I am in STRESS mode. I really don’t want to eat, not sleeping very well and my stomach is in knots. I’ve started to gather and bring my stuff home from the office. I am going at a slow pace on purpose. I don’t want to freak anyone out, despite the fact that I am freaked out.
I am not certain of anything other than the fact I am going crazy. I really don’t want to work when I am at work, why do I want to give when they don’t want to keep me? Plus it’s difficult to concentrate. It makes for very long days. At one point I started nodding off and had to get some sugar to stay awake. I did work but I didn’t push myself.
I think that I am safe until Friday, perhaps a little longer. I have had no response to the trump card played – not sure if I will get a response.
Plus I happened to look at caller id and a vendor that I deal with has been calling for a couple days. I’ve been at my desk, so clearly they are talking with someone else. I spoke with them today and they of course deny it. I think not only does my boss want to get rid of me, but he wants to get the good deal I was able to arrange on PC’s.
There is a lot riding on whatever decision he makes. It will affect both me and the company. I sure hope that he knows what he is doing. I do have an awful lot of ammunition to be able to cause problems, just saying.
Well off to feed the nagging children and try to wind down. I know good luck with that. Talk with you peeps later.