Just not my cup of tea.

Now that things seem to be falling into place for me, you’d think that the icing on the cake would fall into place as well.  By that I mean that I would meet someone.  Would be nice if that happens soon, but all I can do is keep on trying.  Eventually just like looking for a job, looking for a partner the law of averages has to tilt in your favor eventually.  The only regret I have is that I don’t have more true friends.  I really think that would help me not only in finding a new partner but in life in general.  I mean who has way too many friends?  It’s just not a complaint that people voice. 

Well off to medicate the children and myself.  Then to watch TV until I pass out.  Wake up go grab breakfast and hit up the grocery store.  Then home to put all of the groceries away, and clean the house.  Try to relax a bit before Monday rolls back around.  New guy starts Monday, that is my replacement for my old job.  Look forward to meeting him and hope that he is easy to work with.  I’ll give him the secret to the sauce, I just hope like hell he doesn’t screw it up.  I know that some people are still going to gravitate towards me and while I don’t mind helping them now that there is a replacement I don’t want to overstep and do someone else's job.  It’s nice to be needed and wanted though. 

Happy weekend everyone.  Talk with you again soon. As usual I hope all is well in your world.